Comments | imaginarycircus: I don't know, except for the part about how I know nothing

imaginarycircus

I don't know, except for the part about how I know nothing

May 24, 2009 13:36

I've been wandering around without direction (sometimes literally) feeling really lost. I haven't been doing much writing besides an accidental drabble that may end up being another damn novel. And I've been feeling shiftless and purposeless and low energy and sort of like a blot upon the face of the earth. I also feel like a self-indulgent loser-- ( Read more... )

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imaginarycircus May 24 2009, 18:10:57 UTC

I'm not sure if I can make it work, but I think I can. I've been deeply concerned about all the race issues brought up in fandom lately and I really don't want to have a token character of color or a "magical negro" who is only there to aid my main white character.

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imaginarycircus May 24 2009, 19:02:15 UTC

Yeah, living in the Bronx and working in Harlem was a good experience in that way. I haven't been following the dialogs so much as slowly finding smart people with different experiences than mine in terms of class, race, gender, and sexual orientation and just reading about their experiences which are other than mine. Because I know that two black people may have wildly different experiences if one is gay and the other is straight, one is wealthy and educated and the other is not on top of being a person of color. There are lots of different kinds of privilege and I'd like to poke about at them once I feel I have anything at all to say.

friede May 24 2009, 19:31:53 UTC

I don't know if it helps, but your wandering echoes strongly with my own experience right now with the diss. D has been really great throughout my writing career reminding me that the race goes not to the swift but to the diligent, that inspiration and such comes and goes but habits help, yadda yadda. It has surprised me how much material I DO have, just by humbly plodding even though I feel like the whole project is crap, etc.

imaginarycircus May 24 2009, 20:02:58 UTC

Solidarity! \o/

I'm still quite surprised that I wrote a novel four times last year and I keep rewriting one short piece and it will eventually work and I've written a few new short pieces and part of a second novel. It's not like I've done nothing. But because I haven't found homes for any of the work I feel like I'm failing. But diligence, yes. And I'm really looking forward to the daily rigor of writing again. One big project. I'm definitely a novelist. Short stories make me feel weird and wistful.

It's been really wonderful to tinker away over here while you work away over there. Thank you. ♥

friede May 24 2009, 20:26:45 UTC

Aw, shucks.

hazelhawthorne May 24 2009, 21:43:06 UTC

*snuggles*

Wanna giant cupcake?

shveta_thakrar May 25 2009, 01:59:27 UTC

A question--have you ever done physical therapy to help wtih the spasms? Maybe you have, but just in case you haven't, it's helped me a lot with loosening my upper back and shoulders.

*love for the rest*

And did you get a chance to check out the Readercon site? You should come for the day with me. :)

zana16 May 25 2009, 04:37:49 UTC

I've been feeling a lot like that lately, and I was whining to a friend today, and she said she was feeling a lot like that lately as well, and that her father had told her that everyone is off kilter and not communicating well because Mercury is in retrograde. Which I totally don't believe, but somehow it made me feel immeasurably better.

Mercury will no longer be in retrograde starting the 30th, if you're interested. If my wanderlust and general discontent/antsy-ness ceases suddenly on the 30th, I may decide to believe this...