You Could Cut Ties with all the Lies You've Been Living In

[inorganicboy]

I'm trying to think of the easiest way to say this. I've been trying to write this for goodness knows how long, but I find myself creating a novel and giving up. Maybe I'm finally tired enough, truly tired into the marrow of my bones, to risk it all and be freed by truth.

Read if you want or care to know.

Comments

[theywerecones]

I've always thought you were an amazing individual and I never thought gender had anything to do with it. I don't feel "betrayed" or anything of the like. I'd be ashamed of myself to feel otherwise. Honestly, I'm happy with whatever you're happy with, for yourself. And I hope you have fun at that exhibit! =u=

Massive love and props on you for writing an entry that took some guts. <3

[inorganicboy]

I'm extremely flattered and touched that you think kindly of me, and the support...? Means the world, especially coming from a sensible lady such as yourself. I respect your opinion a lot, and I'm glad to know I haven't lost favor with you.

Thank you so much. <3 Seriously.

[deutschtard]

-hugs you tight-

I...honestly can't say that I'm surprised, I had my suspicions. You are very brave to come and say this to all of us, especially since some people could very well react badly. I can't say I'm in the exact same boat, but as one of my friends said about this very same issue "We're not on the same boat, but we're in the same fleet."

I know we haven't talked TOO much, barely at all, really, and that's mostly my fault and I'm sorry for that. But--since I can't speak for everyone--I'm always here for you, and I'm more than happy to talk to you about anything and listen to anything. You're an awesome person, whether you're Nate, Natalie or Zorg. Just be you, that's all that matters.

-hugs tight again-

[inorganicboy]

I was fortunate enough that, despite suspicions, people were kind to me and didn't really say anything or ever cause drama for me (which I've seen happen to others in similar situations). So firstly, thank you so much for that, and also for your extremely kind words. <3

Thank you! I hope you know I'll be here to listen to you as well, should you ever need or just want it. You are such an amazing, strong individual and I'm glad to know I can count on you. [:

-hugggg-

[jones6]

I think this is very brave, and I want you to know I still think you're brilliant and awesome ♥ The most important thing is just to be yourself, and to be happy with who you are :) It doesn't matter if you're a girl, guy, or space alien (if you are a space alien though, can I come for a ride in your awesome spaceship?) *hugs* Good luck with Annie!

[inorganicboy]

I agree! I think it's important for everyone to be themselves -- whatever that may be, y'know? I couldn't possibly emulate anyone else, even if I wanted to. I'm me, definitely.

DUDE, if I had a spaceship or a tardis or a '67 impala...you'd be in the passenger seat right beside me, no doubt. <3 Thank you, hon.

[jones6]

JOURNEY THROUGH TIME AND SPACE Y/Y?

Also, I was reading downthread and - your first name is Melissa? HIGH FIVE! So do I call you Mel now? Is that cool?

[inorganicboy]

VERY MUCH Y/Y!

It is indeed, and of course you can call me Mel! -high fives for shared epicness-

[inorganicboy]

It was very hard for me to write; I think the only thing that has ever given me equal consternation was an essay that was supposed to be my 'life story'....summed up in three pages or less. Which...just isn't possible, haha. I do hope it made sense and wasn't too all over the board.

That's one of the sweetest things anyone has ever said, that anyone worth their salt might want to be my friend regardless of gender! I sure hope so, and this outpouring of wonderfully kind comments from amazing people (such as yourself <3) has me a little bit emotional, truly.

No worries about pigeonholing me! I know you aren't the sort of person to do something like that. I have definitely looked into it and find it fascinating. Some days I certainly feel more masculine or feminine than others; now though, I just embrace said feelings, rather than allowing them to weigh me down or cause me upset. I'm becoming more comfortable within my skin, and learning myself better as a human being.

Thank you!!

[ohsparrows]

As the above person said- I've always had my suspicions, but at the same time, I have such little regard for gender and gender binaries that regardless of whatever, and no matter what, I lovelovelovelovelove you and I don't care how funny this sounds considering we don't -know- eachother.

This took a lot. When I was starting my career on the internet in the dolling community, I had a huge circle of friends and lied about my age. It's nowhere near as important, and I couldn't even come out and call myself on the lie. Instead I dropped off the face of the net and started over years later.

Anyway, no one important here cares. Everyone who really loves you is smiling, perhaps surprised, but not enough so that we love you any less. We don't love your gender, and anyone who does should be stabbed. We love you, even over the fucking internet, we really do!

You're still one of the best people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting.

I hope all goes well with Annie, too. <3

[inorganicboy]

Why is it that everything you say is so perfect? I am always like YESSS, THATTTT, I AGREE SO MUCHHH when I read your comments or talk to you. I love you like crazy and I hope you know that you're an extremely important friend to me...none of that sounds funny at all, just extremely and wonderfully reassuring. I'm so happy that despite being an internet creeper, I obviously made some rad as fuck friends who know where it's at.

I honestly did think of dropping off the face of the internet from time to time...but I couldn't do that, because I made such real connections with various cool cats.

;____; I really fucking love you, over the internet, under it, between it, IRL, etc.

Thank you bb. <33