i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep ( Read more... )

my mom's side of the family celebrated christmas on sunday. my uncle david dressed up like santa and ho ho ho'ed all the way around the house. my 32 little second cousins were wide-eyed and excited that santa had come to visit them in person ( Read more... )

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last night was awful ( Read more... )

i'm remembering what its like to have each step dictated by the tick of a clock.
by the beat of a drum.
by the direction of the wind.

if i commit to the smile on my face, maybe someday it won't be a mask.
but i doubt it.

maybe someday i won't think
where are your curls?

where the things i really cared about just left along the way.

i find it difficult to focus when the blinking cursor pulses at the same beat as my heart.

i think tonight i'll take the long way.

and all i can think about is grimm's fairy tales' the little mermaid. on the day the prince marries another woman, the little mermaid's sisters cut off all their hair and trade it with the seawitch for a blade. the sisters offer it to the little mermaid, telling her the seawitch will allow her to return to her mermaid form if she kills the prince ( Read more... )

please somebody make it stop.