It Was Our Day
Title: It Was Our Day
Pairing: Rachel/Quinn
Rating: PG
Length: ~930
Summary: Songfic to It Was Our Day by B*Witched. Warning: [Highlight to read: Main character death]
Author's Note #1: Go get a box of kleenex first, kay? It may have been just because I'm really damn tired but I swear to you I cried when I wrote it. So just keep the box next to you in case, alright?
Author's Note #2: I know, again, a kind of out-dated group but I still love their music. Saw them in concert once. It was awesome. Anyways, go on and read. Don't hate me too much.
Eight o'clock on the morning that you left
The day was dark, I sat in my room
They walked in and told me that you'd gone
That moment on I knew you'd be our angel
Knew you'd be our angel
I don't understand why this happened, Quinn. How could you do this to me? You were supposed to get better. You weren’t supposed to go like this. Why couldn’t you have at least done it while I was in the room?! Why couldn’t you give me a chance to tell you goodbye? I knew I should've stayed in our room with you the night before, I knew I shouldn't have let you talk me into leaving so I would get some sleep.
I remember that conversation we had last week. Do you remember? Of course you do. You told me you’d never really leave me…I scoffed and told you that of course you wouldn’t, you’d be getting better. You just smiled and looked up at me and told me that you’d watch over Amber and me. I really hope it’s true, Quinn. I’m going to need all the watching I can get.
That day I spent
Was the hardest day ever
Trying to paint a picture for you
Before my eyes
There's so many colours
Just for today they all seem blue
I had to be the one to tell Amber about it. God it was so hard, Quinn. She…she’s too young to have to go through this. I…I couldn’t handle her for the rest of the day. I know that makes me sound like a horrible mother, I know it does. But…you were my everything, Quinn. You and Amber. And half of that got ripped away from me. All I wanted to do was sit in our room after they took you and just think about you. I…I almost couldn’t picture you. Everything seemed…off. Just…there were no colors that day. I couldn’t see them at all.
Heaven, heaven was calling you
Heaven, heaven needed you
We'll join our hands again someday
And trade kisses before night
And talk of the times we had
We'll be together oh someday
And watch over the stars at night
And laugh at the fun we had
It was our day
The minister said you were Heaven sent. He said God only takes people when he needs them. I don’t really see why God would take you away from me when I’m the one that needed you the most. He told me that someday we’d be together again. While that prospect is wonderful…it won’t be soon enough. I’ll never leave on purpose; I have our daughter to think about. But right now I want nothing more than to hold your hand and kiss you and lie underneath the stars and laugh about every cute thing that Amber does and talk about how much high school changed us. Why did God need you, Quinn? Why couldn’t he have left you here with me? With us?
I'll lay a rose
Beside you forever
And light a candle to remind me of you
Here in my heart
You'll be on my journey
Wherever I go, whatever I do
Yellow roses were your favorite, I remember you telling me that after I tripped into a bush of them when we walked through the park one afternoon. I made sure the room was full of them and I made sure to drop one in with you and I leave one with you every chance I get. I helped Amber light the candle at the ceremony. I could barely hold it together. They had my favorite picture of you up next to the candle. I…I had the picture resized and I put it in that locket you gave me for our five year anniversary. You remember the one, the heart shaped one with “forever” engraved on one side and “always” engraved on the other. I rarely wore it because I didn’t want something to happen to it. Now it seems almost insulting that I didn’t…I wear it now though. I never take it off.
Heaven, heaven was calling you
Heaven, heaven needed you
We'll join our hands again someday
And trade kisses before night
And talk of the times we had
We'll be together oh someday
And watch over the stars at night
And laugh at the fun we had
It was our day
The minister keeps coming by every now and then to talk. He keeps repeating over and over that it was your time and you were being called. You know, at one point I wondered if I had anything to look forward to other than getting to see you again. Then Amber crawled into our bed with me and told me she missed you. So I did all I could do and told her that she’d see you again someday and we’d all hold hands and walk through the park like we used to and you’d kiss her cheek and she would kiss yours before she fell asleep and we’d giggle about the time we tried to go camping and we would get to watch the stars whenever we wanted. She asked me when it would happen and I told her it would happen when God wanted it to.
I don’t understand it. I don’t think I ever will. I don’t understand why you had to go. Our day didn’t last long enough, Quinn. But…but I suppose a day is nothing compared to eternity. And we’ll get to spend that together. Until then, my love.
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The follow up: "Are You a Ghost?"
Pairing: Rachel/Quinn
Rating: PG
Length: ~930
Summary: Songfic to It Was Our Day by B*Witched. Warning: [Highlight to read: Main character death]
Author's Note #1: Go get a box of kleenex first, kay? It may have been just because I'm really damn tired but I swear to you I cried when I wrote it. So just keep the box next to you in case, alright?
Author's Note #2: I know, again, a kind of out-dated group but I still love their music. Saw them in concert once. It was awesome. Anyways, go on and read. Don't hate me too much.
Eight o'clock on the morning that you left
The day was dark, I sat in my room
They walked in and told me that you'd gone
That moment on I knew you'd be our angel
Knew you'd be our angel
I don't understand why this happened, Quinn. How could you do this to me? You were supposed to get better. You weren’t supposed to go like this. Why couldn’t you have at least done it while I was in the room?! Why couldn’t you give me a chance to tell you goodbye? I knew I should've stayed in our room with you the night before, I knew I shouldn't have let you talk me into leaving so I would get some sleep.
I remember that conversation we had last week. Do you remember? Of course you do. You told me you’d never really leave me…I scoffed and told you that of course you wouldn’t, you’d be getting better. You just smiled and looked up at me and told me that you’d watch over Amber and me. I really hope it’s true, Quinn. I’m going to need all the watching I can get.
That day I spent
Was the hardest day ever
Trying to paint a picture for you
Before my eyes
There's so many colours
Just for today they all seem blue
I had to be the one to tell Amber about it. God it was so hard, Quinn. She…she’s too young to have to go through this. I…I couldn’t handle her for the rest of the day. I know that makes me sound like a horrible mother, I know it does. But…you were my everything, Quinn. You and Amber. And half of that got ripped away from me. All I wanted to do was sit in our room after they took you and just think about you. I…I almost couldn’t picture you. Everything seemed…off. Just…there were no colors that day. I couldn’t see them at all.
Heaven, heaven was calling you
Heaven, heaven needed you
We'll join our hands again someday
And trade kisses before night
And talk of the times we had
We'll be together oh someday
And watch over the stars at night
And laugh at the fun we had
It was our day
The minister said you were Heaven sent. He said God only takes people when he needs them. I don’t really see why God would take you away from me when I’m the one that needed you the most. He told me that someday we’d be together again. While that prospect is wonderful…it won’t be soon enough. I’ll never leave on purpose; I have our daughter to think about. But right now I want nothing more than to hold your hand and kiss you and lie underneath the stars and laugh about every cute thing that Amber does and talk about how much high school changed us. Why did God need you, Quinn? Why couldn’t he have left you here with me? With us?
I'll lay a rose
Beside you forever
And light a candle to remind me of you
Here in my heart
You'll be on my journey
Wherever I go, whatever I do
Yellow roses were your favorite, I remember you telling me that after I tripped into a bush of them when we walked through the park one afternoon. I made sure the room was full of them and I made sure to drop one in with you and I leave one with you every chance I get. I helped Amber light the candle at the ceremony. I could barely hold it together. They had my favorite picture of you up next to the candle. I…I had the picture resized and I put it in that locket you gave me for our five year anniversary. You remember the one, the heart shaped one with “forever” engraved on one side and “always” engraved on the other. I rarely wore it because I didn’t want something to happen to it. Now it seems almost insulting that I didn’t…I wear it now though. I never take it off.
Heaven, heaven was calling you
Heaven, heaven needed you
We'll join our hands again someday
And trade kisses before night
And talk of the times we had
We'll be together oh someday
And watch over the stars at night
And laugh at the fun we had
It was our day
The minister keeps coming by every now and then to talk. He keeps repeating over and over that it was your time and you were being called. You know, at one point I wondered if I had anything to look forward to other than getting to see you again. Then Amber crawled into our bed with me and told me she missed you. So I did all I could do and told her that she’d see you again someday and we’d all hold hands and walk through the park like we used to and you’d kiss her cheek and she would kiss yours before she fell asleep and we’d giggle about the time we tried to go camping and we would get to watch the stars whenever we wanted. She asked me when it would happen and I told her it would happen when God wanted it to.
I don’t understand it. I don’t think I ever will. I don’t understand why you had to go. Our day didn’t last long enough, Quinn. But…but I suppose a day is nothing compared to eternity. And we’ll get to spend that together. Until then, my love.
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The follow up: "Are You a Ghost?"