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Hey, September!
At this point, I have no concrete goals and plans for my life. Do I need it? My heart says 'Yes', my mind say 'No, you gotta have something, anything!'. I don't know if this is me being lazy or just a state of contentment. Life has been throwing things at me left and right. Like 'Oh, I recognize this one, I have prayed for it a month ago', then ( Read more... ) -
1 year.
It was a beautiful Sunday. The events after that werent't I expected them to be but I am grateful that it happened and that I met him. Maybe I needed it--all of it. There is no guarantee that the next one will be better, but I will know if he's someone I truly want. And, I'm ready.
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happy birthdays and some lies.
PMS-ing (post) made me so weak these past few days I had to skip work yesterday and today's conference. I feel a bit guilty but I know that if I didn't allow myself to rest I would collapse, roll into a cocoon and rot. I guess I'm a good person to feel this (and also, afraid to lose my job).
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Dance. Dance. Dance.
'Cause when she sings I hear a symphony
And I'm swallowed in sound as it echoes through me--
I'm renewed, oh how I feel alive
And though autumn's advancing. We'll stay young, go dancing
- Stay Young, Go Dancing, Death Cab for Cutie
I am in loff with Codes and Keys, I downloaded the album illegally (sorry, music industry) but I promise to buy the album ( Read more... ) -
Bullets
ho-hum. i kind of miss writing so i suppose going back to good ol' LJ would do the trick. i've been so lazy lately to actually use my brain to construct a proper sentence (actually just lazy in general). well nothing has changed, hehe, but at least i'm doing something about it. this and hundred-million-things in my to-do list. okay confession, ( Read more... ) -
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Amused.
Blessed.
Calm.
I can smell the scent of my perfume... and can't help but smile. I think I'm quite proud of myself today.
Becoming Jane.
Books.
Crosby.
John Mayer.
Sara Bareilles.
Sobriety.
Self-control.
Contentment.
"Be okay with it."
Someday I will find myself saying this--in my head or out loud.
I do not know, but happiness is within my grasp and I ( Read more... ) -
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Eleven days to go and I'll be seeing my family again. This time I don't feel as anxious and stressed like my last trip. I think the major reason is I felt so left out then. I didn't appreciate my life here due to all the things I had to deal with. You see I have a very weird and poor coping mechanism. Haha! Facebook updates about lives of cousins ( Read more... ) -
End of the road.
Today I have learned that my father has a new family. So meeting him this September may not be happening. There should be a reason why this happening to me but right now I don't understand ( Read more... )
