Feel You From the Inside
Title: Feel You From the Inside
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Warning: Fisting, water sports
"I love being out here with you like this, Jen. All alone, out on the grass, in our secret place where no one can find us. Where no one knows we go," Jared said as he rolled around with Jensen on the grass.
"No one would ever look for us here," Jensen said and bit his way up Jared's neck. Jared tugged at Jensen's clothes. They were both hard and wrestling was doing everything to intensify the situation. Jared finally got Jensen's shirt pulled over his head. He bit Jensen's nipples. Jensen hissed and Jared sucked and licked away the pain.
"You brought all of the stuff so we could stay all night, right?" Jensen asked. Jared nodded.
"I'm feeling the anxiety again, Jen," Jared said and clung to Jensen. Jensen wrapped him in his arms.
"Just hang on to me, Jay. We'll get through it," Jensen reassured in Jared's ear, and helped Jared pull his long legs up around his body.
"I just want to be out here with you like this forever," Jared said.
"I know, Baby, I know," Jensen said. He patted Jared on the thigh and kept him pressed to him with a firm arm across Jared's back. Jared pressed his searching mouth against Jensen's and tried to devour him like it was Jensen's lips Jared needed and not oxygen. Jared reached out to work on undoing Jensen's zipper, and Jensen helped wiggle out of his pants and yanked at Jareds. Jared got to Jensen's cock first.
"Can we come now and then come again later?" Jared asked and pressed kisses into Jensen's open mouth.
"Oh, God. Yes," Jensen said as Jared's big warm hand enveloped his cock. They wrestled and squirmed in a half make out session, half passionate fight for exisistence and knocked into Jared's duffle, spilling some of its contents.
"Crisco? Planning on doing a lot of deep frying out here, Jay?" Jensen panted, Jared's hand was still frimly wrapped around his cock.
"You've seen the movies as much as I have, Jensen. What is Crisco used for almost exclusively?" Jared asked and bit Jensen's neck. He licked over the indents, causing the pain and then kissing it away. Jared shimmied out of his pants and Jensen's hand found his cock. Jared thrust up into the touch.
"I like your hands on me, Jen. You always have a kink for my big hands, but your hands feel good, too," Jared said and kissed Jensen's parted lips.
"Are you scared because I brought Crisco?" Jared asked and held Jensen by either side of his face, his thumbs across Jensen's cheeks, another major kink of his. Jensen pressed his cock into Jared's thigh.
"I've never done that before, never even considered doing it in real life, but with you, Jared, god, I want it. I want as much of you inside me as possible," Jensen said and kissed Jared like they were trying to swallow each other's tongues. "It's just you have huge fucking hands, Jay. I'm trying to imagine going from no fisting ever to having your entire gigantor hand in my ass," Jensen said. Jared grinned. Even Jensen had to admit that in speaking the idea out loud, the thought was much less scary than it was exciting and real.
"You know I'll take care of you, don't you, Baby," Jared purred in Jensen's ear. The answer was so obvious Jensen didn't even have time to answer before Jared's head was down between his legs, and his cock was wrapped in the hot, wet, softness of Jared's mouth. They hadn't set up the tent yet, or thrown down a blanket. It was just them on the grass, in the woods, so secluded but so out in the open at the same time.
Jensen felt free and incredibly horny. He ran his fingers through Jared's silky hair. Goddamn. Jared had softer hair than a girl. Jensen took a fistful and gently pulled Jared's head up, and they were wrestling again. Jensen had to work to wrestle Jared just because of his size, but if he got the right leverage, he could use Jared's size against him.
Jensen ended up on top of Jared, who was face down on the grass. Jensen spanked him without losing his position. He loved Jared's ass, so fucking hot. He spanked one cheek in the same spot over and over just to see the redness, and then repeated on the other side.
"Kinky bastard," Jared said, but his eyes were closed and his neck was strained in ecstacy.
"You have no idea," Jensen said, "the cheeks on your face look about as red as the cheeks on your ass. Does Jared like to be spanked?" Jensen teased. He popped open the lid to the Crisco.
"Hey, that's for you," Jared said.
"I can use a little, Jay. It won't hurt anything," Jensen said and dipped a glob out with his finger and replaced the cap.
"It's your ass," Jared mumbled under his breath. Jensen rubbed the white, lardy substance on Jared's asshole, and massaged it in until it was clear. Jensen pressed the left over white chunks inside Jared with his finger. Jared groaned and rocked his ass back against Jensen's finger.
"Oh my god, Jen," Jared gasped as he fucked himself on Jensen's finger while Jensen held it still for him. "Is this your way of trying to get us to use all of the Crisco on me?" Jared asked.
"Not at all, and stop worrying about it, Jared. I want your hand up my ass and everything that entails I swear. Now, shut up and start digging a hole," Jensen said. He pressed Jared down with his body and kept his finger working in Jared's ass.
"A hole?" Jared asked, his fingers already poised to claw at the ground.
"Yeah. Did you do what I told you today?" Jensen asked.
"Can I have just one more finger, Jen, please?" Jared asked. Jensen complied and Jared bit his bottom lip and started digging in the dirt. "Fuck. I did it, Jensen. I haven't pissed all day," Jared said. Saying it reminded him of the ache in his stomach. Once Jared had clawed up an area of of about two feet infront of him, Jensen had him kneel on the ground.
"Piss in it, Jay," Jensen said and stood over Jared to watch him. Jared suddenly felt very naked, kneeling out here on the ground in the middle of nowhere, his ass greasy and aching from Jensen's thorough finger fucking. Now Jensen towered over him expecting to watch him as he took his first piss of the day out here in the middle of the woods. Jared closed his eyes and concentrated on letting go.
Jensen watched in fascination as Jared licked his lips and started pissing on the ground. Jared tilted his head back and enjoyed the slightest pleasant sting as he let himself go all over the ground, making a little mud puddle in the dirt he had dug up. Jensen wondered how good of a plan he had devised because all of Jared's piss was going on the ground to make this stupid mud he'd thought of and he wanted Jared's piss on him. Now. Fuck.
Jared quit pissing and opened his eyes. Jensen hadn't pissed all day either per his genius plan, and he released his stream aiming right for the middle of Jared's chest. Jared opened his mouth, whether consciously or not, Jensen could tell what he wanted. Jared brought his hands up and rubbed Jensen's piss as it splashed on his chest, the excess slowly running down Jared's body and into the mud. Jensen slowly, gradually moved the stream upward until he was pissing on the dip in the middle of Jared's collar bone, and then up Jared's throat in an agonizingly slow progression until until Jared dipped his open mouth down to catch it.
Jensen watched fascinated and slightly repulsed that Jared was letting the pale yellow stream run across his lips, lapping at it with his tongue and finally tilting his head back to let Jensen finish pissing in his mouth. The image of Jared half lidded, pupils dilated with the intoxication of sex, cheeks flushed, his lips shiny, and wet, swallowing a mouthful of Jensen's piss, seared itself on Jensen's memory.
Jared stuck his tongue out and lapped tentatively at Jensen's balls. Jensen groaned and Jared opened his mouth wider, letting Jensen's balls fill his mouth, sucking them in earnest.
"Fuck me, Jensen?" Jared asked.
"Yeah. Yeah, of course. I just don't want to push you down in the mud anymore, it's too...mean or something. Shit, I don't know," Jensen said as he struggled to convey to Jared with words what was in his heart.
"Dude, you just pissed in my mouth, but you don't want to fuck me in the mud that you forced me to make with my own piss?" Jared asked, half teasing, half serious.
"Jay, let's not over think this, 'kay?" Jensen said and tackled Jared in the grass.
"Hmm...let's see, the full weight of Jensen Ackles naked body pressing me down in the grass on a beautiful spring day, out in the middle of nowhere...I think I'm content not to over think things right now," Jared said and kissed Jensen open mouthed and sloppy.
"Don't worry about the piss thing. You know I like peeing for you, Jen. I'd do it anytime, and I know you didn't piss in my mouth on purpose. I know I moved. You wouldn't have done it if I really didn't want it," Jared said and kissed the inside of Jensen's mouth, "and I still want to fist you," Jared said pressing kisses behind Jensen's ear.
"You can still fist me, Jay," Jensen said, and sucked Jared's neck. Jared didn't worry aoubt hickeys like he did. He felt bad scolding Jared all the time for it, but they had a few days off, maybe hickeys wouldn't be so bad.
Jared growled and bit his neck, and slid his hand down to cup Jensen's ass. He grabbed a handful and pinched and pulled at Jensen's flesh.
"Fuck, Jared. I want you inside me so bad it hurts," Jensen said.
"Yeah, well, I don't want to come until I'm fucking your wide open ass, gaping from my fist being inside you," Jared growled in Jensen's ear. Jensen pulled Jared's fingers up to his mouth and kissed them, and licked up the creases where they pressed together.
"Well, quit talking about it and do it then," Jensen said and sucked on Jared's first two fingers. Jensen shuddered. Jesus Christ, Jared's fingers were a major turn on for him and soon he was gonna have his entire hand up his ass.
Jared didn't hesitate getting his fingers in the Crisco. Jensen wanted it, Jared didn't doubt that, but he didn't want Jensen to get nervous about it, so he tried to be very careful. If Jensen gave any sign of cold feet, Jared knew there was no way he could go through with fisting him. It would be too painful, hell it could be traumatic, and if he didn't go through with it, Jensen might be disappointed on some level.
Jared got really close to Jensen's face, where he could feel the air Jensen exhaled from his nostrils, and he knew Jensen could feel the breath coming form his mouth as he talked. It had to be that intimate for what he was about to do.
"I'm gonna suck you off and get you really hard while I warm you up," Jared said. Jensen nodded. Jared opened his mouth over Jensen's and kissed him deeply sucking Jensen's tongue into his mouth. Jared kissed him slowly, consciously trying to be as passionate and considerate of Jensen and his feelings as possible. He wanted Jensen to know how much he cared about him, about this moment. He knew that being this intimate with Jensen could either destroy what they had or take them to a whole new level.
"Mmm," Jensen talked through their kiss after a minute, "how do you want me?" he asked. Jared opened his eyes to see Jensen's dark green ones sparkling back up at him. He blinked and saw that the wad of Crisco in his hand had started to melt and drip down his wrist and forearm, and he hadn't even touched Jensen's ass yet. Jensen sensed the tension and went from half drunk with lust to flashing Jared one of his sweet smiles, and Jared couldn't help but laugh. He had to remember to take this seriously, but while it was important it was still sex with Jensen, the most natural thing in the world for him.
"How do you want to be?" Jared said back, his voice coming out low and sexy like he planned, thank god. Jensen stayed on his back but curled closer to Jared so he was halfway in Jared's kneeling lap. Jensen raised his knees to his chest and didn't say 'have at it big guy,' but Jared could tell he wanted to by the way he wiggled his eyebrows. Jared pulled Jensen up by the hips so that Jensen was resting on his shoulders and his ass was in the air, which moved Jensen's cock within reach of his mouth.
He pressed his middle finger into Jensen's ass, pushing a bunch of the Crisco in with it. When he pulled his finger out, the chunk of Crisco slipped out after it and Jared rubbed it over the surrounding area of Jensen's asshole. Jared's mind started racing as he thought of how hot Jensen's asshole was, and how hot his mouth was, and how if Jensen could lick his own asshole it would be the best porn ever. God, Jared had to get Jensen off soon, because he wasn't gonna be able to last much longer.
He slipped another finger into Jensen's ass and pushed his thighs apart to take Jensen's cock in his mouth. Jensen thrust up, clenching his ass around Jared's fingers but pushing his cock further in Jared's mouth. Jared steadied Jensen by his hip.
"Relax, Baby. I'll get to you. You gotta leave your ass open for me," Jared reassured. Jensen relaxed and when Jared went back down on him, he didn't clench up, but Jared could hear his breathing deepen. Jared added the third finger and intentionally started hitting Jensen's spot frequently and he knew from experience that Jensen would open up like putty in his hands, and he did. Jared popped his mouth off of Jensen's cock and held it tightly by the base so Jensen could concentrate on the pounding his ass was getting. From the sound of it he did.
"OhgodyesJaredfuckme," were the last actual words Jared could make out before Jensen's cries disentegrated into sounds that Jared could easily use against him for blackmail, which of course he would never do. From three fingers, it wasn't hard at all to slip in his pinky. He wasn't even sure how much Jensen noticed. Jensen was so fucked out, all spread open across Jared's lap.
Jared closed his eyes and breathed, trying to enjoy the feeling of four of his Crisco slicked fingers sliding effortlessly in and out of Jensen's ass. He tried to only carefully think about the fact that he was only one digit away from fisting Jensen Ackles. Jared went back down on Jensen's cock and toyed with the drop of come in the slit as he slowly pulled his fingers almost out so just the tips were left to stretch Jensen's ass open while Jared pressed the tip of his thumb in.
Jared tried to swallow down as much of Jensen's cock as he could, his stomach aching a bit from the bending he had to do to fist Jared and suck him off at the same time. He fucked Jensen's hole up to his first knuckles and Jensen's body responded favorably, but Jared thought he heard muffled sobbing. He pulled off of Jensen's cock very non chalantly to check out Jensen's face without giving the hint that anything had changed. Tears were streaming down Jensen's cheeks.
"Don't fucking stop," Jensen choked out. Jared pulled him in closer and fucked his fingers into him harder, pressing through the tight muscle.
"I won't stop. Don't worry. I'm gonna take care of you, Jen," Jared said. He was so focused on Jensen's face that he didn't realize his fingers had slipped all the way inside until he felt Jensen's ass clamp down on his wrist. Jared felt like he practically dove onto Jensen's cock, but in actuality, he half lifted him, half leaned over to where he could get a satisfying rhythym going and then he wiggled his fingers ever so slightly inside Jensen. Jensen came squirting down Jared's throat and screaming, settling finally into the occaisional sob, but Jared was relieved to see the tears had stopped.
Jared pressed his mouth against Jensen's and swallowed Jensen's moan as he carefully pulled his hand out. Jared looked at Jensen's face in awe and lightly kissed his lips.
"Mmmm," Jensen groaned, "fuck me, Jared," Jensen said.
Jared didn't answer him right away, he just kept looking at him. Jensen reached out and stroked Jared's cock, finding it rock hard like he knew he would.
"C'mon, Jared, I know its your fucking dream to fuck me while I'm all stretched open for you," Jensen said, "better hurry, my tight ass won't stay this way forever, you know...very elastic...like a throwing a pencil down a hallway-" Jensen said and Jared cut him off.
"Shut up, Jen," Jared said. He knew Jensen was tired. He was babbling and if Jared didn't cut him off he might never stop. He rolled Jensen over on his stomach in the grass and looked at just how fucked open Jensen's ass was. Jensen looked painfully red and open, leaking melted Crisco down his balls. It really was a big fantasy of Jared's no matter how much Jensen teased. Jared climbed on top of him and put his dick in without further fanfare. Jensen open all around him, immediately sliding him in with little resistence was unbelievably pleasurable, and from the squirming and squealing going on underneath him, he seemed to be tapping some pretty good spots inside Jensen as well. Jared's mind relaxed in knowing that Jensen had already come, and he let his thrusts control him instead of him trying to control his thrusts.
"Oh, fuck. Come for me, Jay," Jensen said and Jared went over the edge. He pulled out and rolled Jensen over on his back, and Jensen scooted down in time to catch Jared's creamy, stringy load across his face. Jared collapsed on his chest. Jensen held him with one arm and wiped his face with the other. Jared raised a hand without raising his head, to help wipe his come off Jensen's face. Jensen sucked Jared's fingers clean.
"Fucking amazing, Jensen," Jared said, his face still buried in Jensen's neck.
"Yeah, Jared. Thank you," Jensen said and squeezed Jared tighter.
"We don't need the tent to take a nap do we?" Jared said.
"Nuh-uhh," Jensen answered, relieved that Jared was also sleepy.
"'kay," Jared said and promptly fell asleep.
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Warning: Fisting, water sports
"I love being out here with you like this, Jen. All alone, out on the grass, in our secret place where no one can find us. Where no one knows we go," Jared said as he rolled around with Jensen on the grass.
"No one would ever look for us here," Jensen said and bit his way up Jared's neck. Jared tugged at Jensen's clothes. They were both hard and wrestling was doing everything to intensify the situation. Jared finally got Jensen's shirt pulled over his head. He bit Jensen's nipples. Jensen hissed and Jared sucked and licked away the pain.
"You brought all of the stuff so we could stay all night, right?" Jensen asked. Jared nodded.
"I'm feeling the anxiety again, Jen," Jared said and clung to Jensen. Jensen wrapped him in his arms.
"Just hang on to me, Jay. We'll get through it," Jensen reassured in Jared's ear, and helped Jared pull his long legs up around his body.
"I just want to be out here with you like this forever," Jared said.
"I know, Baby, I know," Jensen said. He patted Jared on the thigh and kept him pressed to him with a firm arm across Jared's back. Jared pressed his searching mouth against Jensen's and tried to devour him like it was Jensen's lips Jared needed and not oxygen. Jared reached out to work on undoing Jensen's zipper, and Jensen helped wiggle out of his pants and yanked at Jareds. Jared got to Jensen's cock first.
"Can we come now and then come again later?" Jared asked and pressed kisses into Jensen's open mouth.
"Oh, God. Yes," Jensen said as Jared's big warm hand enveloped his cock. They wrestled and squirmed in a half make out session, half passionate fight for exisistence and knocked into Jared's duffle, spilling some of its contents.
"Crisco? Planning on doing a lot of deep frying out here, Jay?" Jensen panted, Jared's hand was still frimly wrapped around his cock.
"You've seen the movies as much as I have, Jensen. What is Crisco used for almost exclusively?" Jared asked and bit Jensen's neck. He licked over the indents, causing the pain and then kissing it away. Jared shimmied out of his pants and Jensen's hand found his cock. Jared thrust up into the touch.
"I like your hands on me, Jen. You always have a kink for my big hands, but your hands feel good, too," Jared said and kissed Jensen's parted lips.
"Are you scared because I brought Crisco?" Jared asked and held Jensen by either side of his face, his thumbs across Jensen's cheeks, another major kink of his. Jensen pressed his cock into Jared's thigh.
"I've never done that before, never even considered doing it in real life, but with you, Jared, god, I want it. I want as much of you inside me as possible," Jensen said and kissed Jared like they were trying to swallow each other's tongues. "It's just you have huge fucking hands, Jay. I'm trying to imagine going from no fisting ever to having your entire gigantor hand in my ass," Jensen said. Jared grinned. Even Jensen had to admit that in speaking the idea out loud, the thought was much less scary than it was exciting and real.
"You know I'll take care of you, don't you, Baby," Jared purred in Jensen's ear. The answer was so obvious Jensen didn't even have time to answer before Jared's head was down between his legs, and his cock was wrapped in the hot, wet, softness of Jared's mouth. They hadn't set up the tent yet, or thrown down a blanket. It was just them on the grass, in the woods, so secluded but so out in the open at the same time.
Jensen felt free and incredibly horny. He ran his fingers through Jared's silky hair. Goddamn. Jared had softer hair than a girl. Jensen took a fistful and gently pulled Jared's head up, and they were wrestling again. Jensen had to work to wrestle Jared just because of his size, but if he got the right leverage, he could use Jared's size against him.
Jensen ended up on top of Jared, who was face down on the grass. Jensen spanked him without losing his position. He loved Jared's ass, so fucking hot. He spanked one cheek in the same spot over and over just to see the redness, and then repeated on the other side.
"Kinky bastard," Jared said, but his eyes were closed and his neck was strained in ecstacy.
"You have no idea," Jensen said, "the cheeks on your face look about as red as the cheeks on your ass. Does Jared like to be spanked?" Jensen teased. He popped open the lid to the Crisco.
"Hey, that's for you," Jared said.
"I can use a little, Jay. It won't hurt anything," Jensen said and dipped a glob out with his finger and replaced the cap.
"It's your ass," Jared mumbled under his breath. Jensen rubbed the white, lardy substance on Jared's asshole, and massaged it in until it was clear. Jensen pressed the left over white chunks inside Jared with his finger. Jared groaned and rocked his ass back against Jensen's finger.
"Oh my god, Jen," Jared gasped as he fucked himself on Jensen's finger while Jensen held it still for him. "Is this your way of trying to get us to use all of the Crisco on me?" Jared asked.
"Not at all, and stop worrying about it, Jared. I want your hand up my ass and everything that entails I swear. Now, shut up and start digging a hole," Jensen said. He pressed Jared down with his body and kept his finger working in Jared's ass.
"A hole?" Jared asked, his fingers already poised to claw at the ground.
"Yeah. Did you do what I told you today?" Jensen asked.
"Can I have just one more finger, Jen, please?" Jared asked. Jensen complied and Jared bit his bottom lip and started digging in the dirt. "Fuck. I did it, Jensen. I haven't pissed all day," Jared said. Saying it reminded him of the ache in his stomach. Once Jared had clawed up an area of of about two feet infront of him, Jensen had him kneel on the ground.
"Piss in it, Jay," Jensen said and stood over Jared to watch him. Jared suddenly felt very naked, kneeling out here on the ground in the middle of nowhere, his ass greasy and aching from Jensen's thorough finger fucking. Now Jensen towered over him expecting to watch him as he took his first piss of the day out here in the middle of the woods. Jared closed his eyes and concentrated on letting go.
Jensen watched in fascination as Jared licked his lips and started pissing on the ground. Jared tilted his head back and enjoyed the slightest pleasant sting as he let himself go all over the ground, making a little mud puddle in the dirt he had dug up. Jensen wondered how good of a plan he had devised because all of Jared's piss was going on the ground to make this stupid mud he'd thought of and he wanted Jared's piss on him. Now. Fuck.
Jared quit pissing and opened his eyes. Jensen hadn't pissed all day either per his genius plan, and he released his stream aiming right for the middle of Jared's chest. Jared opened his mouth, whether consciously or not, Jensen could tell what he wanted. Jared brought his hands up and rubbed Jensen's piss as it splashed on his chest, the excess slowly running down Jared's body and into the mud. Jensen slowly, gradually moved the stream upward until he was pissing on the dip in the middle of Jared's collar bone, and then up Jared's throat in an agonizingly slow progression until until Jared dipped his open mouth down to catch it.
Jensen watched fascinated and slightly repulsed that Jared was letting the pale yellow stream run across his lips, lapping at it with his tongue and finally tilting his head back to let Jensen finish pissing in his mouth. The image of Jared half lidded, pupils dilated with the intoxication of sex, cheeks flushed, his lips shiny, and wet, swallowing a mouthful of Jensen's piss, seared itself on Jensen's memory.
Jared stuck his tongue out and lapped tentatively at Jensen's balls. Jensen groaned and Jared opened his mouth wider, letting Jensen's balls fill his mouth, sucking them in earnest.
"Fuck me, Jensen?" Jared asked.
"Yeah. Yeah, of course. I just don't want to push you down in the mud anymore, it's too...mean or something. Shit, I don't know," Jensen said as he struggled to convey to Jared with words what was in his heart.
"Dude, you just pissed in my mouth, but you don't want to fuck me in the mud that you forced me to make with my own piss?" Jared asked, half teasing, half serious.
"Jay, let's not over think this, 'kay?" Jensen said and tackled Jared in the grass.
"Hmm...let's see, the full weight of Jensen Ackles naked body pressing me down in the grass on a beautiful spring day, out in the middle of nowhere...I think I'm content not to over think things right now," Jared said and kissed Jensen open mouthed and sloppy.
"Don't worry about the piss thing. You know I like peeing for you, Jen. I'd do it anytime, and I know you didn't piss in my mouth on purpose. I know I moved. You wouldn't have done it if I really didn't want it," Jared said and kissed the inside of Jensen's mouth, "and I still want to fist you," Jared said pressing kisses behind Jensen's ear.
"You can still fist me, Jay," Jensen said, and sucked Jared's neck. Jared didn't worry aoubt hickeys like he did. He felt bad scolding Jared all the time for it, but they had a few days off, maybe hickeys wouldn't be so bad.
Jared growled and bit his neck, and slid his hand down to cup Jensen's ass. He grabbed a handful and pinched and pulled at Jensen's flesh.
"Fuck, Jared. I want you inside me so bad it hurts," Jensen said.
"Yeah, well, I don't want to come until I'm fucking your wide open ass, gaping from my fist being inside you," Jared growled in Jensen's ear. Jensen pulled Jared's fingers up to his mouth and kissed them, and licked up the creases where they pressed together.
"Well, quit talking about it and do it then," Jensen said and sucked on Jared's first two fingers. Jensen shuddered. Jesus Christ, Jared's fingers were a major turn on for him and soon he was gonna have his entire hand up his ass.
Jared didn't hesitate getting his fingers in the Crisco. Jensen wanted it, Jared didn't doubt that, but he didn't want Jensen to get nervous about it, so he tried to be very careful. If Jensen gave any sign of cold feet, Jared knew there was no way he could go through with fisting him. It would be too painful, hell it could be traumatic, and if he didn't go through with it, Jensen might be disappointed on some level.
Jared got really close to Jensen's face, where he could feel the air Jensen exhaled from his nostrils, and he knew Jensen could feel the breath coming form his mouth as he talked. It had to be that intimate for what he was about to do.
"I'm gonna suck you off and get you really hard while I warm you up," Jared said. Jensen nodded. Jared opened his mouth over Jensen's and kissed him deeply sucking Jensen's tongue into his mouth. Jared kissed him slowly, consciously trying to be as passionate and considerate of Jensen and his feelings as possible. He wanted Jensen to know how much he cared about him, about this moment. He knew that being this intimate with Jensen could either destroy what they had or take them to a whole new level.
"Mmm," Jensen talked through their kiss after a minute, "how do you want me?" he asked. Jared opened his eyes to see Jensen's dark green ones sparkling back up at him. He blinked and saw that the wad of Crisco in his hand had started to melt and drip down his wrist and forearm, and he hadn't even touched Jensen's ass yet. Jensen sensed the tension and went from half drunk with lust to flashing Jared one of his sweet smiles, and Jared couldn't help but laugh. He had to remember to take this seriously, but while it was important it was still sex with Jensen, the most natural thing in the world for him.
"How do you want to be?" Jared said back, his voice coming out low and sexy like he planned, thank god. Jensen stayed on his back but curled closer to Jared so he was halfway in Jared's kneeling lap. Jensen raised his knees to his chest and didn't say 'have at it big guy,' but Jared could tell he wanted to by the way he wiggled his eyebrows. Jared pulled Jensen up by the hips so that Jensen was resting on his shoulders and his ass was in the air, which moved Jensen's cock within reach of his mouth.
He pressed his middle finger into Jensen's ass, pushing a bunch of the Crisco in with it. When he pulled his finger out, the chunk of Crisco slipped out after it and Jared rubbed it over the surrounding area of Jensen's asshole. Jared's mind started racing as he thought of how hot Jensen's asshole was, and how hot his mouth was, and how if Jensen could lick his own asshole it would be the best porn ever. God, Jared had to get Jensen off soon, because he wasn't gonna be able to last much longer.
He slipped another finger into Jensen's ass and pushed his thighs apart to take Jensen's cock in his mouth. Jensen thrust up, clenching his ass around Jared's fingers but pushing his cock further in Jared's mouth. Jared steadied Jensen by his hip.
"Relax, Baby. I'll get to you. You gotta leave your ass open for me," Jared reassured. Jensen relaxed and when Jared went back down on him, he didn't clench up, but Jared could hear his breathing deepen. Jared added the third finger and intentionally started hitting Jensen's spot frequently and he knew from experience that Jensen would open up like putty in his hands, and he did. Jared popped his mouth off of Jensen's cock and held it tightly by the base so Jensen could concentrate on the pounding his ass was getting. From the sound of it he did.
"OhgodyesJaredfuckme," were the last actual words Jared could make out before Jensen's cries disentegrated into sounds that Jared could easily use against him for blackmail, which of course he would never do. From three fingers, it wasn't hard at all to slip in his pinky. He wasn't even sure how much Jensen noticed. Jensen was so fucked out, all spread open across Jared's lap.
Jared closed his eyes and breathed, trying to enjoy the feeling of four of his Crisco slicked fingers sliding effortlessly in and out of Jensen's ass. He tried to only carefully think about the fact that he was only one digit away from fisting Jensen Ackles. Jared went back down on Jensen's cock and toyed with the drop of come in the slit as he slowly pulled his fingers almost out so just the tips were left to stretch Jensen's ass open while Jared pressed the tip of his thumb in.
Jared tried to swallow down as much of Jensen's cock as he could, his stomach aching a bit from the bending he had to do to fist Jared and suck him off at the same time. He fucked Jensen's hole up to his first knuckles and Jensen's body responded favorably, but Jared thought he heard muffled sobbing. He pulled off of Jensen's cock very non chalantly to check out Jensen's face without giving the hint that anything had changed. Tears were streaming down Jensen's cheeks.
"Don't fucking stop," Jensen choked out. Jared pulled him in closer and fucked his fingers into him harder, pressing through the tight muscle.
"I won't stop. Don't worry. I'm gonna take care of you, Jen," Jared said. He was so focused on Jensen's face that he didn't realize his fingers had slipped all the way inside until he felt Jensen's ass clamp down on his wrist. Jared felt like he practically dove onto Jensen's cock, but in actuality, he half lifted him, half leaned over to where he could get a satisfying rhythym going and then he wiggled his fingers ever so slightly inside Jensen. Jensen came squirting down Jared's throat and screaming, settling finally into the occaisional sob, but Jared was relieved to see the tears had stopped.
Jared pressed his mouth against Jensen's and swallowed Jensen's moan as he carefully pulled his hand out. Jared looked at Jensen's face in awe and lightly kissed his lips.
"Mmmm," Jensen groaned, "fuck me, Jared," Jensen said.
Jared didn't answer him right away, he just kept looking at him. Jensen reached out and stroked Jared's cock, finding it rock hard like he knew he would.
"C'mon, Jared, I know its your fucking dream to fuck me while I'm all stretched open for you," Jensen said, "better hurry, my tight ass won't stay this way forever, you know...very elastic...like a throwing a pencil down a hallway-" Jensen said and Jared cut him off.
"Shut up, Jen," Jared said. He knew Jensen was tired. He was babbling and if Jared didn't cut him off he might never stop. He rolled Jensen over on his stomach in the grass and looked at just how fucked open Jensen's ass was. Jensen looked painfully red and open, leaking melted Crisco down his balls. It really was a big fantasy of Jared's no matter how much Jensen teased. Jared climbed on top of him and put his dick in without further fanfare. Jensen open all around him, immediately sliding him in with little resistence was unbelievably pleasurable, and from the squirming and squealing going on underneath him, he seemed to be tapping some pretty good spots inside Jensen as well. Jared's mind relaxed in knowing that Jensen had already come, and he let his thrusts control him instead of him trying to control his thrusts.
"Oh, fuck. Come for me, Jay," Jensen said and Jared went over the edge. He pulled out and rolled Jensen over on his back, and Jensen scooted down in time to catch Jared's creamy, stringy load across his face. Jared collapsed on his chest. Jensen held him with one arm and wiped his face with the other. Jared raised a hand without raising his head, to help wipe his come off Jensen's face. Jensen sucked Jared's fingers clean.
"Fucking amazing, Jensen," Jared said, his face still buried in Jensen's neck.
"Yeah, Jared. Thank you," Jensen said and squeezed Jared tighter.
"We don't need the tent to take a nap do we?" Jared said.
"Nuh-uhh," Jensen answered, relieved that Jared was also sleepy.
"'kay," Jared said and promptly fell asleep.