Far beyond the stony wood

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There is such joy in being here. Lovely warm light, still calm apartment, flowing conversations with two of the most soft and sweet people I know.

I had a little anxiety, falling asleep last night. This is the first time I have seen J&M without John present. Laying between clean sheets, feeling my chest rise and fall, I remembered being in this bed

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[lipzofs0rr0w]

fucking LJ REALLLLY needs a like button!

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That's what comments are for! :)

xx

[zapparina]

Thank you. I know, I do that too. I never talk about the leaving pain. I do a similar self-talk, I imagine I'm on the tpo of a big hill and I write it down on a piece of paper and let the wind whip it away.

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This kind of internal dialogue is crucial, I think.

You have to be in the right place to let things go, though. For me having the right medication and a good therapist allows me to be in the right headspace to begin relaxing enough so that this self talk works. If I was all chemically fucked and had no support, like years gone by, I'd find it much harder.

I find the different imageries people use really interesting!