You make my heart beat faster and
my head swim around
(as if that's a surprise to anyone in the whole wide world)
You're the answer to all of my unanswered questions that just kept
floating and floating and floating
and I want to cry, because
I'm so happy.

I'm so alone. They're all gone and wasted and I'm by myself. Like a little kid who is watching all of the other kids play in the street outside from his bedroom window. I bet they're having a really good time being fucked up, and they will all say, "you should have been there." Yeah. Right. I'm listening to one of Travis' songs over and over ( Read more... )

Went to Justin's today. Well, not his house, but to Justin's kind of other place. Over close to Mysty's. His house is kind of off limits now. His parents tripped out because they brought Steven over. That's strange. Ever since, they've been odd ( Read more... )

Tried the room cleaning thing. I started it, but didn't finish it. I can't even finish cleaning my own bedroom ( Read more... )

My dad just came over and sat a Musician's Friend catalog beside me and said, "A new one just came today." I think I'm in the twilight zone. I've just been sitting here doing my thing, and every once in awhile I'll look over at it and stare. I'm afraid to pick it up, I think. It's odd. I keep looking at it like it's a living thing, in a funny ( Read more... )

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I tried this, because it made me curious. I think it's kind of funny that I only got a "high" rating in one category. Narcissistic. Haha. I love me. See? Oh well ( Read more... )

I think I found a new kind of therapy. That did make me feel better, though. That whole Kevin rant. I passed up going to see him when I was in Austin. I knew it wouldn't make me feel good if I did, so why 'cause pain for myself, you know? I can't anymore.

My muscles ache so badly. I feel like I've been beaten up.

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Violent Femmes was so amazing. I had so much fun, and I met a lot of new people who I will probably never see again ( Read more... )