Why it Must be Me? - Chapter 10
Title: The Maknae's Dilemma Series: Story 1 - Cho Kyuhyun of Super Junior (Why it Must be Me?)
Author: imaginarybulb
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun/?, Eunhyuk/Kibum/Donghae, Kyuhyun/Sungmin, Kangin/Leeteuk, Hankyung/Heechul, parings may come and go
Summary: It had always been the three of them. Everyone knew that, so does Kyuhyun. Especially Kyuhyun. But still, Kyuhyun succumbed into their world.
Sungmin stared at the newb-No, Kyuhyun. The members were surrounding him ever since the morning and they all started to pamper him like hyungs would do to their maknae.
It’s been exactly 5 days since the male was accepted by the Super Junior members and Sungmin found himself looking at the maknae more. Sungmin just noticed, Kyuhyun is special. He’s the mixture of cuteness, sexiness, beautifulness and to sum it up, breathe-taking.
He can be cute when the hyungs pampered him and he would whine and pout when he wanted something and Sungmin felt like hugging the maknae because he looked so huggable when he did maknae things like pout, whine and doing aegyo and God, when he’s doing his aegyo (that he learned from Sungmin secretly, but Sungmin knew), Sungmin felt like his heart was going to burst because of the amount of cuteness radiated by Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun can also be sexy, have you seen his long legs? Sungmin first liking Kyuhyun’s legs was on the second day the members accepted Kyuhyun and Leeteuk had insisted watching movies together as a family to celebrate the new maknae and when Kyuhyun crawled to take the remote, Sungmin instantly choked on his drink when he saw the maknae’s cat-like moves and he got the perfect view of Kyuhyun’s perfect ass in those pyjamas. Sungmin couldn’t sleep that night.
Kyuhyun can also be beautiful, when he blushed and Sungmin found himself staring at the blushing maknae long enough to make Heechul suspected there’s something wrong with him. It’s not his fault actually, it’s Kyuhyun’s fault, for looking extremely beautiful with his milky white face tinted with light pink, or maybe crimson red when he’s really embarrassed (like when Heechul had blatantly said he got the most perfect ass in Super Junior and Sungmin ended being in a foul mood for two days in row).
Another thing about Kyuhyun that Sungmin was attracted to was his voice. Kyuhyun’s smooth, velvety voice. Sungmin is actually the number one fan of Kyuhyun’s voice, but he kept that a secret and let Siwon take the title (because he’s too shy to say it out loud). Sungmin loved hearing Kyuhyun sings and he had regretted not listening to the maknae’s singing voice when he first joined Super Junior. And now, he (and Siwon) had always stayed to listen Kyuhyun recording or practicing his lines.
If you ask Sungmin what he loved the most about Kyuhyun’s features, his answer would be; Kyuhyun’s lips. Kyuhyun’s bow-shaped lips. Sungmin had attracted to that pair of lips ever since he accidentally (he swears, it was accidental for him to stare at the sleeping Kyuhyun when he was supposed to wake the maknae up) studied Kyuhyun’s lips. From that time, he had wanted to kiss those lips until it turns red-
“Hyung? Sungmin hyung,” Sungmin jolted from his trance when he heard Kyuhyun called him. He almost jumped in surprise when he found the maknae was staring at him with confusion on his eyes and the maknae’s face was thisclose to him and Sungmin found himself hard to breathe because Kyuhyun’s face when up-close with his eyes wide and looking up to Sungmin was just breath-taking.
“Y-Yes?” Sungmin squeaked out, making Kyuhyun became more confused. However, before the maknae could say anything, Leeteuk had already cuts him off, “Kyu is sharing the same room with you,” the leader said, looking sad and a pout on his lips.
What?
“Aish this is so unfair!! I want Kyu to sleep with me, but… I can’t let him sleep on the floor every night and it would be troublesome if I kick Kangin out of the room because he owns so many things… So, the maknae is sharing the same room with you, arasso?”
Sungmin went blank all of the sudden, Kyuhyun is sharing the same room with me.
This is not good!! I might end up raping him!!!
Sungmin frantically arrange his belongings, busying himself so that he won’t have to face with Kyuhyun, because they’re just two of them, in a room, and the door was locked.
“Uhm… I hope you don’t mind sharing with me, hyung,” Kyuhyun started, biting his lips nervously and oh God, stop doing that!
“It’s okay, maknae-ah,” Sungmin said, silently praising himself for being composed despite the whole situation.
It’s okay, I’m rational. I can control myself. It’s okay. It’ll be ok-
Kyuhyun grinned, “Thanks hyung!”
I’m doomed.
--
When Sungmin first found out about Kyuhyun’s crush was when Ryeowook accidentally blurted out the whole thing when he demanded to know why Kyuhyun was crying in the bathroom? To say he was devastated was an understatement, he felt like screaming to no one why his life is so unfair and why the fuck it must be the trio!? And to make it worse, he planned on confessing to the maknae the day he found out about Kyuhyun’s crush, but he was determined to confess anyway and told Kyuhyun to just forget about them and let me love you, dammit!
However, when he forcedly kicked the bathroom door opened (and he told Leeteuk that he was drunk and accidentally practiced his martial arts on the bathroom door the next day), his original planned died down when he saw Kyuhyun crying with his eyes red and puffy and filled with tears. The maknae looked so broken. Instead of confessing his feelings, Sungmin went to the maknae and scooped him into his arms, embracing the maknae while murmuring words of assurance , because he understands Kyuhyun’s feelings very well.
Because he felt that feeling as well. He knew it would be hard to just forget about the one that you love so much because Sungmin felt the same way towards Kyuhyun.
The cold wind blew past Kyuhyun and Sungmin, neither of them moves.
Sungmin was still furrowing his brows while locking his gaze with Kyuhyun with his right arm still opened up to Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun was still crying while looking at his hyung guiltily, hesitation all over his pale face.
“Come Kyu…” Sungmin finally spoke. “I don’t care about anything. Just be with me, and I’ll make your heart mine too.”
“Hyung… I….” Kyuhyun choked on his tears.
“I’ll be fine, Kyu…” Sungmin smiled. “I love you too much to even care about anything.
“Hyung….”
“So, come here Kyu. Come to me.”
Kyuhyun bit his lips and he cried harder and Sungmin felt like grabbing Kyuhyun into his arms and just hug him forever, but he knew, if he do that, Kyuhyun would fall and that’s the last thing Sungmin wanted. So, he stood there, motionless as his heart cracking and breaking seeing the maknae’s state.
“Hyung…. I-I’m sorry…”
Sungmin was dumbfounded. What does he meant by ‘I’m sorry?’. It held so many meanings; it could be Kyuhyun is rejecting, but that’s still okay. What Sungmin fear off was the second meaning of Kyuhyun’s ‘I’m sorry’, because Kyuhyun didn’t move at all and the ‘I’m sorry’ could meant ‘I’m sorry hyung, but I can’t live like this anymore.’
Sungmin’s heart beats faster when Kyuhyun started to move, just an inch. He was about to stepped forward, to grab Kyuhyun’s hand, to prevent the maknae - the male that he loved so much - from falling, when he realized the maknae was jumping forward, towards him.
Towards Sungmin.
Eyes wide with realization, Sungmin opened up his arm and caught Kyuhyun in time. His heart beats faster in anticipation while he frowned at how light and fragile the maknae felt in his arms.
“….I’m giving myself to you hyung…” he heard Kyuhyun choked out and he felt hot tears wetting his shirt.
“B-But…. I’m not sure I can give my heart yet….” Kyuhyun clutched Sungmin’s shirt tightly, his hands and body trembling.
Sungmin smiled softly as he hugged Kyuhyun tighter and ran his fingers though the soft auburn hair, “It’s okay Kyu…. I promise I’ll make you give your heart to me one day… But now, I’m already happy… Thank you so much Kyu, and I love you…”
--
Sungmin and Kyuhyun walked side by side through the corridors, and Sungmin was hesitantly glancing at the maknae a few times while Kyuhyun just kept his face impassive. The older male was actually wanting to hold Kyuhyun’s hand and walk side by side together like a couple, because well, they are technically in a relationship, right? However, he was too nervous to do it because he’s scared if Kyuhyun would flinch from him or feel uncomfortable with him.
Sungmin sighed heavily, massaging his temple.
Maybe I should give him some time…. But… I really, really want to hold-
Sungmin jumped in surprise when he felt Kyuhyun suddenly held his hand and when he turned his head to look at the maknae, his heart skipped a beat when he saw the maknae was blushing.
“Uh… I-I thought…. Uhm…. It just… It seems right…” Kyuhyun stuttered and he turned his head to the opposite side, hiding his blushing face from Sungmin’s view. Sungmin bit his lips and gripped Kyuhyun’s hand tighter, trying to hide his grin.
“Uhm… Hyung…” Kyuhyun started as they approached his room and Sungmin raised his brows.
“Can… Can we keep this a secret? I mean… I’m still afraid with… this… Because I’m still unsure what will happen to…us…” Kyuhyun said as he kept his eyes on his tangled fingers with Sungmin’s. He’s guilty for even agreeing to Sungmin’s ‘proposal’, but seeing how honest Sungmin looked just now, Kyuhyun felt like trusting Sungmin and decided to give the older male a chance. But he knew it’ll be hard for him to give his already broken heart to Sungmin because somehow, Eunhyuk, Donghae and Kibum were holding his heart and he’s afraid if he couldn’t take it back from them.
Kyuhyun tried not to look at Sungmin because he knew the older male was probably hurt by his words and the last thing Kyuhyun wanted to do is too hurt his caring hyung.
To his surprise, Sungmin tilted his chin so that he was looking at him and Kyuhyun’s eyes widen when Sungmin was smiling softly at him.
“Hyung…”
“Shh…” Sungmin put his finger on Kyuhyun’s bow-shaped lips, his spine tingling as his finger brushed slightly against the beautiful pair of lips. “I understand. We don’t need to tell them now… We can wait… Until I make your heart mine… Then we’ll tell them, okay?”
Kyuhyun’s eyes were filled with tears at the softness of the older male, “Hyung….”
Sungmin smiled and leaned in to Kyuhyun, kissing his forehead, “I love you, Kyuhyun-ah….”
--
“Kyuhyun!”
Leeteuk gets up from the chair and lunged towards the maknae and pulled him into a bone-breaking hug as soon as Kyuhyun and Sungmin entered the room.
“Oh my god! Oh my god!! I was so worried of you!!!” Leeteuk exclaimed, hugging the maknae tighter. Kyuhyun gasped as he felt pain shot through his weak body and he felt it was hard to breathe. Sure before this he would happily hug Leeteuk back, but now his body was too weak for this type of hug.
“H-Hyung… I-I…” he choked out, “I-I can’t breathe… Hurts…”
Leeteuk quickly pulled back from the maknae in horror while Sungmin quickly went to the maknae, wrapping and arm around the maknae waist to keep him from falling.
“Oh god, I’m so, so, so, sorry Kyu. Hyung is sorry, neh?” Leeteuk stroked the younger’s hair, looking apologetically at him. He frowned when he notice how sick the maknae was now, he’s even too weak to receive Leeteuk’s strong hug. And what’s more, he noticed how small the maknae felt in his arms just now.
Kyuhyun smiled weakly at Leeteuk, “It’s okay hyung… I’m sorry too… For worrying you…”
The room fell silent, before Kibum spoke out.
“….Can I know… Why you did that?”
Sungmin’s eyes widen in panic, he didn’t want Kyuhyun to cry again. Knowing Kibum, he’s persistent when it comes to something that he wanted to know and he’s afraid if Kibum pushed Kyuhyun too hard and end up the maknae crying again. He looked at Kyuhyun worriedly and he was surprised to see Kyuhyun looked at Kibum with an unreadable expression. Then, Kyuhyun suddenly bowed to the older male, “I’m sorry, hyung.”
“Kyu…” Sungmin started.
“I just…” he sighed, “I’m jealous…”
Oh no… He’s not telling everything right? Sungmin thought, worried.
Because you have each other. “Because you can talk.”
The members’ eyes widen in surprise, including Sungmin, “I was depressed because I can’t talk and I really, really wanted to sing…” I really, really wanted to be with you… “Seeing all of you talking so freely, I was angry because I couldn’t.” Seeing you guys so happy with each other, I was angry because I couldn’t. Kyuhyun straighten himself up, smiling apologetically at Kibum, “I’m so sorry, hyung…”
Kibum smiled softly at the maknae as he made his way towards the youngest of the group. He then pulled Kyuhyun into a soft hug, not wanting to hurt the maknae, “It’s okay Kyu… I’m sorry too… I should be more considerate of you…” He rubbed comforting circles on Kyuhyun’s back slowly, his heart ached at how skinny the maknae gets.
Kyuhyun sighed as he rested his cheek on Kibum’s shoulder, “It’s okay hyung… It’s my fault, I’m sorry…”
It’s my fault for falling in love with you…
--
It had been about two months since the accident and Kyuhyun is home.
Kyuhyun sighed in bliss as he smiled at his shared room with Sungmin. He threw himself on to the bed, enjoying the fluffiness and the familiar scent of the room.
It’s good to be back…
“Enjoying yourself?”
Kyuhyun tilted his head to the side and his face lightened up with a grin as Sungmin entered the room with his bags. The older male smiled at him and joined him on the bed, making the bed creaked at the impact.
“Ahhhh~ This is great. I’m not sleeping alone anymore~” Sungmin sing-sang as he closed his eyes, a smile played on his lips. He then opened his eyes and turned his head to the side, locking gaze with a smiling Kyuhyun who’s resting on his stomach.
Sungmin turned his body to the side so that he could face Kyuhyun properly. Slowly, he took Kyuhyun’s hand and brings it to his lips, placing soft kisses on the knuckles.
“I missed you…”
Kyuhyun bit his lips, his face redden at Sungmin’s cheesiness and Sungmin smiled softly at the maknae, stroking his red cheek.
“You know how happy I am right now?”
Kyuhyun smiled at Sungmin and he shyly closed the distance between him and Sungmin, snuggling closer to the older male.
“I missed you too, hyung…”
Sungmin was dumbfounded for a moment before his face broke into a silly smile. He laughed and hugged Kyuhyun, making the maknae yelped in surprise.
“Hyung!!”
Soon, the KYUMIN’s room was filled with laughter, bringing smiles to the members outside.
Except for some members.
--
“Hyuuuung~! I don’t want to eat peas!” Kyuhyun whined during breakfast, making the members looked at him with smiles. The maknae never really like eating peas.
“Hyuuung~” Kyuhyun whined again, shaking Sungmin who’s sitting next to him. Sungmin groaned at the maknae because the maknae just disturbed his eating time, but he still took the peas from Kyuhyun’s plate and ate them. Sungmin could never resist Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun grinned at his hyung, -- yep, Sungmin really couldn’t resist Kyuhyun -- and he proceeded to eat his breakfast.
“Kyuhyun-ah, if you don’t want your veggies, you can give it to me,” Kibum said cheerily and Kyuhyun’s face fell for a moment before he grinned, “Okay hyung.”
Take a deep breath, play cool, relax, act normal. He chanted in his head, remembering the steps Sungmin had taught him whenever he’s with the Kihyukhae trio. So far, everything is fine and Kyuhyun could finally ease down his tension whenever he’s around them.
“You can give it to me too, Kyuhyun,” Donghae suddenly piped in, and Kyuhyun was dumbfounded by the sudden offer by the older male. Kibum smiled, oblivious with how the maknae suddenly tensed.
“Aish… If Kyu give all of his peas to you, then I won’t have any,” Sungmin added jokingly though inside, he was fuming in jealousy because Donghae sudden affection towards the maknae. He wasn’t disturbed by Kibum because the younger male had shown his affection towards Kyuhyun from day one Kyuhyun joined Super Junior. As for Donghae, even though the dancer loves skinship and had done it with Kyuhyun, but that were for the fans and he never did it off camera.
Sungmin smiled as the members started laughing and his hand clenched his chopsticks tightly until his knuckles turn white and Kyuhyun noticed the older male was burning in jealousy. Giggling to himself, Kyuhyun spoke out, “If Sungmin hyung’s not here, I’ll give them to you, Kibum hyung, Donghae hyung.”
The duo grinned and nodded and Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin and winked at him, making Sungmin almost choked on his food. Kyuhyun smiled to himself and took Sungmin’s hand, gripping it lightly.
Take a deep breath, play cool, relax, act normal.
--
Donghae and Eunhyuk stared at the maknae and Sungmin, giggling.
Or more, Kyuhyun is giggling while Sungmin was teasing him about something.
Kyuhyun, the mature, calm, Evil-Maknae was giggling like a high-school girl.
Donghae cleared his throat and averted his gaze towards something else while Eunhyuk kept staring, clenching the mineral bottle in his hand. Kibum was not there with him because the younger male had different schedule with them.
Grunting, Eunhyuk stood up abruptly, startling Donghae in the process.
“Let’s go,” Eunhyuk said, looking at Donghae who raised his brows in confusion. He tilted his chin towards the door, “Outside. We need to talk.”
--
The two dancers sat on the bench, side by side, letting silence lingering around them.
“So…” Donghae started, “What do you want to talk about?”
“You like Kyuhyun don’t you?” Eunhyuk said, his eyes were fixed towards the white wall in front of them, so he didn’t notice how wide Donghae’s eyes were, but he knew, because he could feel it.
“Wh-What? M-Me… K-Kyuh-hyun… U-Uh…” Donghae stuttered, feeling nervous all of the sudden.
“No need to lie to me, Donghae. I knew. I saw the look in your eyes whenever you’re talking to or around the maknae. You’re easy to read you know? That’s how I knew your feelings towards Kibum.”
Donghae gaped like a fish before he completely shut his mouth and sighed in frustration. He raked his fingers through his hair before covering his face and rested his elbows on his knees, groaning.
“What now, you wanted to tell Kibum? So that he’ll break up with me?” Donghae asked, feeling nervous even though he kept a calm façade as if he didn’t care anymore.
He knew Eunhyuk felt the same way as him; he didn’t really like the fact that they were sharing Kibum and he knew Eunhyuk would probably use his new-found feelings towards the maknae so that Kibum would break up with him and thus allowing Eunhyuk to have Kibum all to himself.
However, to his surprise, the older dancer laughed and he looked at him quizzically.
“What?”
Eunhyuk sighed, “No… I won’t tell him….”
Donghae arched his brows, “Why?”
Eunhyuk didn’t answer, instead he stared at his shoes while fiddling with his fingers. Donghae’s eyes widen in realization, “Y-You… You too!? K-Kyuhyun….”
Eunhyuk turned to look at him, a forlorn expression on his face, “I don’t know what to do anymore…” he covered his face, “I love Kibum so much… But Kyuhyun…”
Donghae stared at Eunhyuk pitifully and hugged the older male, comforting him, “I understand… We couldn’t let Kibum go… But in the same time, we wanted Kyuhyun as much…”
--
Donghae and Eunhyuk entered the practice room a few minutes later and were greeted by Kyuhyun who’s running towards the door, almost bumping with them. They stared wide eyes at Kyuhyun who’s grinning at him before the grin fell slightly, “Oh, hey hyungs.”
Donghae blinked, because the maknae was grinning and he’s so close to him, “O-Oh, hey…”
Before Donghae could ask Kyuhyun what was he doing, the maknae already ran to the other direction and then they realized Sungmin was chasing him. They watched as the maknae was laughing and poked his tongue towards Sungmin who’s trying to catch him but no avail since the maknae was hiding behind the members and Leeteuk especially, didn’t give Sungmin a chance to catch the maknae.
Tired of hiding behind Leeteuk, Kyuhyun left the leader’s protection and ran towards the other members, before he yelped in surprise when Sungmin suddenly hugged him from behind and the two of them rolled on the floor, with Sungmin on top of Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun continued to laugh loudly, his face redden from all the running and also from the laughing, oblivious to Sungmin who’s watching him with a loving expression on his face.
Kyuhyun’s oblivious, the members were oblivious (Sungmin had been doting on Kyu so much lately, Leeteuk smiled) but not Donghae, not Eunhyuk.
Because they knew it very well.
Sure, they already knew how close Sungmin is with Kyuhyun and the pink-lover male always initiate skinship with Kyuhyun and sometimes they saw as if Sungmin was protecting Kyuhyun. But of course, they didn’t really give a damn about it because Sungmin is basically close with everyone and all the other members also love to dote on Kyuhyun.
But, lately, they have noticed a slight change in Sungmin’s affection towards Kyuhyun. When the Aegyo King snatched Kibum’s arm when he’s trying to hug Kyuhyun and said ‘He’s mine’, they could see something in the elder’s eyes, something that screamed ‘jealousy’. When Eunhyuk saw Sungmin caressing Kyuhyun’s hair in the van while the maknae was sleeping, he saw the loving look in the elder’s eyes. When they saw how Sungmin cried when he told them how Kyuhyun went mute because the accident, when they saw how angry Sungmin got when Kyuhyun blacked out after throwing notes towards the three of them and when Kyuhyun ran away, when they saw how Sungmin quickly wrapped his arm around Kyuhyun’s waist when the maknae was too tired to stand up, when they saw how close Sungmin and Kyuhyun got lately, they knew.
They knew that Sungmin is in love with the maknae.
“Hyung! Stop staring! It’s rude!” Kyuhyun chuckled and tried to cover his face. Sungmin smirked and pried off the maknae’s hands from covering his blushing face and he leaned his face closer to Kyuhyun, “You looked so cute, maknae-ah, I want to kiss you right now.”
Eunhyuk quickly left the room and Donghae sighed, knowing how pissed the older must be feeling right now. He stared longingly at Kyuhyun who continued laughing as Sungmin started tickling him.
Love hurts…
Author: imaginarybulb
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun/?, Eunhyuk/Kibum/Donghae, Kyuhyun/Sungmin, Kangin/Leeteuk, Hankyung/Heechul, parings may come and go
Summary: It had always been the three of them. Everyone knew that, so does Kyuhyun. Especially Kyuhyun. But still, Kyuhyun succumbed into their world.
Sungmin stared at the newb-No, Kyuhyun. The members were surrounding him ever since the morning and they all started to pamper him like hyungs would do to their maknae.
It’s been exactly 5 days since the male was accepted by the Super Junior members and Sungmin found himself looking at the maknae more. Sungmin just noticed, Kyuhyun is special. He’s the mixture of cuteness, sexiness, beautifulness and to sum it up, breathe-taking.
He can be cute when the hyungs pampered him and he would whine and pout when he wanted something and Sungmin felt like hugging the maknae because he looked so huggable when he did maknae things like pout, whine and doing aegyo and God, when he’s doing his aegyo (that he learned from Sungmin secretly, but Sungmin knew), Sungmin felt like his heart was going to burst because of the amount of cuteness radiated by Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun can also be sexy, have you seen his long legs? Sungmin first liking Kyuhyun’s legs was on the second day the members accepted Kyuhyun and Leeteuk had insisted watching movies together as a family to celebrate the new maknae and when Kyuhyun crawled to take the remote, Sungmin instantly choked on his drink when he saw the maknae’s cat-like moves and he got the perfect view of Kyuhyun’s perfect ass in those pyjamas. Sungmin couldn’t sleep that night.
Kyuhyun can also be beautiful, when he blushed and Sungmin found himself staring at the blushing maknae long enough to make Heechul suspected there’s something wrong with him. It’s not his fault actually, it’s Kyuhyun’s fault, for looking extremely beautiful with his milky white face tinted with light pink, or maybe crimson red when he’s really embarrassed (like when Heechul had blatantly said he got the most perfect ass in Super Junior and Sungmin ended being in a foul mood for two days in row).
Another thing about Kyuhyun that Sungmin was attracted to was his voice. Kyuhyun’s smooth, velvety voice. Sungmin is actually the number one fan of Kyuhyun’s voice, but he kept that a secret and let Siwon take the title (because he’s too shy to say it out loud). Sungmin loved hearing Kyuhyun sings and he had regretted not listening to the maknae’s singing voice when he first joined Super Junior. And now, he (and Siwon) had always stayed to listen Kyuhyun recording or practicing his lines.
If you ask Sungmin what he loved the most about Kyuhyun’s features, his answer would be; Kyuhyun’s lips. Kyuhyun’s bow-shaped lips. Sungmin had attracted to that pair of lips ever since he accidentally (he swears, it was accidental for him to stare at the sleeping Kyuhyun when he was supposed to wake the maknae up) studied Kyuhyun’s lips. From that time, he had wanted to kiss those lips until it turns red-
“Hyung? Sungmin hyung,” Sungmin jolted from his trance when he heard Kyuhyun called him. He almost jumped in surprise when he found the maknae was staring at him with confusion on his eyes and the maknae’s face was thisclose to him and Sungmin found himself hard to breathe because Kyuhyun’s face when up-close with his eyes wide and looking up to Sungmin was just breath-taking.
“Y-Yes?” Sungmin squeaked out, making Kyuhyun became more confused. However, before the maknae could say anything, Leeteuk had already cuts him off, “Kyu is sharing the same room with you,” the leader said, looking sad and a pout on his lips.
What?
“Aish this is so unfair!! I want Kyu to sleep with me, but… I can’t let him sleep on the floor every night and it would be troublesome if I kick Kangin out of the room because he owns so many things… So, the maknae is sharing the same room with you, arasso?”
Sungmin went blank all of the sudden, Kyuhyun is sharing the same room with me.
This is not good!! I might end up raping him!!!
Sungmin frantically arrange his belongings, busying himself so that he won’t have to face with Kyuhyun, because they’re just two of them, in a room, and the door was locked.
“Uhm… I hope you don’t mind sharing with me, hyung,” Kyuhyun started, biting his lips nervously and oh God, stop doing that!
“It’s okay, maknae-ah,” Sungmin said, silently praising himself for being composed despite the whole situation.
It’s okay, I’m rational. I can control myself. It’s okay. It’ll be ok-
Kyuhyun grinned, “Thanks hyung!”
I’m doomed.
--
When Sungmin first found out about Kyuhyun’s crush was when Ryeowook accidentally blurted out the whole thing when he demanded to know why Kyuhyun was crying in the bathroom? To say he was devastated was an understatement, he felt like screaming to no one why his life is so unfair and why the fuck it must be the trio!? And to make it worse, he planned on confessing to the maknae the day he found out about Kyuhyun’s crush, but he was determined to confess anyway and told Kyuhyun to just forget about them and let me love you, dammit!
However, when he forcedly kicked the bathroom door opened (and he told Leeteuk that he was drunk and accidentally practiced his martial arts on the bathroom door the next day), his original planned died down when he saw Kyuhyun crying with his eyes red and puffy and filled with tears. The maknae looked so broken. Instead of confessing his feelings, Sungmin went to the maknae and scooped him into his arms, embracing the maknae while murmuring words of assurance , because he understands Kyuhyun’s feelings very well.
Because he felt that feeling as well. He knew it would be hard to just forget about the one that you love so much because Sungmin felt the same way towards Kyuhyun.
The cold wind blew past Kyuhyun and Sungmin, neither of them moves.
Sungmin was still furrowing his brows while locking his gaze with Kyuhyun with his right arm still opened up to Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun was still crying while looking at his hyung guiltily, hesitation all over his pale face.
“Come Kyu…” Sungmin finally spoke. “I don’t care about anything. Just be with me, and I’ll make your heart mine too.”
“Hyung… I….” Kyuhyun choked on his tears.
“I’ll be fine, Kyu…” Sungmin smiled. “I love you too much to even care about anything.
“Hyung….”
“So, come here Kyu. Come to me.”
Kyuhyun bit his lips and he cried harder and Sungmin felt like grabbing Kyuhyun into his arms and just hug him forever, but he knew, if he do that, Kyuhyun would fall and that’s the last thing Sungmin wanted. So, he stood there, motionless as his heart cracking and breaking seeing the maknae’s state.
“Hyung…. I-I’m sorry…”
Sungmin was dumbfounded. What does he meant by ‘I’m sorry?’. It held so many meanings; it could be Kyuhyun is rejecting, but that’s still okay. What Sungmin fear off was the second meaning of Kyuhyun’s ‘I’m sorry’, because Kyuhyun didn’t move at all and the ‘I’m sorry’ could meant ‘I’m sorry hyung, but I can’t live like this anymore.’
Sungmin’s heart beats faster when Kyuhyun started to move, just an inch. He was about to stepped forward, to grab Kyuhyun’s hand, to prevent the maknae - the male that he loved so much - from falling, when he realized the maknae was jumping forward, towards him.
Towards Sungmin.
Eyes wide with realization, Sungmin opened up his arm and caught Kyuhyun in time. His heart beats faster in anticipation while he frowned at how light and fragile the maknae felt in his arms.
“….I’m giving myself to you hyung…” he heard Kyuhyun choked out and he felt hot tears wetting his shirt.
“B-But…. I’m not sure I can give my heart yet….” Kyuhyun clutched Sungmin’s shirt tightly, his hands and body trembling.
Sungmin smiled softly as he hugged Kyuhyun tighter and ran his fingers though the soft auburn hair, “It’s okay Kyu…. I promise I’ll make you give your heart to me one day… But now, I’m already happy… Thank you so much Kyu, and I love you…”
--
Sungmin and Kyuhyun walked side by side through the corridors, and Sungmin was hesitantly glancing at the maknae a few times while Kyuhyun just kept his face impassive. The older male was actually wanting to hold Kyuhyun’s hand and walk side by side together like a couple, because well, they are technically in a relationship, right? However, he was too nervous to do it because he’s scared if Kyuhyun would flinch from him or feel uncomfortable with him.
Sungmin sighed heavily, massaging his temple.
Maybe I should give him some time…. But… I really, really want to hold-
Sungmin jumped in surprise when he felt Kyuhyun suddenly held his hand and when he turned his head to look at the maknae, his heart skipped a beat when he saw the maknae was blushing.
“Uh… I-I thought…. Uhm…. It just… It seems right…” Kyuhyun stuttered and he turned his head to the opposite side, hiding his blushing face from Sungmin’s view. Sungmin bit his lips and gripped Kyuhyun’s hand tighter, trying to hide his grin.
“Uhm… Hyung…” Kyuhyun started as they approached his room and Sungmin raised his brows.
“Can… Can we keep this a secret? I mean… I’m still afraid with… this… Because I’m still unsure what will happen to…us…” Kyuhyun said as he kept his eyes on his tangled fingers with Sungmin’s. He’s guilty for even agreeing to Sungmin’s ‘proposal’, but seeing how honest Sungmin looked just now, Kyuhyun felt like trusting Sungmin and decided to give the older male a chance. But he knew it’ll be hard for him to give his already broken heart to Sungmin because somehow, Eunhyuk, Donghae and Kibum were holding his heart and he’s afraid if he couldn’t take it back from them.
Kyuhyun tried not to look at Sungmin because he knew the older male was probably hurt by his words and the last thing Kyuhyun wanted to do is too hurt his caring hyung.
To his surprise, Sungmin tilted his chin so that he was looking at him and Kyuhyun’s eyes widen when Sungmin was smiling softly at him.
“Hyung…”
“Shh…” Sungmin put his finger on Kyuhyun’s bow-shaped lips, his spine tingling as his finger brushed slightly against the beautiful pair of lips. “I understand. We don’t need to tell them now… We can wait… Until I make your heart mine… Then we’ll tell them, okay?”
Kyuhyun’s eyes were filled with tears at the softness of the older male, “Hyung….”
Sungmin smiled and leaned in to Kyuhyun, kissing his forehead, “I love you, Kyuhyun-ah….”
--
“Kyuhyun!”
Leeteuk gets up from the chair and lunged towards the maknae and pulled him into a bone-breaking hug as soon as Kyuhyun and Sungmin entered the room.
“Oh my god! Oh my god!! I was so worried of you!!!” Leeteuk exclaimed, hugging the maknae tighter. Kyuhyun gasped as he felt pain shot through his weak body and he felt it was hard to breathe. Sure before this he would happily hug Leeteuk back, but now his body was too weak for this type of hug.
“H-Hyung… I-I…” he choked out, “I-I can’t breathe… Hurts…”
Leeteuk quickly pulled back from the maknae in horror while Sungmin quickly went to the maknae, wrapping and arm around the maknae waist to keep him from falling.
“Oh god, I’m so, so, so, sorry Kyu. Hyung is sorry, neh?” Leeteuk stroked the younger’s hair, looking apologetically at him. He frowned when he notice how sick the maknae was now, he’s even too weak to receive Leeteuk’s strong hug. And what’s more, he noticed how small the maknae felt in his arms just now.
Kyuhyun smiled weakly at Leeteuk, “It’s okay hyung… I’m sorry too… For worrying you…”
The room fell silent, before Kibum spoke out.
“….Can I know… Why you did that?”
Sungmin’s eyes widen in panic, he didn’t want Kyuhyun to cry again. Knowing Kibum, he’s persistent when it comes to something that he wanted to know and he’s afraid if Kibum pushed Kyuhyun too hard and end up the maknae crying again. He looked at Kyuhyun worriedly and he was surprised to see Kyuhyun looked at Kibum with an unreadable expression. Then, Kyuhyun suddenly bowed to the older male, “I’m sorry, hyung.”
“Kyu…” Sungmin started.
“I just…” he sighed, “I’m jealous…”
Oh no… He’s not telling everything right? Sungmin thought, worried.
Because you have each other. “Because you can talk.”
The members’ eyes widen in surprise, including Sungmin, “I was depressed because I can’t talk and I really, really wanted to sing…” I really, really wanted to be with you… “Seeing all of you talking so freely, I was angry because I couldn’t.” Seeing you guys so happy with each other, I was angry because I couldn’t. Kyuhyun straighten himself up, smiling apologetically at Kibum, “I’m so sorry, hyung…”
Kibum smiled softly at the maknae as he made his way towards the youngest of the group. He then pulled Kyuhyun into a soft hug, not wanting to hurt the maknae, “It’s okay Kyu… I’m sorry too… I should be more considerate of you…” He rubbed comforting circles on Kyuhyun’s back slowly, his heart ached at how skinny the maknae gets.
Kyuhyun sighed as he rested his cheek on Kibum’s shoulder, “It’s okay hyung… It’s my fault, I’m sorry…”
It’s my fault for falling in love with you…
--
It had been about two months since the accident and Kyuhyun is home.
Kyuhyun sighed in bliss as he smiled at his shared room with Sungmin. He threw himself on to the bed, enjoying the fluffiness and the familiar scent of the room.
It’s good to be back…
“Enjoying yourself?”
Kyuhyun tilted his head to the side and his face lightened up with a grin as Sungmin entered the room with his bags. The older male smiled at him and joined him on the bed, making the bed creaked at the impact.
“Ahhhh~ This is great. I’m not sleeping alone anymore~” Sungmin sing-sang as he closed his eyes, a smile played on his lips. He then opened his eyes and turned his head to the side, locking gaze with a smiling Kyuhyun who’s resting on his stomach.
Sungmin turned his body to the side so that he could face Kyuhyun properly. Slowly, he took Kyuhyun’s hand and brings it to his lips, placing soft kisses on the knuckles.
“I missed you…”
Kyuhyun bit his lips, his face redden at Sungmin’s cheesiness and Sungmin smiled softly at the maknae, stroking his red cheek.
“You know how happy I am right now?”
Kyuhyun smiled at Sungmin and he shyly closed the distance between him and Sungmin, snuggling closer to the older male.
“I missed you too, hyung…”
Sungmin was dumbfounded for a moment before his face broke into a silly smile. He laughed and hugged Kyuhyun, making the maknae yelped in surprise.
“Hyung!!”
Soon, the KYUMIN’s room was filled with laughter, bringing smiles to the members outside.
Except for some members.
--
“Hyuuuung~! I don’t want to eat peas!” Kyuhyun whined during breakfast, making the members looked at him with smiles. The maknae never really like eating peas.
“Hyuuung~” Kyuhyun whined again, shaking Sungmin who’s sitting next to him. Sungmin groaned at the maknae because the maknae just disturbed his eating time, but he still took the peas from Kyuhyun’s plate and ate them. Sungmin could never resist Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun grinned at his hyung, -- yep, Sungmin really couldn’t resist Kyuhyun -- and he proceeded to eat his breakfast.
“Kyuhyun-ah, if you don’t want your veggies, you can give it to me,” Kibum said cheerily and Kyuhyun’s face fell for a moment before he grinned, “Okay hyung.”
Take a deep breath, play cool, relax, act normal. He chanted in his head, remembering the steps Sungmin had taught him whenever he’s with the Kihyukhae trio. So far, everything is fine and Kyuhyun could finally ease down his tension whenever he’s around them.
“You can give it to me too, Kyuhyun,” Donghae suddenly piped in, and Kyuhyun was dumbfounded by the sudden offer by the older male. Kibum smiled, oblivious with how the maknae suddenly tensed.
“Aish… If Kyu give all of his peas to you, then I won’t have any,” Sungmin added jokingly though inside, he was fuming in jealousy because Donghae sudden affection towards the maknae. He wasn’t disturbed by Kibum because the younger male had shown his affection towards Kyuhyun from day one Kyuhyun joined Super Junior. As for Donghae, even though the dancer loves skinship and had done it with Kyuhyun, but that were for the fans and he never did it off camera.
Sungmin smiled as the members started laughing and his hand clenched his chopsticks tightly until his knuckles turn white and Kyuhyun noticed the older male was burning in jealousy. Giggling to himself, Kyuhyun spoke out, “If Sungmin hyung’s not here, I’ll give them to you, Kibum hyung, Donghae hyung.”
The duo grinned and nodded and Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin and winked at him, making Sungmin almost choked on his food. Kyuhyun smiled to himself and took Sungmin’s hand, gripping it lightly.
Take a deep breath, play cool, relax, act normal.
--
Donghae and Eunhyuk stared at the maknae and Sungmin, giggling.
Or more, Kyuhyun is giggling while Sungmin was teasing him about something.
Kyuhyun, the mature, calm, Evil-Maknae was giggling like a high-school girl.
Donghae cleared his throat and averted his gaze towards something else while Eunhyuk kept staring, clenching the mineral bottle in his hand. Kibum was not there with him because the younger male had different schedule with them.
Grunting, Eunhyuk stood up abruptly, startling Donghae in the process.
“Let’s go,” Eunhyuk said, looking at Donghae who raised his brows in confusion. He tilted his chin towards the door, “Outside. We need to talk.”
--
The two dancers sat on the bench, side by side, letting silence lingering around them.
“So…” Donghae started, “What do you want to talk about?”
“You like Kyuhyun don’t you?” Eunhyuk said, his eyes were fixed towards the white wall in front of them, so he didn’t notice how wide Donghae’s eyes were, but he knew, because he could feel it.
“Wh-What? M-Me… K-Kyuh-hyun… U-Uh…” Donghae stuttered, feeling nervous all of the sudden.
“No need to lie to me, Donghae. I knew. I saw the look in your eyes whenever you’re talking to or around the maknae. You’re easy to read you know? That’s how I knew your feelings towards Kibum.”
Donghae gaped like a fish before he completely shut his mouth and sighed in frustration. He raked his fingers through his hair before covering his face and rested his elbows on his knees, groaning.
“What now, you wanted to tell Kibum? So that he’ll break up with me?” Donghae asked, feeling nervous even though he kept a calm façade as if he didn’t care anymore.
He knew Eunhyuk felt the same way as him; he didn’t really like the fact that they were sharing Kibum and he knew Eunhyuk would probably use his new-found feelings towards the maknae so that Kibum would break up with him and thus allowing Eunhyuk to have Kibum all to himself.
However, to his surprise, the older dancer laughed and he looked at him quizzically.
“What?”
Eunhyuk sighed, “No… I won’t tell him….”
Donghae arched his brows, “Why?”
Eunhyuk didn’t answer, instead he stared at his shoes while fiddling with his fingers. Donghae’s eyes widen in realization, “Y-You… You too!? K-Kyuhyun….”
Eunhyuk turned to look at him, a forlorn expression on his face, “I don’t know what to do anymore…” he covered his face, “I love Kibum so much… But Kyuhyun…”
Donghae stared at Eunhyuk pitifully and hugged the older male, comforting him, “I understand… We couldn’t let Kibum go… But in the same time, we wanted Kyuhyun as much…”
--
Donghae and Eunhyuk entered the practice room a few minutes later and were greeted by Kyuhyun who’s running towards the door, almost bumping with them. They stared wide eyes at Kyuhyun who’s grinning at him before the grin fell slightly, “Oh, hey hyungs.”
Donghae blinked, because the maknae was grinning and he’s so close to him, “O-Oh, hey…”
Before Donghae could ask Kyuhyun what was he doing, the maknae already ran to the other direction and then they realized Sungmin was chasing him. They watched as the maknae was laughing and poked his tongue towards Sungmin who’s trying to catch him but no avail since the maknae was hiding behind the members and Leeteuk especially, didn’t give Sungmin a chance to catch the maknae.
Tired of hiding behind Leeteuk, Kyuhyun left the leader’s protection and ran towards the other members, before he yelped in surprise when Sungmin suddenly hugged him from behind and the two of them rolled on the floor, with Sungmin on top of Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun continued to laugh loudly, his face redden from all the running and also from the laughing, oblivious to Sungmin who’s watching him with a loving expression on his face.
Kyuhyun’s oblivious, the members were oblivious (Sungmin had been doting on Kyu so much lately, Leeteuk smiled) but not Donghae, not Eunhyuk.
Because they knew it very well.
Sure, they already knew how close Sungmin is with Kyuhyun and the pink-lover male always initiate skinship with Kyuhyun and sometimes they saw as if Sungmin was protecting Kyuhyun. But of course, they didn’t really give a damn about it because Sungmin is basically close with everyone and all the other members also love to dote on Kyuhyun.
But, lately, they have noticed a slight change in Sungmin’s affection towards Kyuhyun. When the Aegyo King snatched Kibum’s arm when he’s trying to hug Kyuhyun and said ‘He’s mine’, they could see something in the elder’s eyes, something that screamed ‘jealousy’. When Eunhyuk saw Sungmin caressing Kyuhyun’s hair in the van while the maknae was sleeping, he saw the loving look in the elder’s eyes. When they saw how Sungmin cried when he told them how Kyuhyun went mute because the accident, when they saw how angry Sungmin got when Kyuhyun blacked out after throwing notes towards the three of them and when Kyuhyun ran away, when they saw how Sungmin quickly wrapped his arm around Kyuhyun’s waist when the maknae was too tired to stand up, when they saw how close Sungmin and Kyuhyun got lately, they knew.
They knew that Sungmin is in love with the maknae.
“Hyung! Stop staring! It’s rude!” Kyuhyun chuckled and tried to cover his face. Sungmin smirked and pried off the maknae’s hands from covering his blushing face and he leaned his face closer to Kyuhyun, “You looked so cute, maknae-ah, I want to kiss you right now.”
Eunhyuk quickly left the room and Donghae sighed, knowing how pissed the older must be feeling right now. He stared longingly at Kyuhyun who continued laughing as Sungmin started tickling him.
Love hurts…