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Hello everybody, I’m "finally" back after so long! I really want to apologize for not showing any sign of life and more importantly for worrying everyone (´･ω･`)
I will explain, I promise but first I want to say that I give all my support to Japan. If you can donate please do! Make sure you donate to the right relief efforts because there’re some people who would just take advantage of this situation (>_< ) Please check the video at the bottom of the entry too. Thanks!.
I trembled when I watch every videos from NHK World, I just couldn’t believe what I was watching in front of me, it was like unreal. And now every time I think about it, my heart will eventually hurt, the disaster at Sendai oh god… I was so anxious and scared back then because I have a friend in Japan. I just couldn’t stop myself in worrying about her. I never had such a bad weekend in my life I tell you. When I received her message, I shed tears, it was an immediate reaction of relief I guess. The first thing that came to mind was “Thank goodness, she’s safe, thank goodness!”. And now I still do pray for everybody’ safety and hope that things will get better soon.
A list of Japanese personalities’ safety has been spread, here’s the link.
Just so you know, Mai-K is safe, she was planning to make a live performance in order to promote her new single, 1000 Mankai no Kiss. It was canceled due to the earthquake disaster. I also got the confirmation of Chigusa Kawai-sensei. You can see more of it in her blog since I… don’t plan to show you Sensei’s mail. Well sorry that’s private. I don’t have anything to hide but still she told me a lot about the disaster and I’d rather keep quiet about them. Sensei’s place wasn’t affected by the earthquake so you can remain at rest \(^o^)/
Oh by the way, I’ve just known about it, it’s pretty awkward since I’ve just sent a mail to Sensei too (by the way, she’s changed her mail address). Anyway there’s a petition going around internet in order to bring La Esperança into a TV animation. I definitely want that to happen but I doubt that I will eventually be. La Esperança isn’t as popular as the BL series that have been adapted into animation (like Junjou Romantica). But the plot is a good deal and if this were ever to occur, it may end up to be a big success (*_*) What do you think of it? Should I mention it to Sensei too? I’m sure she’ll be pleased that oversea fans are doing a petition, though like I said the results have already been decided.
Now that everything was said, I will now explain over the past few months. Firsty, because there’s a beginning to my nightmare, I named as such because it really felt like one. Anyway I catched the influenza twice（￣□￣；）I used to get sick pretty fast but this was beyond my usual self. The second time I got it, both my Dad and bro also got the influenza eventually. And honestly I don’t know the reason but my Mom was still fine (o__O) despite having three sick people to take care of!!!! Meanwhile, I attended two things even though I really really really really really really didn’t want to attend them because of my sickness. But I did eventually because bro’s already ordered the entries and it’d be a waste if we didn’t go. I know, you’re saying that if you got the influenza you’d be going anywhere. Well yes I agree with this thinking but when the entries cost around 45€, I think it was 45€ ($64) or so, you wouldn’t be thinking that way, would you? So what did I attend? There I go with my reports:
Paris Game Week: A few words about this convention, it's about video games. There were exhibitors like Nintendo, Sony, Microsoft, but also the other branches. By attending it, I was planning to have a talk with Namco Bandai about the Tales of localization as a fan of the Tales of game series for so long (my first Tales of was Tales of Phantasia, I played the original Japanese version, the first RPG games I played ^o^)! Tales of games are so very disregarded for some reason in oversea countries. Just see what we got in France (in order): Tales of Symphonia (GC), Tales of Phantasia (GBA), Tales of Eternia (PSP), Tales of the World: Radiant Mythology (PSP) and Tales of Vesperia (Xbox360). Anyway I didn’t talk to them rather I couldn't, I was too sick to even think about it geeh. My speech wouldn't be credible if I were to cough every minutes, would it? (>_<) We didn't stay long either because it wasn't that interesting but we got to see the new Zelda (*__*) Other than Nintendo, I didn't have much fun. Well yeah I'm more into RPG and Nintendo titles so I wasn't interested in everything that were there in the first place. I was able to play Golden Sun: Dark Dawn , the game I was the most urged to try, before its release in December yay. I'm satisfied, I waited so long to get a new Golden Sun ヽ（´ー｀） Oh and I got free gifts live posters, stickers, pens, ec.
Japan Anime Live: Ok this was the real 45€. What is Japan Anime Live? It isn't a con but an anime related performance with music lives, voice acting, musicals ♥, etc. Most of the live performances were sung by a newcomer in the music industry: Piko ピコ originally from NicoNico Douga, he's singing Tegami Bachi and Gintama's Endings if you're wondering. He has a beautiful voice you know and you can easily mistaken his genre because he can sing with a male voice as well as a female one(^∀^ )
You can find his performances in Youtube, type Japan Anime Live in the browser search. Bro paid 45€ a seat (45 + 45 = 90€), we were located in front of the scene so from where I were, I could see ピコ's face Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ
List of the animes (in order):
- Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood:
Live performances: again, Golden Time Lover & RAY OF LIGHT
Voice acting: I only remember two scenes ^_^;;;; there were that one with Scar and Kimblee while the last one made me blushed ^o^///////. That was the last scene between Ed and Winry kyaaaaa
- Bleach:
Live performances: Rolling Star & Hanabi (sung by Miki Sato aka Rukia ♥)
Musicals: guess you've already watched Bleach musicals, haven't you? If not, nevermind, the scene was about Rukia being taken away by Byakuya and Renji, etc.- One Piece
Live performances: We Are! & Bon Voyage!
Voice dubbing: I don't watch One Piece nor do I read it either but the voice acting was fun. The main character is dubbed by a female voice artist in French!
- Gundam series
Live performances: a medleyof Just Communication/Believe/Ignaited, Ryusei no Namida & Hakanakumo Eikyuno Hanashi
Lack of other performances making more Gundam live performances.
- Naruto
Live performances: Go! & Blue Bird
Live action: I don't watch Naruto either but as One Piece, it was fun, I was really impressed by their moves!
Due to the crazy price, I assume it didn't sell well because yeah I can tell there weren't that many people! Eventually the seats left were sold for only 5€, my cousins joined Bro and me, their seats were behind but nevermind it you could sit anywhere you wanted to from the beginning as long as it was not taken by anyone and that's why I joined them afterwards.
To resume, what I like the most in this event (besides Piko XD) was Bleach musicals hehe. Saddly they only focused on popular mainstream series, well I think I can understand it but that's just so sad. I heard that Piko performed "Wasurenagusa" from Tegami Bachi Reverse in other countries waaaaaaaaaaaaah NO FAIR!!!!
That's it for my reports, now back to the main topic, things turned out to be horrible soon after. That's about my health actually... So you know, I didn't even mention it to my closed ones, neither my cousins nor my RL friends. Let's say I felt dizzier and dizzier back then, usually it would happen like 1-2 times a month but for some reason this dizziness was repeating every single day and I eventually fainted. I have no idea how long I fainted, Mom found me unconscious laying on the floor of the bathroom. It scared me, it was completely white, well that was what I saw in my mind. My head was spinning and I was like lost in an unknown place or something... If it were just a mere loss of consciousness, I wouldn't be naming it a nightmare. It was just the beginning of a long nightmare. I was throwing up everything that I was eating, I couldn't even sleep well either.
I didn't really realized it at the beginning because I didn't understand what happened to me either that day but I had what Doctors called a "Thoracic Compression Fracture". Please visit this site for more informations, I can't explain it well myself. But to resume, I couldn't move for a very long period. My bones were broken at some places, either behind, in front or the sides. I'm not so sure about it, my doctor couldn't tell exactly if it was due to my blackout either (by the way I took a lot of examinations and besides dizziness and the fracture, I'd another disease that I still do at the very moment of my typing, awkward to mention but it's not as serious as those...); even though that's likely it. I don't know if it's written in that site, but you know when you get a thoracic frature, it means every bones related to it are affected, thus it implies my throat and lung bones (hard to breath eek) as well. Why my throat? Well I couldn't eat anything without having some issues, it might be stucked and I would just end up choked or something. So basically I was eating very very very very small foods and despite of that, it still hurt to swallow any of them so I was most likely eating soup, not very convenient I admit -__-||| Honestly I think eating small foods or soup wasn't a big deal but not being able to move at all really were because resting was what I was... ordered to do this whole time by my doctor. I think I would go insane it it lasted longer than this, I didn't enjoy the time when I was laying on the bed ( ￣_￣)
My doctor said that I was more likely overdoing things thus causing my dizziness because of my anemia (the examination revealed that I still have it: 12 while.normal people are supposed to be around 100). I assume it's true that in everything that I put myself trough, I've always been working more than I'm supposed to. I have a weak constitution from the start, it's been years and I can't do anything about it either besides not overdoing. It's just... not this simple. You can't do it by just saying it. I mean I don't like to be treated differently from others, oh god I'm having tears while typing this and listening to a sad song doesn't help much lol (~> Smile by Toshiko Ezaki, I recommend it, such a beautiful song). Well I mean being taken apart from other is something that also hurts, because I can't do the things that normal people do. Brother told me that I should have pressed charges against my teachers www because they didn't care about my health back then. I didn't mention anything to them either, my classmates noticed it though (to be honest I was surprised they did O_O). Bro was just joking anyway however I think he's really upset somehow... I might try to remain as joyful as possible, I don't like to make people worried. Just see my Mom, she's so very worried about me now. I'm aware of it, I know I shouldn't act like I usually do. I guess what Im typying on Livejournal are things that I can't tell in front of others, it's like a diary. My family nor do my RL friends don't use Livejournal so I feel more at ease to write down those things...
In the meanwhile, Bro was on holidays (three months) so I didn't feel too much separated from outside. Really he's been taking care of me so much and I really am thankful to him for being here for me and obviously for being such a great brother, my big brother m(_ _)m And of course my parents did take care of me, it was a bit annoying to have them coming to my bedromm and checking on me by asking if I was alright every hours ww But it's not such a bad thing, it means what it means = my family loves me and I love them too ♥\(^o^ )
I was watching movies (like all Pixar's animation movies), animes (like Gintama, Kenshin, Paranoia Agent), read novels (The Melancoly of Haruhi Suzyumiya ^__^) and I also (re-)played some video games like Durarara!! 3way standoff (PSP), Golden Sun Dark Dawn (DS), Fire Emblem: Radiant Dawn (Wii, uwaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I definitely recommend it to anyone, I consider it as the BEST tactical RPG of all time!!!! Ike, Soren, Sothe, Volke annnnnnnnd especially Ranulf *dies* I want him in the next Smash Bros, come onnnnnnnn./also want Raiden from MGS onegai desu), Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the new World (Wii) and Togainu no Chi Portable (PSP) and..... Heavy Rain (PS3) which I recommend too! I know there're three "Dawn" right there: Dark "Dawn", Radiant "Dawn" and "Dawn" of the new World wwwww For some reason, I was too lazy to read the manga that I've purchased, I didn't read them, not before not now ^_^;;;. I'm under my bro's influence haha, he owns a big collection of manga, anime and BD but he does nothing with them. He doesn't read them nor does he watch them either. The only thing he does is playing video games which I can somehow understand since I like video games more than anime/manga.
What I remember the most was that movie I watched, I can't believe my bro made me watched this, he's even bought the BD O__O! In my opinion it's the most psychological frightening movie, if you can't take it, don't watch because you'll have either nightmares or having serious thoughts about it in whatever you do, which I had. Scrary movies don't make me have nightmare but I always think about them for some reason ^_^;;;;; Beforehand, my Bro kinda lied to me before I watched it, he said that "they found this recording". That's a recording movie, it's called Paranormal Activity (PA, abbreviation for Bro and me). There's a second episode but Bro doesn't recommend it, I didn't watch it either because I already had a bad experience with the first movie. As mentioned earlier, Bro told me that they "found" this recording and I really thought they did and something else. When I was watching it (in his bedroom, everything that I've watched was in his bedroom, will tell why later on), it was on night and back then I think the weather wasn't good. I could see things flying all over from his window. These things were foams, my building is under construction, they've been adding foams to prevent from the cold). And because of the heavy wind, the foams were flying haha. But wait it's also very dangerous, what would happen it were to hit a car (>_< ) Anyway apparently the street was full of foarms (I live in a large street), even the trees turned white hahaha, it was like snowing!
We spend both Christmas and New Year (we ordered sushis for the New Year ♥) at home. That time my thoracic frature was getting better, I got to know about it since I could eat bigger foods than previously, my bones still hurt though but at least I was at that moment able to walk. Oh and my Bro also got health issues... an allergy due to a treatment he was getting: buldge located in his arms and foot. He couldn't move either （；_・ ） Thanks goodness he was still on holidays!!! Speaking of Bro, I was doing everything in his room because of the constructions. We were told to close the shutter but one of my bedroom's shutter is broken. And that one is located in a place where you can see everything in my room (=_= ) [if you can fly to my bedroom I mean]. So when thet were doing those constructions, I didn't want to remain in my bedroom. Really believe me, if someone was watching your every moves, you wouldn't want to stay there either, right? So most of the time I was in my Bro's bedroom or in the living room.
Once I could move properly like usual or so, the first place I went was Junku, my Japanese bookstore. Why? Because if I didn't go there they would have taken down my subscriptions (´･ω･｀) Well it's been three months that I haven't been at my bookstore and before I subscribed to my magazines, they mentioned something about them keeping the issues for three months. And besides you know, when I went to got them, the cashier even mentioned this once again and I was like "I know, I know, I'm sorry".
My long nightmares weren't just about my health. Both my computer and screen were broken. I know that it'd occur sooner or later. I mean, remember last year how crazy it was acting. As for the screen, mine was older than my computer. Same goes to my mp3 player, it isn't working anymore, the error was so weird yet. Seriously I'm wondering if I'm not just cursed there're too many coincidences. And something else's been happening to me right now (will talk about it later too). Ok so I have three materials broken and again, really . *sniff* I love my family, I really do... aaaah stop with the emo, baka ore wa. My parents got me a new screen (resolution: 1680x1050) while Bro paid half the price of a new computer (800€/$1,150). He was going to get a new computer anyway (forgot its price around 1 200-1 400€ I think) and wanted to help me with my matter (rather it was a BIG help). Here's a pic of my computer, Bro's is much more better than mine, not surprising considering its price. As for the mp3 player, Bro gave me his since he's playing musics with his iPhone.
I thought everything were going to be alright now but no, my nightmares are still going on. I don't like to install computers, going through every softwares is crazy (>_< ), glad that it's Windows 7 anyway. I tried to use my external hard drives and...... I found out that one of the two I own died... I have quite lots of things (1 000Gb). What have been lost is lost and there's nothing that I can do to get them back. However it devastated me and bro eventually gave me another hard drive (he has too many unused ones) that I haven't used and will certainly not either. I lost stuff like my scans, not all of them but still, I lost some pic I took with my cam, I lost Mai-K's related stuff (videos/musics/pics/etc) this is what is saddening me the most, I lost 80% of scanlation matters, etc.
Oh forgot to mention this, when we received my computer, the computer case was slightly broken and we informed them about it. In similar case, changing the computer case would be more convenient to both parties. From what my bro told me, they didn't have any more case however a substitution of the computer is possible. I was already using the computer (installing and trying to list what I've lost...) so there were only an option left for them, they offer us another same computer. We didn't get it, they say that it was to apologize to us, well yeah my bro's computer was delayed to a month. So we basically got two same computers. Huh? Two computers for the price of a single one?!?!? Nah, it looks like it was also a mistake from the beginning on their part and we quickly know it when the deliverer came... I had to transfer things to the new computer and format the one I was using. It took me four days to install/transfer everything (installing my printer/scanner in Windows 7 64bits @__@) and now they're asking me to do it once more! No more of it, please! I'm now using that very computer we exchanged with Dell's after sales service, for some dark reason there might be something wrong with it or maybe that has do it with my screen idk (x_x ) (Bro get back home quickly xD)
There's this thing that is kind of both annoying and frightening me... I might be harassed or just spammed by an unknown number who is constantly phoning me through my cellphone. I don't know what to do anymore, I wasn't giving any thought about it up untill now but the other day, that unknown number left a nasty message on my cellphone. I heard a weird sound coming from it ( ﾟ Дﾟ) It sounds like when you hit a pipe and repeat it again and again. For a second I was thinking about going to the police station. I'm somehow er... freaking out so I made the decision not to open my cellphone anymore for a while... I hope it’s not a stalker behind this, I mean I don’t like stalker, who like them anyway? In my high school life, I was stalked by someone who was in love with me… It might just be just a prank call, which is phoning 4-6 times a day though.
I will end this long and long talk, Thank you to those who read it right to the end m(_ _ )m I will type things more pleasant from now on (not today, it took me three days to finish this entry, I got many errors from LJ, not to mention that my internet is really slow recently >.< Maybe tomorrow, idk I want to study). I received many orders like DRRR!!, DRRR!! and DRRR!! XD /squeezing Izayan & Shizzy's plushies (my new icon nya) so I'm pretty sure you'll be liking my future entries (look what came in my mailbox yesterday ♥). And everything is thanks to my Dad and Bro again who helped me with my orders. Bro even got me the 2011 Pokémon Calendar from the Best Wishes series with Satoshi, Iris and Dent omggg \(*o* )/ it hasn't arrived but I look forward to the illustations!
I also plan to change my mail address (how should I name it?), it seems that my usual address doesn't work well (still no notification from LJ, as well as those from other websites). I will try to reply you as soon as possible (don't expect things this weekend, I will not be there gomen ne) either mails or LJ private messages (oh god 120 mails + 60 LJ PM + 40 other LJ messages @____@), if you will not get my reply, it would mean that I didn't get your mail in my mailbox. Please resend it! Now it was said, thank you again for reading my entry, it feel a bit strange to be on Livejournal once again but I'm glad to be there.
A little thought about Japan and the sinisters: LOVE ONE ANOTHER by Michael Africk feat Mai Kuraki (from Michael Africk's first album). If you can, please buy this song for only $1.23.
"100% of download profits of this single will go directly to the Red Cross Japan 2011 Earthquake Relief effort".
Spread this video and support Japan. Thank you~~*
LOVE ONE ANOTHER - Michael Africk feat. Mai Kuraki
I will explain, I promise but first I want to say that I give all my support to Japan. If you can donate please do! Make sure you donate to the right relief efforts because there’re some people who would just take advantage of this situation (>_< ) Please check the video at the bottom of the entry too. Thanks!.
I trembled when I watch every videos from NHK World, I just couldn’t believe what I was watching in front of me, it was like unreal. And now every time I think about it, my heart will eventually hurt, the disaster at Sendai oh god… I was so anxious and scared back then because I have a friend in Japan. I just couldn’t stop myself in worrying about her. I never had such a bad weekend in my life I tell you. When I received her message, I shed tears, it was an immediate reaction of relief I guess. The first thing that came to mind was “Thank goodness, she’s safe, thank goodness!”. And now I still do pray for everybody’ safety and hope that things will get better soon.
A list of Japanese personalities’ safety has been spread, here’s the link.
Just so you know, Mai-K is safe, she was planning to make a live performance in order to promote her new single, 1000 Mankai no Kiss. It was canceled due to the earthquake disaster. I also got the confirmation of Chigusa Kawai-sensei. You can see more of it in her blog since I… don’t plan to show you Sensei’s mail. Well sorry that’s private. I don’t have anything to hide but still she told me a lot about the disaster and I’d rather keep quiet about them. Sensei’s place wasn’t affected by the earthquake so you can remain at rest \(^o^)/
Oh by the way, I’ve just known about it, it’s pretty awkward since I’ve just sent a mail to Sensei too (by the way, she’s changed her mail address). Anyway there’s a petition going around internet in order to bring La Esperança into a TV animation. I definitely want that to happen but I doubt that I will eventually be. La Esperança isn’t as popular as the BL series that have been adapted into animation (like Junjou Romantica). But the plot is a good deal and if this were ever to occur, it may end up to be a big success (*_*) What do you think of it? Should I mention it to Sensei too? I’m sure she’ll be pleased that oversea fans are doing a petition, though like I said the results have already been decided.
Now that everything was said, I will now explain over the past few months. Firsty, because there’s a beginning to my nightmare, I named as such because it really felt like one. Anyway I catched the influenza twice（￣□￣；）I used to get sick pretty fast but this was beyond my usual self. The second time I got it, both my Dad and bro also got the influenza eventually. And honestly I don’t know the reason but my Mom was still fine (o__O) despite having three sick people to take care of!!!! Meanwhile, I attended two things even though I really really really really really really didn’t want to attend them because of my sickness. But I did eventually because bro’s already ordered the entries and it’d be a waste if we didn’t go. I know, you’re saying that if you got the influenza you’d be going anywhere. Well yes I agree with this thinking but when the entries cost around 45€, I think it was 45€ ($64) or so, you wouldn’t be thinking that way, would you? So what did I attend? There I go with my reports:
Paris Game Week: A few words about this convention, it's about video games. There were exhibitors like Nintendo, Sony, Microsoft, but also the other branches. By attending it, I was planning to have a talk with Namco Bandai about the Tales of localization as a fan of the Tales of game series for so long (my first Tales of was Tales of Phantasia, I played the original Japanese version, the first RPG games I played ^o^)! Tales of games are so very disregarded for some reason in oversea countries. Just see what we got in France (in order): Tales of Symphonia (GC), Tales of Phantasia (GBA), Tales of Eternia (PSP), Tales of the World: Radiant Mythology (PSP) and Tales of Vesperia (Xbox360). Anyway I didn’t talk to them rather I couldn't, I was too sick to even think about it geeh. My speech wouldn't be credible if I were to cough every minutes, would it? (>_<) We didn't stay long either because it wasn't that interesting but we got to see the new Zelda (*__*) Other than Nintendo, I didn't have much fun. Well yeah I'm more into RPG and Nintendo titles so I wasn't interested in everything that were there in the first place. I was able to play Golden Sun: Dark Dawn , the game I was the most urged to try, before its release in December yay. I'm satisfied, I waited so long to get a new Golden Sun ヽ（´ー｀） Oh and I got free gifts live posters, stickers, pens, ec.
Japan Anime Live: Ok this was the real 45€. What is Japan Anime Live? It isn't a con but an anime related performance with music lives, voice acting, musicals ♥, etc. Most of the live performances were sung by a newcomer in the music industry: Piko ピコ originally from NicoNico Douga, he's singing Tegami Bachi and Gintama's Endings if you're wondering. He has a beautiful voice you know and you can easily mistaken his genre because he can sing with a male voice as well as a female one(^∀^ )
You can find his performances in Youtube, type Japan Anime Live in the browser search. Bro paid 45€ a seat (45 + 45 = 90€), we were located in front of the scene so from where I were, I could see ピコ's face Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ
List of the animes (in order):
- Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood:
Live performances: again, Golden Time Lover & RAY OF LIGHT
Voice acting: I only remember two scenes ^_^;;;; there were that one with Scar and Kimblee while the last one made me blushed ^o^///////. That was the last scene between Ed and Winry kyaaaaa
- Bleach:
Live performances: Rolling Star & Hanabi (sung by Miki Sato aka Rukia ♥)
Musicals: guess you've already watched Bleach musicals, haven't you? If not, nevermind, the scene was about Rukia being taken away by Byakuya and Renji, etc.- One Piece
Live performances: We Are! & Bon Voyage!
Voice dubbing: I don't watch One Piece nor do I read it either but the voice acting was fun. The main character is dubbed by a female voice artist in French!
- Gundam series
Live performances: a medleyof Just Communication/Believe/Ignaited, Ryusei no Namida & Hakanakumo Eikyuno Hanashi
Lack of other performances making more Gundam live performances.
- Naruto
Live performances: Go! & Blue Bird
Live action: I don't watch Naruto either but as One Piece, it was fun, I was really impressed by their moves!
Due to the crazy price, I assume it didn't sell well because yeah I can tell there weren't that many people! Eventually the seats left were sold for only 5€, my cousins joined Bro and me, their seats were behind but nevermind it you could sit anywhere you wanted to from the beginning as long as it was not taken by anyone and that's why I joined them afterwards.
To resume, what I like the most in this event (besides Piko XD) was Bleach musicals hehe. Saddly they only focused on popular mainstream series, well I think I can understand it but that's just so sad. I heard that Piko performed "Wasurenagusa" from Tegami Bachi Reverse in other countries waaaaaaaaaaaaah NO FAIR!!!!
That's it for my reports, now back to the main topic, things turned out to be horrible soon after. That's about my health actually... So you know, I didn't even mention it to my closed ones, neither my cousins nor my RL friends. Let's say I felt dizzier and dizzier back then, usually it would happen like 1-2 times a month but for some reason this dizziness was repeating every single day and I eventually fainted. I have no idea how long I fainted, Mom found me unconscious laying on the floor of the bathroom. It scared me, it was completely white, well that was what I saw in my mind. My head was spinning and I was like lost in an unknown place or something... If it were just a mere loss of consciousness, I wouldn't be naming it a nightmare. It was just the beginning of a long nightmare. I was throwing up everything that I was eating, I couldn't even sleep well either.
I didn't really realized it at the beginning because I didn't understand what happened to me either that day but I had what Doctors called a "Thoracic Compression Fracture". Please visit this site for more informations, I can't explain it well myself. But to resume, I couldn't move for a very long period. My bones were broken at some places, either behind, in front or the sides. I'm not so sure about it, my doctor couldn't tell exactly if it was due to my blackout either (by the way I took a lot of examinations and besides dizziness and the fracture, I'd another disease that I still do at the very moment of my typing, awkward to mention but it's not as serious as those...); even though that's likely it. I don't know if it's written in that site, but you know when you get a thoracic frature, it means every bones related to it are affected, thus it implies my throat and lung bones (hard to breath eek) as well. Why my throat? Well I couldn't eat anything without having some issues, it might be stucked and I would just end up choked or something. So basically I was eating very very very very small foods and despite of that, it still hurt to swallow any of them so I was most likely eating soup, not very convenient I admit -__-||| Honestly I think eating small foods or soup wasn't a big deal but not being able to move at all really were because resting was what I was... ordered to do this whole time by my doctor. I think I would go insane it it lasted longer than this, I didn't enjoy the time when I was laying on the bed ( ￣_￣)
My doctor said that I was more likely overdoing things thus causing my dizziness because of my anemia (the examination revealed that I still have it: 12 while.normal people are supposed to be around 100). I assume it's true that in everything that I put myself trough, I've always been working more than I'm supposed to. I have a weak constitution from the start, it's been years and I can't do anything about it either besides not overdoing. It's just... not this simple. You can't do it by just saying it. I mean I don't like to be treated differently from others, oh god I'm having tears while typing this and listening to a sad song doesn't help much lol (~> Smile by Toshiko Ezaki, I recommend it, such a beautiful song). Well I mean being taken apart from other is something that also hurts, because I can't do the things that normal people do. Brother told me that I should have pressed charges against my teachers www because they didn't care about my health back then. I didn't mention anything to them either, my classmates noticed it though (to be honest I was surprised they did O_O). Bro was just joking anyway however I think he's really upset somehow... I might try to remain as joyful as possible, I don't like to make people worried. Just see my Mom, she's so very worried about me now. I'm aware of it, I know I shouldn't act like I usually do. I guess what Im typying on Livejournal are things that I can't tell in front of others, it's like a diary. My family nor do my RL friends don't use Livejournal so I feel more at ease to write down those things...
In the meanwhile, Bro was on holidays (three months) so I didn't feel too much separated from outside. Really he's been taking care of me so much and I really am thankful to him for being here for me and obviously for being such a great brother, my big brother m(_ _)m And of course my parents did take care of me, it was a bit annoying to have them coming to my bedromm and checking on me by asking if I was alright every hours ww But it's not such a bad thing, it means what it means = my family loves me and I love them too ♥\(^o^ )
I was watching movies (like all Pixar's animation movies), animes (like Gintama, Kenshin, Paranoia Agent), read novels (The Melancoly of Haruhi Suzyumiya ^__^) and I also (re-)played some video games like Durarara!! 3way standoff (PSP), Golden Sun Dark Dawn (DS), Fire Emblem: Radiant Dawn (Wii, uwaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I definitely recommend it to anyone, I consider it as the BEST tactical RPG of all time!!!! Ike, Soren, Sothe, Volke annnnnnnnd especially Ranulf *dies* I want him in the next Smash Bros, come onnnnnnnn./also want Raiden from MGS onegai desu), Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the new World (Wii) and Togainu no Chi Portable (PSP) and..... Heavy Rain (PS3) which I recommend too! I know there're three "Dawn" right there: Dark "Dawn", Radiant "Dawn" and "Dawn" of the new World wwwww For some reason, I was too lazy to read the manga that I've purchased, I didn't read them, not before not now ^_^;;;. I'm under my bro's influence haha, he owns a big collection of manga, anime and BD but he does nothing with them. He doesn't read them nor does he watch them either. The only thing he does is playing video games which I can somehow understand since I like video games more than anime/manga.
What I remember the most was that movie I watched, I can't believe my bro made me watched this, he's even bought the BD O__O! In my opinion it's the most psychological frightening movie, if you can't take it, don't watch because you'll have either nightmares or having serious thoughts about it in whatever you do, which I had. Scrary movies don't make me have nightmare but I always think about them for some reason ^_^;;;;; Beforehand, my Bro kinda lied to me before I watched it, he said that "they found this recording". That's a recording movie, it's called Paranormal Activity (PA, abbreviation for Bro and me). There's a second episode but Bro doesn't recommend it, I didn't watch it either because I already had a bad experience with the first movie. As mentioned earlier, Bro told me that they "found" this recording and I really thought they did and something else. When I was watching it (in his bedroom, everything that I've watched was in his bedroom, will tell why later on), it was on night and back then I think the weather wasn't good. I could see things flying all over from his window. These things were foams, my building is under construction, they've been adding foams to prevent from the cold). And because of the heavy wind, the foams were flying haha. But wait it's also very dangerous, what would happen it were to hit a car (>_< ) Anyway apparently the street was full of foarms (I live in a large street), even the trees turned white hahaha, it was like snowing!
We spend both Christmas and New Year (we ordered sushis for the New Year ♥) at home. That time my thoracic frature was getting better, I got to know about it since I could eat bigger foods than previously, my bones still hurt though but at least I was at that moment able to walk. Oh and my Bro also got health issues... an allergy due to a treatment he was getting: buldge located in his arms and foot. He couldn't move either （；_・ ） Thanks goodness he was still on holidays!!! Speaking of Bro, I was doing everything in his room because of the constructions. We were told to close the shutter but one of my bedroom's shutter is broken. And that one is located in a place where you can see everything in my room (=_= ) [if you can fly to my bedroom I mean]. So when thet were doing those constructions, I didn't want to remain in my bedroom. Really believe me, if someone was watching your every moves, you wouldn't want to stay there either, right? So most of the time I was in my Bro's bedroom or in the living room.
Once I could move properly like usual or so, the first place I went was Junku, my Japanese bookstore. Why? Because if I didn't go there they would have taken down my subscriptions (´･ω･｀) Well it's been three months that I haven't been at my bookstore and before I subscribed to my magazines, they mentioned something about them keeping the issues for three months. And besides you know, when I went to got them, the cashier even mentioned this once again and I was like "I know, I know, I'm sorry".
My long nightmares weren't just about my health. Both my computer and screen were broken. I know that it'd occur sooner or later. I mean, remember last year how crazy it was acting. As for the screen, mine was older than my computer. Same goes to my mp3 player, it isn't working anymore, the error was so weird yet. Seriously I'm wondering if I'm not just cursed there're too many coincidences. And something else's been happening to me right now (will talk about it later too). Ok so I have three materials broken and again, really . *sniff* I love my family, I really do... aaaah stop with the emo, baka ore wa. My parents got me a new screen (resolution: 1680x1050) while Bro paid half the price of a new computer (800€/$1,150). He was going to get a new computer anyway (forgot its price around 1 200-1 400€ I think) and wanted to help me with my matter (rather it was a BIG help). Here's a pic of my computer, Bro's is much more better than mine, not surprising considering its price. As for the mp3 player, Bro gave me his since he's playing musics with his iPhone.
I thought everything were going to be alright now but no, my nightmares are still going on. I don't like to install computers, going through every softwares is crazy (>_< ), glad that it's Windows 7 anyway. I tried to use my external hard drives and...... I found out that one of the two I own died... I have quite lots of things (1 000Gb). What have been lost is lost and there's nothing that I can do to get them back. However it devastated me and bro eventually gave me another hard drive (he has too many unused ones) that I haven't used and will certainly not either. I lost stuff like my scans, not all of them but still, I lost some pic I took with my cam, I lost Mai-K's related stuff (videos/musics/pics/etc) this is what is saddening me the most, I lost 80% of scanlation matters, etc.
Oh forgot to mention this, when we received my computer, the computer case was slightly broken and we informed them about it. In similar case, changing the computer case would be more convenient to both parties. From what my bro told me, they didn't have any more case however a substitution of the computer is possible. I was already using the computer (installing and trying to list what I've lost...) so there were only an option left for them, they offer us another same computer. We didn't get it, they say that it was to apologize to us, well yeah my bro's computer was delayed to a month. So we basically got two same computers. Huh? Two computers for the price of a single one?!?!? Nah, it looks like it was also a mistake from the beginning on their part and we quickly know it when the deliverer came... I had to transfer things to the new computer and format the one I was using. It took me four days to install/transfer everything (installing my printer/scanner in Windows 7 64bits @__@) and now they're asking me to do it once more! No more of it, please! I'm now using that very computer we exchanged with Dell's after sales service, for some dark reason there might be something wrong with it or maybe that has do it with my screen idk (x_x ) (Bro get back home quickly xD)
There's this thing that is kind of both annoying and frightening me... I might be harassed or just spammed by an unknown number who is constantly phoning me through my cellphone. I don't know what to do anymore, I wasn't giving any thought about it up untill now but the other day, that unknown number left a nasty message on my cellphone. I heard a weird sound coming from it ( ﾟ Дﾟ) It sounds like when you hit a pipe and repeat it again and again. For a second I was thinking about going to the police station. I'm somehow er... freaking out so I made the decision not to open my cellphone anymore for a while... I hope it’s not a stalker behind this, I mean I don’t like stalker, who like them anyway? In my high school life, I was stalked by someone who was in love with me… It might just be just a prank call, which is phoning 4-6 times a day though.
I will end this long and long talk, Thank you to those who read it right to the end m(_ _ )m I will type things more pleasant from now on (not today, it took me three days to finish this entry, I got many errors from LJ, not to mention that my internet is really slow recently >.< Maybe tomorrow, idk I want to study). I received many orders like DRRR!!, DRRR!! and DRRR!! XD /squeezing Izayan & Shizzy's plushies (my new icon nya) so I'm pretty sure you'll be liking my future entries (look what came in my mailbox yesterday ♥). And everything is thanks to my Dad and Bro again who helped me with my orders. Bro even got me the 2011 Pokémon Calendar from the Best Wishes series with Satoshi, Iris and Dent omggg \(*o* )/ it hasn't arrived but I look forward to the illustations!
I also plan to change my mail address (how should I name it?), it seems that my usual address doesn't work well (still no notification from LJ, as well as those from other websites). I will try to reply you as soon as possible (don't expect things this weekend, I will not be there gomen ne) either mails or LJ private messages (oh god 120 mails + 60 LJ PM + 40 other LJ messages @____@), if you will not get my reply, it would mean that I didn't get your mail in my mailbox. Please resend it! Now it was said, thank you again for reading my entry, it feel a bit strange to be on Livejournal once again but I'm glad to be there.
A little thought about Japan and the sinisters: LOVE ONE ANOTHER by Michael Africk feat Mai Kuraki (from Michael Africk's first album). If you can, please buy this song for only $1.23.
"100% of download profits of this single will go directly to the Red Cross Japan 2011 Earthquake Relief effort".
Spread this video and support Japan. Thank you~~*
LOVE ONE ANOTHER - Michael Africk feat. Mai Kuraki
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