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[ink_ling]

I am currently actively ignoring how unsettled I am after my trip home. My mother had warned me -- as I mentioned earlier -- that my grandfather is not doing well.

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[feychilde]

((hugs)) There are no words to express my emotion right now...its so hard to see someone you care about deeply in pain from an illness. You and yours are in my thoughts!

[ink_ling]

Thank you, Lisa -- very much. I always expected his mind to be somewhat gone when it cames to this. But he's very lucid, if a bit more emotional, of course. Aside from the changes in his body, he's exactly the amazing man I've always known.

That's what -- I guess -- makes me miss him all the more in the present, knowing his time is limited here.

[shawnsyms]

It sounds like there is much commonality of spirit between you and your grandfather. I hope you can spend as much time together as possible in the next while.

xo

[ink_ling]

Thank you, Shawn. And I appreciate your commenting on any similarity between myself and a man I obviously admire so much. I think he'll hold on for a few more weeks, at least, and I'm going to go back and spend an afternoon or so with him, at least, if he's feeling well enough.

[shawnsyms]

If you can go and spend time alone with him, that might be especially fulfilling.

xoxo

[ink_ling]

That's what I'm hoping to do ... .

[benjiej]

A lovely tribute to what sounds like a great man. I regret I was never close to my grandfathers (one died before I was born, the other I saw only once every few years). Interaction with people of that generation has been lacking in my life in general.....it's great you have him as a role model.

[ink_ling]

Thank you, Benjie. My father's father died before I was born, and this man has always lived within five minutes of where I was growing up. Because of him, I think, I've always had a respect and open engagement with folks around his age.

[jawnbc]

This lovely entry demonstrates why your grandparents feel the way they do about you. Make this a memory. And share it with your brother if you can.

You're grand.

[ink_ling]

Thank you so much, John. And thank you for the idea of sharing it with my brother. He's much younger than I am and may enjoy the perspective. I think I may also try to write something out to share with my grandfather as well.

[creepy1966]

Damn,Brother...
I hate to hear that.

[ink_ling]

Thank you, B. I am not sure how I allowed this to sneak up on me emotionally. I'm just glad I may have the time and means to go back and see him a bit.