Private to Pansy: February 4, 2001

[inner_human]

Comments

[freakedwithjet]

Moving again? What are we now, frigging gypsies?

There's Draco's, I suppose. Although I warn you, once he gets me over there, he may lock the doors, tie me down and never let me leave.

~P

[freakedwithjet]

You imply it though, as though I'm always pointing out your faults and all you ever do is compliment me.

I wanted to be with you. Fan-fucking-tastic, that spells it all out nice and clear, doesn't it?

You think I don't know everything isn't normal? I'm not an idiot, I know things aren't supposed to work like this. I just - you know, your tones of voice are Pissed Off, An Order, or Affectionate Afterthought. You've really got a nerve going on about my voice being high-pitched.

He thinks he's too good for everyone. And so do you. So where's the problem?

[inner_human]

So you're saying you WANT to be here for the full moon? You want to hear - and see

You want to be in a house full of wolves?

And you're going to get a lot more of the first two tones as the week goes on. Why do you think I want you to stay with Malfoy?

Oh fuck, that has nothing to do with anything. Fine, do whatever the fuck you want

[freakedwithjet]

No I'm What I'm saying is you're really frigging annoying, and I'd really like for you to just -

Oh no. Please, throw some of number three in. It's just the highlight of my life, I can't tell you how much I relish being an afterthought.

It matters to me.

[inner_human]

Just what? Go on, tell me - what do you want?

You're never an afterthought Well I was trying to go for self-control, but fine, since you "relish" it so. Anything for you, Pansy.

You expect me to be NICE to him?? I don't think I'm too good for everyone. Not really He doesn't like me. He made that painfully clear when he was staying at Spinner's End. Treats the others just fine, but me, he could hardly stand to be in the same room with me the entire time he was here. I've got nothing to say to him.

[freakedwithjet]

I want you to care I'd like for you to be vaguely bothered by anything remotely related to me. How's that?

You know what, Perry? Fuck you, seriously. Just- Fuck. You. As though I really need this right now, after everything else that's happened.

God forbid anything be easy for me. Fine, hate him, hate me, do whatever the fuck you like.

[inner_human]

Of course I'm bothered - even when I try not to be you make sure I am

Why is this MY fault ...Fine. I take the blame for this. I should've found us a place by now. Then this wouldn't even be an argument.

[freakedwithjet]

Oh grow up and stop being such a frigging martyr.

[inner_human]

Yeah. I will the minute you stop whining.

I told you Pansy, you didn't have to do this. You didn't have to follow me, so stop throwing that in my face. You're not the only one who has a lot of shit to deal with right now.

Stay, then. Or go. You obviously aren't going to listen to me and are just going to bitch until you have your way, so fine. Do whatever the fuck you want.

[freakedwithjet]

I'm not throwing it in your face - fine, I didn't have to leave, but what else was I going to do? Did you ever think that I wouldn't, or did you just assume that of course I'd follow you around like the pathetic idiot that I am?

I still haven't heard from my mother

Come off it, like I want to spend any more time in this bloody place than I absolutely have to.

[inner_human]

...I didn't expect you to have to make that choice, to be honest.

Then why are we arguing, if that's how you feel?

I don't expect anything from you. Like I said... do what you want. But don't beat ME up when you find out your choice isn't everything you expected.