Fanfic: A Stain to Never Fade, Cara/Kahlan
Title: A Stain to Never Fade
Author: individual_68
Pairing: Cara/Kahlan
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Femslash
Disclaimer: Not mine
a/N: made for BB alt for legendland, prompt song title
We have a routine. Pitch camp. Disappear while the others are distracted.
We have become masters of deception. Made it an art form. Paint lies so elaborate they must be framed.
Fear we have become so adept we almost believe the lies. Almost become the lies. Almost.
So we hide. Our love. Our life. Buried in the sand. Half truths. Half lies. Half lives.
Life in the sunlight. As expected. Allowed.
Live in the dark. Our secret. Precious existence.
Our true life too unconventional. Beyond the realms of friendship. Breach of duty. Contract.
And so you keep it hidden. Your dark secret. Ashamed. Terrified of truth. Lies fall easier from your lips.
It is second nature now. To hide our true selves. Our dark characters. This stain on your otherwise pristine life. A blemish on an otherwise uncontestable career.
And so I watch from a distance. See you maintain your veneer. The mask you wear. Worn so long, you forget it is there.
Feel my heart break as you continue the pretence. Touch his arm. Feel the rage burn. A simple kiss. And my fingers twitch. Restrain myself. To hit him would be to reveal myself. Reveal us.
And so I watch. Silent. Unmoving. I will be here. Waiting for my moment. And when you are ready, I may still be here. I will not fade.
I have become accustomed to the shadow. Silence and solitude. As I wait. For a look. So brief. Meaningful. My heart expands. Palsm sweat. Feet move of their own accord. This dance so well practised it is automatic. This path is well worn.
We disappear. Into the forest. Into ourselves. Out world.
Succumb to our base instincts. Our dark desires. Our love. Pure and true. Deformed by lies. Warped by our own arrogance.
I fear we will become this. Or it will become us. That the lies are greater than the sum of the whole. They will consume. Burn us up. Leave only a shell. An ashen smear on our lives to remember it by.
It is good. It is right. As long as it is hidden.
And so we will continue on. Play out the roles we are set. Portray these characters we fabricate. Act out our charade in the light of day.
Ignore the pain it causes. The tears like knives as they fall. The heartbreak like a lightning bolt. Separation like an amputation.
We will live like statues. See the world go by around us. Only observant of each other. Stand so still as lives move on around us. As lives are lived around us. Our lives go on without us.
One day we will return to them. We will once more exist beyond our nights together. Beyond these moments spent together. And our lives will be there for us. Though they will not have waited.
I will wait. Refuse to fade. Until I am no longer the blemish. Until I do not mar your reputation. Am not a mark upon the pristine landscape of your persona.
I will hide in the shadows. Content for now. Until our false lies fade.
Author: individual_68
Pairing: Cara/Kahlan
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Femslash
Disclaimer: Not mine
a/N: made for BB alt for legendland, prompt song title
We have a routine. Pitch camp. Disappear while the others are distracted.
We have become masters of deception. Made it an art form. Paint lies so elaborate they must be framed.
Fear we have become so adept we almost believe the lies. Almost become the lies. Almost.
So we hide. Our love. Our life. Buried in the sand. Half truths. Half lies. Half lives.
Life in the sunlight. As expected. Allowed.
Live in the dark. Our secret. Precious existence.
Our true life too unconventional. Beyond the realms of friendship. Breach of duty. Contract.
And so you keep it hidden. Your dark secret. Ashamed. Terrified of truth. Lies fall easier from your lips.
It is second nature now. To hide our true selves. Our dark characters. This stain on your otherwise pristine life. A blemish on an otherwise uncontestable career.
And so I watch from a distance. See you maintain your veneer. The mask you wear. Worn so long, you forget it is there.
Feel my heart break as you continue the pretence. Touch his arm. Feel the rage burn. A simple kiss. And my fingers twitch. Restrain myself. To hit him would be to reveal myself. Reveal us.
And so I watch. Silent. Unmoving. I will be here. Waiting for my moment. And when you are ready, I may still be here. I will not fade.
I have become accustomed to the shadow. Silence and solitude. As I wait. For a look. So brief. Meaningful. My heart expands. Palsm sweat. Feet move of their own accord. This dance so well practised it is automatic. This path is well worn.
We disappear. Into the forest. Into ourselves. Out world.
Succumb to our base instincts. Our dark desires. Our love. Pure and true. Deformed by lies. Warped by our own arrogance.
I fear we will become this. Or it will become us. That the lies are greater than the sum of the whole. They will consume. Burn us up. Leave only a shell. An ashen smear on our lives to remember it by.
It is good. It is right. As long as it is hidden.
And so we will continue on. Play out the roles we are set. Portray these characters we fabricate. Act out our charade in the light of day.
Ignore the pain it causes. The tears like knives as they fall. The heartbreak like a lightning bolt. Separation like an amputation.
We will live like statues. See the world go by around us. Only observant of each other. Stand so still as lives move on around us. As lives are lived around us. Our lives go on without us.
One day we will return to them. We will once more exist beyond our nights together. Beyond these moments spent together. And our lives will be there for us. Though they will not have waited.
I will wait. Refuse to fade. Until I am no longer the blemish. Until I do not mar your reputation. Am not a mark upon the pristine landscape of your persona.
I will hide in the shadows. Content for now. Until our false lies fade.