Why it Must be Me? - Chapter 8
Title: The Maknae's Dilemma Series: Story 1 - Cho Kyuhyun of Super Junior (Why it Must be Me?)
Author: imaginarybulb
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun/?, Eunhyuk/Kibum/Donghae, Kyuhyun/Sungmin, Kangin/Leeteuk, Hankyung/Heechul, parings may come and go
Summary: It had always been the three of them. Everyone knew that, so does Kyuhyun. Especially Kyuhyun. But still, Kyuhyun succumbed into their world.
Sungmin was running.
If people saw him, they’ll think he was running for his life.
But no, Sungmin wasn’t running for his life. He was running for someone else’s life.
His beloved’s life.
“I’ll be okay, hyung… Thanks for waking me up,” Kyuhyun said gratefully before hugging Sungmin, catching the elder off guard.
Sungmin clenched his jaw as tears pricking in his eyes. He fastened his steps, ignoring the sore feelings of his feet running from the dorm all the way to the hospital. Henry called him right after he left the dorm, crying while informing him where was the hospital they were admitted.
You know, when someone’s acting weird one day, sometimes it meant that they’re going to die…
Sungmin closed his eyes, pushing away the thought from his memories, the words his high school mate once told him.
No, Kyuhyun… You can’t…. Kyuhyun-ah….
Sungmin ran through the corridors, searching for Henry. He halted his steps when he saw Henry sitting on the waiting chair while crying with one of the manager beside him.
“Henli-ah!”
Henry’s head snapped towards the older male and the Chinese male started to cry more. Sungmin rushed towards him and Henry threw himself into Sungmin’s embrace.
“Sungmin gege…. Wh-What should we do….? I’m afraid….” Henry sobbed into the older male’s shirt and Sungmin coaxed him, telling him it’ll be all right.
But his hands were trembling and he felt like he’s assuring himself more than Henry.
“Doctor!” their manager exclaimed, standing up instantly and went towards a male doctor.
“Doctor, how are they?” Sungmin asked, scared and worried.
The doctor sighed, “Thank God, they all survive from the serious accident. The two managers, the driver, Park Jungsu-ssi, Shin Donghee-ssi and Lee Hyukjae-ssi are all suffering from minor injuries. However, as for Cho Kyuhyun-ssi….” The doctor bit his lips, “He was sitting behind the driver's seat when the accident occurred and was the most injured and had a fractured hip, pneumothorax from broken ribs, and facial scratches and bruises.”
“Oh my god…” Henry exclaimed, crying harder and Sungmin felt his mind was blank and his body went numb.
Kyu…
“He’s stable now but, earlier he was losing so many bloods and he almost couldn’t survive from the accident. But I believe, because of his strong will to live, he managed to fight for his life. However, he’s still unconscious and needed to be in the Intensive Care Unit for the mean time.”
“When can we meet them?’ Henry quickly asked.
“You can meet the managers, driver, Park Jungsu-ssi, Shin Donghee-ssi and Lee Hyukjae-ssi now, but as for Cho Kyuhyun-ssi, we needed to give him some rest for now.”
“Th-Thank you, doctor…” their manager said and the doctor nodded and left.
“Have you called their families?”
“Yeah… Kyuhyun’s family is on their way right now….” The manager sighed in frustration before he slumped onto the chair.
Sungmin stared at nothingness; his whole world was crumbling down.
--
Sungmin sat beside the bed where Kyuhyun was. He gripped the younger male’s hand and kissed his knuckles, please get better…
It had been two weeks after the accident and Kyuhyun had been transferred from the ICU to a regular hospital room. Kyuhyun also did not need the respiratory machine anymore to support his breathing, but still he needed support for walking. It was really, really hard at the few days after the accident. Kyuhyun’s state was really bad and he was slipping in and out of consciousness and was mute due to shock. It broke his heart - and other members - to see their dear maknae looking so frail like this.
Sniffing, a single tear rolled down Sungmin’s cheek and fell on top of Kyuhyun’s knuckles. He gripped the frail hand tighter -- but not tight enough to hurt the male - and continued to cry silently. If he had the power, he would trade place with Kyuhyun right now. Kyuhyun didn’t deserve to be like this, to lie down on the hospital bed, unconscious and hurt. He’s such a sweet kid, a bit snarky, but sweet nonetheless, one of the reasons why Sungmin loved him.
What’s more, I still didn’t say how much I love you…
“Sungmin-ssi?”
Hastily wiping his tears, Sungmin let go of Kyuhyun’s hand and looked at the female figure at the door. The female, Cho Ahra, Kyuhyun’s sister was smiling softly at him and Sungmin weakly smiled back. He stood up when Ahra entered the room and walked towards Kyuhyun bed. He watched as the female brushed Kyuhyun’s bangs (it had grown quite long, Sungmin noted) and stroked his cheek.
“Yah, you’d better get better real quick. Everyone here is worried sick because of you, idiot,” the female reprimanded slowly, a soft smile tugged on her lips. Sungmin smiled at the scene in front of him, Kyuhyun was such a lucky person. He has so many people love him, his family, his friends, his fans. They were all praying for Kyuhyun to get better and sing and dance again.
“You must be tired, Sungmin-ssi. It’s okay, I’ll take it from here,” Ahra said as she turned and look at him. Sungmin hesitated for a moment before he sighed softly. He really needed some rest. After the accident, he and Ryeowook had to momentarily replace Eunhyuk and Leeteuk at Sukira.
I have to be healthy to take care of him… He silently thought as he eyed the unconscious Kyuhyun. Bowing slightly at Ahra who bowed back, he gripped Kyuhyun’s frail fingers lightly before stepping out of the room.
--
The next time Sungmin visited Kyuhyun was with the Kangin and Ryeowook and Kyuhyun was sitting on the bed, staring at nothingness. It was when Sungmin waved his hand in front of the younger male that Kyuhyun noticed their presence. Sungmin’s heart flutters when Kyuhyun managed to give them a weak smile as a sign that he was really grateful at them for visiting.
“….How are you, Kyuhyun-ah…?” Kangin asked and no matter how sullen the atmosphere in the room, Kyuhyun managed to snort and rolled his eyes before he scanned the table beside him. Knowing what the maknae want, Sungmin quickly took out a notepad and a pen for the maknae.
Kangin scoffed, his eyes were puffy, “Yah, how could you say that? You know ho--” Kangin cleared his throat, “How worried we were…?”
Kyuhyun smiled softly before beckoning the older male to come at him. Kangin rolled his eyes, but come to Kyuhyun nevertheless. “Wh--”
Kangin was startled when Kyuhyun pulled him into a hug. He panicked for a moment, afraid if he would hurt the maknae. Clearing his throat awkwardly, Kangin finally hugged him back, by just placing his palm at Kyuhyun’s back, frowning at how small the younger was in his arms.
Then he felt Kyuhyun scribbled something before he pulled back and gave him the notepad, the writing was messy because Kyuhyun was too weak to even hold a pen.
Kangin’s eyes started to water again and he nodded, “Get well, brat.”
Kyuhyun smiled and nodded and the members frowned at how Kyuhyun’s head lolled slightly.
“Kyu…?” Ryeowook asked softly and went to the maknae. “Kyu, are you okay?”
Kyuhyun nodded and smiled, but still his eyes started get droopy and his body swayed at the side. He almost fell, but Sungmin caught him in time.
“Kyuhyun-ah, are you okay?” Sungmin asked, alarm.
Kyuhyun tried to nod but his vision started to get blurry and his head was spinning like crazy. He heard the members were asking him if he’s okay, but the voices turned into mush and he couldn’t make out what was happening around him.
Stop…
His head was hurting and he felt like the noises around him were buzzing like a fly. Too noisy, make it stop.
Next thing he saw was blackness.
--
The next time Kyuhyun woke up, he saw Heechul and Yesung by the side of his bed but he was too weak to greet them. Heechul was reading some magazine while Yesung was sitting at another chair behind him, dozing off. Kyuhyun tried to frown at the puffiness of Heechul’s eyes, but it was too painful to do it.
Heechul’s head snapped to the maknae when he heard a groan. He quickly inspected the maknae if he was hurting. Finding none, he sighed in relief before flopping back on his chair.
“….How are you, maknae-ah…”Heechul asked softly as he brushed the bangs off Kyuhyun’s eyes. Receiving a very, very slight nod as a response, Heechul’s heart tightened at the fact the maknae was mute due to the shock. If Kyuhyun was having a normal fever, he would retorted back a ‘Oh, I’m feeling healthy, Heechul hyung.’
Without realizing it, Heechul’s eyes started to water and the diva quickly wiped his eyes. He jumped slightly when Yesung touched his shoulder and smiled sleepily at him.
“Hey, Kyu,” Yesung smiled at him and Kyuhyun stretch a weak smile as the older male yawned. He felt guilty for having his hyungs come here every night in rotate. He knew his parents and sister were there to take care of him and he also knew about his hyungs’ persistent in visiting him. And most importantly, he knew how tired his hyungs are. Sometimes, when Kyuhyun was awake and his hyungs were not there because of schedule, his sister would turn on the radio and let him listen to Sukira so that he would feel as if his hyungs were there with him. It felt good and he felt strangely calm, but he couldn’t help but frown at how tired his hyungs sound during Sukira.
“Yah, get better soon, understand?” Heechul said sharply, but his voice wavered. Kyuhyun smiled and nodded before he reached and stroked underneath Heechul’s puffy eyes. He locked eyes with Heechul and tried to show the older male he’s sorry and Heechul nodded, understanding the look.
“You’d better be, kid…” Heechul choked out, “Get better soon, Kyuhyun-ah… Everyone misses you…”
“Yeah, Ddangkoma misses you too!” Yesung tried to crack a joke, and managed to make Kyuhyun somewhat grinned but the older male was still sad. He rubbed small circle on Kyuhyun’s hand with his thumb, “Get well, maknae-ah… Everyone really, really misses you…”
Kyuhyun painfully smiled back, trying to hide his thoughts.
Not everyone missed me hyungs…
--
A week later, Leeteuk, Shindong, Hankyung and Siwon came to visit Kyuhyun and the maknae frowned at Leeteuk and Shindong.
“Hey, Kyu…” Leeteuk smiled and Kyuhyun noticed the weakness in the elder’s smile. He nodded slightly at the four of them before returning his gaze to his lap.
“Kyuhyun-ah, what’s wrong?” Hankyung asked and Kyuhyun slowly raised his eyes so that he could look at the older male properly. He felt guilt washed all over him again when he saw the elder’s eyes were puffy. He looked at Leeteuk and saw the elder male smiled apologetically at him. Kyuhyun nodded slightly, showing that he understands the leader.
“Kyu-ah, why won’t you talk to me?”
Kyuhyun’s heart ached. He knew the other members didn’t tell Hankyung yet that he’s mute and he had reminded them not to, considering how hysteric the older male would be. He himself went out of control when he found that he was mute due to the shock.
Kyuhyun opened his eyes slowly and winced when the light pierced painfully into his eyes, at least he tried to wince but no sound came out from his mouth. Shrugging it off, he blinked his eyes to adjust his sight with light, and then opened them again slowly and the first person he saw was his mother.
“K-Kyu? Kyuhyun-ah! Oh my god! You’re awake!” his mother exclaimed, tears of happiness rolled down her cheeks as she continuously thanking the God. He then saw his father and sister at his side and he heard the door was slammed open and Sungmin, Ryeowook and Siwon entering the room with the same look on his family’s face.
Mom… Kyuhyun tried to speak, but finding it was really hard to do so. He tried opened his mouth, but no sound coming from his mouth. He frowned, so did everyone in this room.
“Kyu, what’s wrong? What’s wrong, honey?” his mother asked, alarmed.
Mom… Kyuhyun tried again and his frown deepened when he felt like his throat was stabbed by multiple pins.
“Oh my god, call the doctor!! Hurry!!”
--
“He couldn’t speak,” the doctor stated, his voice calm but his brows furrowed slightly.
“Wh…What? Why?” his father asked and his mother cried into Ahra’s arms while Sungmin, Siwon and Ryeowook stood there, speechless.
The doctor sigh, “Apparently, he went mute due to the shock because of the accident.”
“Is it… Permanent?” Ahra asked.
The doctor licked his lips, “Well… In some cases, the mute would be permanent, but with some therapy and support from his family and friends, he could speak again. However, it would take some times considering the accident was really serious and he’s the most injured. We could only try and hope for the best.”
A moment later, they all went inside his room and his mother shook her head, “I can’t do this,” before leaving the room.
Kyuhyun tilted his head, what’s wrong?
Sungmin sighed and nodded at Kyuhyun’s father, “I’ll take it from here, uncle.”
His father nodded, “I’ll go check on his mother…” He looked at Kyuhyun and smiled briefly (painfully) at his son before leaving the room.
Sungmin bit his lips guiltily when Kyuhyun looked at him with confusion all over his pale face. He needed to tell the maknae the truth.
“Kyuhyun-ah…” he started as he went to the maknae and stood beside his bed. “Listen to me, okay?”
Sungmin took Kyuhyun’s frail hand and held them in his hands, “I…” Sungmin took a deep breath, “You can’t speak for now, Kyu.”
Kyuhyun frowned, more confused and he tilted his head to the side as a sign ‘Why?’
Sungmin licked his lips, clearly nervous, “You went mute because of the accident.”
Wha-
“You couldn’t speak for now and--”
Before Sungmin could finish, Kyuhyun jerked his hand from Sungmin’s grasp, startling the older male and everyone in the room.
“Kyu--”
Bullshit! Kyuhyun wanted to scream but instead, but no noise came out from his mouth. Frustrated, he yanked the tubes that were attached to all over his body and jumped off his bed, backing off from everyone.
“Kyu, stop!” Ahra gasped.
Bullshit all this!! I don’t want to believe this! Kyuhyun tried to speak but again no noise came out from his mouth. He shook his head and tried to say anything but there’s nothing, not even the slightest sound escaped his mouth.
“Kyuhyun-ah…” Ryeowook pleaded for the maknae to calm down, tears rolling down his cheeks.
Kyuhyun shook his head and tried to speak again, his face also wet with tears. He ignored the painful feelings at his throat and continued to speak. He cried harder when no sounds coming from his mouth.
“Kyuhyun-ah…” Sungmin tried to persuade him from across the bed. He shook his head and tried to form at least one word, but still he heard nothing coming out from his mouth. Siwon quickly lunged towards him and pulled him into his strong embrace. Kyuhyun tried to struggle and started, tried to scream to just let me go, dammit! But no sound escaped his mouth because he’s mute and Ryeowook cried harder.
I want to sing, that’s what he tried to say all the time.
“Kyu? What’s wrong?” Hankyung’s question jolted him out of his reverie. Kyuhyun looked at the Chinese male before glancing at the notepad and pen in his hands.
“Kyu--” Hankyung was cut off when he saw Kyuhyun started to cry silently. He tried to calm the younger male down when Kyuhyun gave him the notepad.
“Wh…” Hankyung felt numb and he fell on to the chair while Kyuhyun continued to cry silently. Closing his eyes as tears pricking his eyes, his sigh coming out in shudder. He opened them back and his heart churned at how vulnerable the maknae look.
No, I can’t cry…
He stood up and scooped the younger male into his arms, “Oh Kyu…. I’m so sorry….It’s okay sweetheart… No matter what, we’re here for you…”
Kyuhyun cried harder.
Not everyone though….
--
The next member to visit Kyuhyun was surprisingly, Eunhyuk. Why, why of all people!?
Kyuhyun was actually awake, until he heard Eunhyuk’s voice outside, talking to the nurse who just done doing a checkups on Kyuhyun. The maknae quickly lied down on the bed, pretending to be sleeping. His heart started to beat like crazy when he heard the door being opened and the older male stepped into the room, the shuffling of his shoes made Kyuhyun squirm and shivered in fear.
Eunhyuk stood beside his bed and Kyuhyun was relief he was back-facing the older male or else… Kyuhyun didn’t want to even think about the consequences. He shut his eyes and all his senses and forced himself to just to fall asleep, but the sigh coming from Eunhyuk made it harder because curiosity started to grow in him.
Why? Does he felt it was troublesome for visiting me?
Kyuhyun started to feel sad at the thought and he unconsciously gripped his pillow tighter.
Eunhyuk stared at the sleeping figure in front of him. He leaned against the chair and sighed for the umpteenth time, remembering what Sungmin told him the first time the older male visited him.
Eunhyuk was having a great time at the hospital because all the members were visiting him, except for Hankyung (because he didn’t want to. I’ll cry, he said), Siwon, Sungmin, Ryeowook and obviously, Kyuhyun. It had been a few days and today was the first day the members could visit him because they were all busy with the sudden change of schedule after the accident.
Eunhyuk grinned as Kibum feed him a slice of apple, making Heechul making a disgusted face, “I shouldn’t have come, you guys make me sick.”
Eunhyuk laughed, “Oh come on, hyung. I’m injured; you should’ve taken care of me.”
Heechul rolled his eyes, “Oh come on, brat. You have your dear Kibummie over here treating you like a princess--”
“-Prince, hyung.”
“-eh, whatever. The point is, you’re very well taken care of.”
Eunhyuk grinned as he opened his mouth for another slice of apple from his boyfriend. Kibum giggled as he continued to feed Eunhyuk, making the members groaned at the sickeningly sweet scene.
“Oh god, I think I’m having a toothache,” Leeteuk complained and covered his face with his hands. They were all laughing, until Ryeowook, Sungmin and Siwon entered the room.
“Oh, what’s up?!” Eunhyuk greeted the trio in English, grinning and waving, and he stopped abruptly when he saw Ryeowook was crying, Siwon seemed in trance and Sungmin glared at him.
Eunhyuk scoffed, “Yah, what’s wrong, guys? It’s not like I’m dead!” the members snorted and chuckled at the statement, but the trio was unfazed by it.
“So, you only think about yourself? You think this is funny?” Sungmin snarled at him, making the room fell silence instantly. Eunhyuk frowned, “Yah, what the hell is wrong with you? I’m the one who’s injured and lying on this goddamn bed, and the least you could do is ask me if I was okay and all you did is snarled at me!!?”
“What?” Sungmin scoffed before he laughed bitterly. “So, you think everyone needed to be worry about you!? You know what, for me, what happened to you is just a scratch. I…” Sungmin took a shuddering breathe, “I even wished that Kyuhyun is in your position!!”
“Wh… What?” Eunhyuk clenched his jaw.
“Sungmin-ah! What are you talking about!?” Leeteuk reprimanded the pink-lover male.
“We just visited Kyuhyun…” Siwon finally spoke and Ryeowook broke down into sobs and Kibum quickly scooped him into his arms and coaxing him.
“You think your injuries were serious? Then, let me tell you about what happened to Kyuhyun,” Sungmin started as his eyes fixated on Eunhyuk whose eyes twitched visibly at the mention of the maknae.
“He has a broken foot, fractured hip, broken ribs, and facial scratches and bruises. The fractured hip is bleeding and his broken ribs have come down on his lungs. Kyuhyun has to rely on CPR machine because he's suffering from a fucking pneumothorax and had difficulties breathing. And he had a fucking tube inserted into his lungs so that he could breathe. He was slipping in an out of consciousness and needed to have operation immediately but his chest was seriously injured, so he cannot have it. And you think you’re the one who needed to be taken care of?”
Sungmin tried to control his breathing because he felt like crying when he described what exactly happened to the poor maknae. He heard Ryeowook had cry harder and joined by Kibum and Shindong. He heard Siwon told him to stop because Leeteuk and Eunhyuk were still healing and they don’t need to hear all this.
Maybe not Leeteuk, but Eunhyuk? Yes, he needed to know.
“…We, knew about this, Sungmin…” Leeteuk spoke out, his voice wavering and a single tear rolled down his cheek which he wiped instantly. Yes, they knew, but it hurts more to hear in a very detailed description.
“You wanna know more?” Sungmin dared everyone - when he actually dared Eunhyuk - and Ryeowook choked out, “Hyung… Please, no….”
“Kyuhyun…. Kyuhyun, our maknae…” Sungmin gritted his teeth. “Kyuhyun….” A single tear rolled down his cheek, “Kyuhyun… He went mute because of the shock. And you, here, laughing your ass off and you said you’re the one who needed to be taken care of?”
Eunhyuk’s eyes widen, and so does the members in the room. Ryeowook cried harder and Kibum stared at Sungmin in horror while Siwon shut his eyes in pain as tears started roll down his cheeks.
“Kyuhyun, our maknae… Couldn’t even speak because of the shock and you’re here talking about how I should ask you if you’re okay,” Sungmin continued as tears flow abundantly from his eyes, but his face remained impassive.
“You know how hurt we were when we visited him? He didn’t even know he couldn’t speak and he kept opening his mouth at us, tried to yell at us, tried to say something at us but he couldn’t! You know why!? Because he’s goddamn mute!!!” Sungmin closed his eyes tightly before let out a shuddering breathe, “And you’re here, happily said ‘Hey, I’m not dead!’. He loves to sing, Eunhyuk-ah. Singing is his life! And he’s mute and the doctor said it could be permanent!! You know how that feels like? Remember when you told me that dancing is your life and you’re going to die in vain without it? That’s the exact thing that happened to Kyuhyun!!”
Sungmin started to sobbed and he fell on his knees, “You know how hurt I was to see him like that? His mouth was wide open and he tried to screamed, tried to say something at me but I didn’t understand what he’s trying to say at all! To see he looked so hopeless like that? He looked so… So… Sad…” Sungmin cried harder and started hitting his chest with his fist, “My heart ached so much seeing him looking so lost and pitiful when he found that he couldn’t speak, couldn’t sing! He yelled at us with tears flowing on his pale face, again and again even though he knew no sounds were coming out from his mouth like… Like he was telling us that he needed a help because he wanted to sing!”
The members started to cry silently, grieving for the poor maknae and Eunhyuk could only stare, eyes wide with horror.
--
He had heard from the members who had visited Kyuhyun at how frail and sick Kyuhyun was and Eunhyuk really, really wanted to see it for himself, but he hesitated, not sure if visiting the maknae is a good idea. The two of them couldn’t even stay in the same room for more than a minute because Kyuhyun would run out the room, run from him.
He wanted to visit the maknae, but he’s afraid he’ll hurt him more.
Eunhyuk sighed again and massaged his temple as he fixed his gaze towards Kyuhyun who’s back-facing him. He felt his heart breaking to see how small the maknae look in front of him.
“Hyukkie hyung?” Eunhyuk’s head snapped towards the door and his eyes widen at the sight of Kibum, who’s probably just finished shooting. He stood up and Kibum quickly went towards him and hugged him.
“Why are you here?” Eunhyuk asked as he pulled away from Kibum.
“I’m here to visit Kyu…” Kibum sighed as he leaned his head on Eunhyuk’s shoulder and stared at Kyuhyun’s back. “Oh god, look at him… So fragile and weak… I wish I could change everything…”
“But we don’t have the power,” Eunhyuk whispered into Kibum’s hair and the younger male sighed at the affection.
“Hey…” Donghae entered the room, “Am I interrupting something?”
Kibum laughed heartedly, “No, hyung. Of course not,” and he beckoned the older male to come in. Donghae entered the room, hesitantly glancing at sleeping Kyuhyun and he instantly bit his lips guiltily for visiting the maknae now. He had been itching to visit the maknae, to see how the maknae was, but he was too busy with schedule and the managers had prepared a schedule for their visiting time because they didn’t want to cause a ruckus at Kyuhyun’s room (because he really, really needed some rest) and Donghae, Kibum and Eunhyuk’s turn was the last.
He stared at the maknae’s back as he encircles his left arm around Kibum’s waist. He gripped the hold on Kibum’s waist a bit tighter to prevent himself from jumping on to the bed and hug the maknae because one, that would hurt Kyuhyun more because God, he looked so fragile and second, that won’t be good for his relationship with Kibum.
Kyuhyun on the other hand felt so many emotions in his head. He felt anger and wanted to just stand up and throw everything towards the trio and says ‘Get the hell out!’, he felt sadness and wanted to just cry and sobbed uncontrollably and wished for Sungmin, Ryeowook or Leeteuk to come here and hug him, he felt disappointed and wanted to just jumped off the building and end his life so that he won’t have to live with this pained emotion anymore.
When he heard Kibum sighing as Donghae nuzzled his neck, Kyuhyun chose to do all three.
He clenched his hands tightly and gets up from his position, glaring at the startled trio.
“K-Kyu?” Kibum said, alarmed.
Kyuhyun kept his gaze steady on the trip in front of him before he quickly grabbed his notepad and pen. The trio watched as Kyuhyun hastily scribbled something on the notepad before he ripped of the paper, scrunched it and threw it to them, or more, towards Kibum.
Kibum quickly opened the scrunched paper and they frowned at the note that was written in a messy handwriting,
“Wait, Kyu. We--- Ahhh!!!” Kibum yelled in surprise when Kyuhyun suddenly grabbed the nearest vase and threw it at them.
“Kibum-ah!!” Eunhyuk yelled in alarm, he and Donghae quickly inspected their lover and the dancer frowned when he saw Kibum’s arm was cut and bleeding. Eunhyuk glared at Kyuhyun while Kibum started crying and Donghae coaxing him, “What the fuck, Kyuhyun!! This is how you treat your hyungs!!??”
Eunhyuk was caught on guard for a moment when Kyuhyun continuously threw scrunched paper at them, “Kyu!! What the f--” Eunhyuk stopped abruptly when he saw Kyuhyun cried, tears flowing abundantly from his soft brown eyes but no sounds escaped his mouth, only sniffles. He saw Kyuhyun cried while hastily scribbling something on the notepad and ripped it off before throwing it at them, again and again.
Donghae picked up each one of the papers with Eunhyuk, reading every single one of them.
Kibum cried harder, not because of the cut, but because of the notes, “Oh god… Kyuhyun-ah…”
Kyuhyun shook his head, trying to say something before he continued to scribble on to the notepad,
“Kyu?” Sungmin’s voice jolted Kyuhyun from his doings and the maknae looked at his hyung with pleading eyes before the soft chocolate brown eyes closed slowly and his body swayed to the side. Alarmed by the maknae sudden blackout, Sungmin quickly rushed towards the maknae and caught him in time.
“Oh god, Kyuhyun-ah!! Kyuhyun-ah!!” Sungmin slapped the maknae’s cheek lightly trying to wake him up when he found something was scribbled on the notepad in Kyuhyun’s hand. He removed the notepad from Kyuhyun’s grasp and read the note.
Clenching the notepad, he adjusted Kyuhyun so that the younger male lied down properly on his bed. He draped the blanket across the unconscious male body when he heard Kibum spoke out.
“H-Hyung… K-Kyu…” his voice was cracked and Sungmin sighed.
“I suggest you get out now.”
Eunhyuk narrowed his eyes (Sungmin could feel it), “What? We’re not at fault over here! He’s the one who suddenly snapped and threw a fucking vase to Kibum--”
“Get the fuck out,” Sungmin glared at the trio, making Donghae and Kibum flinched visibly while Eunhyuk’s frown deepened. Kibum bit his lips guiltily and tugged Donghae and Eunhyuk to exit the room which the two older males obeyed mutely.
“And also, call the doctor on your way out,” Sungmin said, back-facing the trio. He felt bad not mentioning about Kibum’s cut (because it does look hurt) but to compare what happened to Kyuhyun, that’s just like being scratch by a kitten.
Kibum stared at Sungmin’s back before nodded though the older male couldn’t see it, “…Okay… And, uh… Call us if anything happen…”
Sungmin ignored them as he continued adjusting Kyuhyun’s pillow and blanket and when he heard the door slammed, he let out a sigh that he didn’t know he was holding. He looked at the unconscious Kyuhyun pitifully before he lightly brushed away Kyuhyun’s bangs from his forehead before placing a soft kiss on to the slightly scarred skin.
I’ll protect you, Kyuhyun-ah…
Author: imaginarybulb
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun/?, Eunhyuk/Kibum/Donghae, Kyuhyun/Sungmin, Kangin/Leeteuk, Hankyung/Heechul, parings may come and go
Summary: It had always been the three of them. Everyone knew that, so does Kyuhyun. Especially Kyuhyun. But still, Kyuhyun succumbed into their world.
Sungmin was running.
If people saw him, they’ll think he was running for his life.
But no, Sungmin wasn’t running for his life. He was running for someone else’s life.
His beloved’s life.
“I’ll be okay, hyung… Thanks for waking me up,” Kyuhyun said gratefully before hugging Sungmin, catching the elder off guard.
Sungmin clenched his jaw as tears pricking in his eyes. He fastened his steps, ignoring the sore feelings of his feet running from the dorm all the way to the hospital. Henry called him right after he left the dorm, crying while informing him where was the hospital they were admitted.
You know, when someone’s acting weird one day, sometimes it meant that they’re going to die…
Sungmin closed his eyes, pushing away the thought from his memories, the words his high school mate once told him.
No, Kyuhyun… You can’t…. Kyuhyun-ah….
Sungmin ran through the corridors, searching for Henry. He halted his steps when he saw Henry sitting on the waiting chair while crying with one of the manager beside him.
“Henli-ah!”
Henry’s head snapped towards the older male and the Chinese male started to cry more. Sungmin rushed towards him and Henry threw himself into Sungmin’s embrace.
“Sungmin gege…. Wh-What should we do….? I’m afraid….” Henry sobbed into the older male’s shirt and Sungmin coaxed him, telling him it’ll be all right.
But his hands were trembling and he felt like he’s assuring himself more than Henry.
“Doctor!” their manager exclaimed, standing up instantly and went towards a male doctor.
“Doctor, how are they?” Sungmin asked, scared and worried.
The doctor sighed, “Thank God, they all survive from the serious accident. The two managers, the driver, Park Jungsu-ssi, Shin Donghee-ssi and Lee Hyukjae-ssi are all suffering from minor injuries. However, as for Cho Kyuhyun-ssi….” The doctor bit his lips, “He was sitting behind the driver's seat when the accident occurred and was the most injured and had a fractured hip, pneumothorax from broken ribs, and facial scratches and bruises.”
“Oh my god…” Henry exclaimed, crying harder and Sungmin felt his mind was blank and his body went numb.
Kyu…
“He’s stable now but, earlier he was losing so many bloods and he almost couldn’t survive from the accident. But I believe, because of his strong will to live, he managed to fight for his life. However, he’s still unconscious and needed to be in the Intensive Care Unit for the mean time.”
“When can we meet them?’ Henry quickly asked.
“You can meet the managers, driver, Park Jungsu-ssi, Shin Donghee-ssi and Lee Hyukjae-ssi now, but as for Cho Kyuhyun-ssi, we needed to give him some rest for now.”
“Th-Thank you, doctor…” their manager said and the doctor nodded and left.
“Have you called their families?”
“Yeah… Kyuhyun’s family is on their way right now….” The manager sighed in frustration before he slumped onto the chair.
Sungmin stared at nothingness; his whole world was crumbling down.
--
Sungmin sat beside the bed where Kyuhyun was. He gripped the younger male’s hand and kissed his knuckles, please get better…
It had been two weeks after the accident and Kyuhyun had been transferred from the ICU to a regular hospital room. Kyuhyun also did not need the respiratory machine anymore to support his breathing, but still he needed support for walking. It was really, really hard at the few days after the accident. Kyuhyun’s state was really bad and he was slipping in and out of consciousness and was mute due to shock. It broke his heart - and other members - to see their dear maknae looking so frail like this.
Sniffing, a single tear rolled down Sungmin’s cheek and fell on top of Kyuhyun’s knuckles. He gripped the frail hand tighter -- but not tight enough to hurt the male - and continued to cry silently. If he had the power, he would trade place with Kyuhyun right now. Kyuhyun didn’t deserve to be like this, to lie down on the hospital bed, unconscious and hurt. He’s such a sweet kid, a bit snarky, but sweet nonetheless, one of the reasons why Sungmin loved him.
What’s more, I still didn’t say how much I love you…
“Sungmin-ssi?”
Hastily wiping his tears, Sungmin let go of Kyuhyun’s hand and looked at the female figure at the door. The female, Cho Ahra, Kyuhyun’s sister was smiling softly at him and Sungmin weakly smiled back. He stood up when Ahra entered the room and walked towards Kyuhyun bed. He watched as the female brushed Kyuhyun’s bangs (it had grown quite long, Sungmin noted) and stroked his cheek.
“Yah, you’d better get better real quick. Everyone here is worried sick because of you, idiot,” the female reprimanded slowly, a soft smile tugged on her lips. Sungmin smiled at the scene in front of him, Kyuhyun was such a lucky person. He has so many people love him, his family, his friends, his fans. They were all praying for Kyuhyun to get better and sing and dance again.
“You must be tired, Sungmin-ssi. It’s okay, I’ll take it from here,” Ahra said as she turned and look at him. Sungmin hesitated for a moment before he sighed softly. He really needed some rest. After the accident, he and Ryeowook had to momentarily replace Eunhyuk and Leeteuk at Sukira.
I have to be healthy to take care of him… He silently thought as he eyed the unconscious Kyuhyun. Bowing slightly at Ahra who bowed back, he gripped Kyuhyun’s frail fingers lightly before stepping out of the room.
--
The next time Sungmin visited Kyuhyun was with the Kangin and Ryeowook and Kyuhyun was sitting on the bed, staring at nothingness. It was when Sungmin waved his hand in front of the younger male that Kyuhyun noticed their presence. Sungmin’s heart flutters when Kyuhyun managed to give them a weak smile as a sign that he was really grateful at them for visiting.
“….How are you, Kyuhyun-ah…?” Kangin asked and no matter how sullen the atmosphere in the room, Kyuhyun managed to snort and rolled his eyes before he scanned the table beside him. Knowing what the maknae want, Sungmin quickly took out a notepad and a pen for the maknae.
Kangin scoffed, his eyes were puffy, “Yah, how could you say that? You know ho--” Kangin cleared his throat, “How worried we were…?”
Kyuhyun smiled softly before beckoning the older male to come at him. Kangin rolled his eyes, but come to Kyuhyun nevertheless. “Wh--”
Kangin was startled when Kyuhyun pulled him into a hug. He panicked for a moment, afraid if he would hurt the maknae. Clearing his throat awkwardly, Kangin finally hugged him back, by just placing his palm at Kyuhyun’s back, frowning at how small the younger was in his arms.
Then he felt Kyuhyun scribbled something before he pulled back and gave him the notepad, the writing was messy because Kyuhyun was too weak to even hold a pen.
Kangin’s eyes started to water again and he nodded, “Get well, brat.”
Kyuhyun smiled and nodded and the members frowned at how Kyuhyun’s head lolled slightly.
“Kyu…?” Ryeowook asked softly and went to the maknae. “Kyu, are you okay?”
Kyuhyun nodded and smiled, but still his eyes started get droopy and his body swayed at the side. He almost fell, but Sungmin caught him in time.
“Kyuhyun-ah, are you okay?” Sungmin asked, alarm.
Kyuhyun tried to nod but his vision started to get blurry and his head was spinning like crazy. He heard the members were asking him if he’s okay, but the voices turned into mush and he couldn’t make out what was happening around him.
Stop…
His head was hurting and he felt like the noises around him were buzzing like a fly. Too noisy, make it stop.
Next thing he saw was blackness.
--
The next time Kyuhyun woke up, he saw Heechul and Yesung by the side of his bed but he was too weak to greet them. Heechul was reading some magazine while Yesung was sitting at another chair behind him, dozing off. Kyuhyun tried to frown at the puffiness of Heechul’s eyes, but it was too painful to do it.
Heechul’s head snapped to the maknae when he heard a groan. He quickly inspected the maknae if he was hurting. Finding none, he sighed in relief before flopping back on his chair.
“….How are you, maknae-ah…”Heechul asked softly as he brushed the bangs off Kyuhyun’s eyes. Receiving a very, very slight nod as a response, Heechul’s heart tightened at the fact the maknae was mute due to the shock. If Kyuhyun was having a normal fever, he would retorted back a ‘Oh, I’m feeling healthy, Heechul hyung.’
Without realizing it, Heechul’s eyes started to water and the diva quickly wiped his eyes. He jumped slightly when Yesung touched his shoulder and smiled sleepily at him.
“Hey, Kyu,” Yesung smiled at him and Kyuhyun stretch a weak smile as the older male yawned. He felt guilty for having his hyungs come here every night in rotate. He knew his parents and sister were there to take care of him and he also knew about his hyungs’ persistent in visiting him. And most importantly, he knew how tired his hyungs are. Sometimes, when Kyuhyun was awake and his hyungs were not there because of schedule, his sister would turn on the radio and let him listen to Sukira so that he would feel as if his hyungs were there with him. It felt good and he felt strangely calm, but he couldn’t help but frown at how tired his hyungs sound during Sukira.
“Yah, get better soon, understand?” Heechul said sharply, but his voice wavered. Kyuhyun smiled and nodded before he reached and stroked underneath Heechul’s puffy eyes. He locked eyes with Heechul and tried to show the older male he’s sorry and Heechul nodded, understanding the look.
“You’d better be, kid…” Heechul choked out, “Get better soon, Kyuhyun-ah… Everyone misses you…”
“Yeah, Ddangkoma misses you too!” Yesung tried to crack a joke, and managed to make Kyuhyun somewhat grinned but the older male was still sad. He rubbed small circle on Kyuhyun’s hand with his thumb, “Get well, maknae-ah… Everyone really, really misses you…”
Kyuhyun painfully smiled back, trying to hide his thoughts.
Not everyone missed me hyungs…
--
A week later, Leeteuk, Shindong, Hankyung and Siwon came to visit Kyuhyun and the maknae frowned at Leeteuk and Shindong.
“Hey, Kyu…” Leeteuk smiled and Kyuhyun noticed the weakness in the elder’s smile. He nodded slightly at the four of them before returning his gaze to his lap.
“Kyuhyun-ah, what’s wrong?” Hankyung asked and Kyuhyun slowly raised his eyes so that he could look at the older male properly. He felt guilt washed all over him again when he saw the elder’s eyes were puffy. He looked at Leeteuk and saw the elder male smiled apologetically at him. Kyuhyun nodded slightly, showing that he understands the leader.
“Kyu-ah, why won’t you talk to me?”
Kyuhyun’s heart ached. He knew the other members didn’t tell Hankyung yet that he’s mute and he had reminded them not to, considering how hysteric the older male would be. He himself went out of control when he found that he was mute due to the shock.
Kyuhyun opened his eyes slowly and winced when the light pierced painfully into his eyes, at least he tried to wince but no sound came out from his mouth. Shrugging it off, he blinked his eyes to adjust his sight with light, and then opened them again slowly and the first person he saw was his mother.
“K-Kyu? Kyuhyun-ah! Oh my god! You’re awake!” his mother exclaimed, tears of happiness rolled down her cheeks as she continuously thanking the God. He then saw his father and sister at his side and he heard the door was slammed open and Sungmin, Ryeowook and Siwon entering the room with the same look on his family’s face.
Mom… Kyuhyun tried to speak, but finding it was really hard to do so. He tried opened his mouth, but no sound coming from his mouth. He frowned, so did everyone in this room.
“Kyu, what’s wrong? What’s wrong, honey?” his mother asked, alarmed.
Mom… Kyuhyun tried again and his frown deepened when he felt like his throat was stabbed by multiple pins.
“Oh my god, call the doctor!! Hurry!!”
--
“He couldn’t speak,” the doctor stated, his voice calm but his brows furrowed slightly.
“Wh…What? Why?” his father asked and his mother cried into Ahra’s arms while Sungmin, Siwon and Ryeowook stood there, speechless.
The doctor sigh, “Apparently, he went mute due to the shock because of the accident.”
“Is it… Permanent?” Ahra asked.
The doctor licked his lips, “Well… In some cases, the mute would be permanent, but with some therapy and support from his family and friends, he could speak again. However, it would take some times considering the accident was really serious and he’s the most injured. We could only try and hope for the best.”
A moment later, they all went inside his room and his mother shook her head, “I can’t do this,” before leaving the room.
Kyuhyun tilted his head, what’s wrong?
Sungmin sighed and nodded at Kyuhyun’s father, “I’ll take it from here, uncle.”
His father nodded, “I’ll go check on his mother…” He looked at Kyuhyun and smiled briefly (painfully) at his son before leaving the room.
Sungmin bit his lips guiltily when Kyuhyun looked at him with confusion all over his pale face. He needed to tell the maknae the truth.
“Kyuhyun-ah…” he started as he went to the maknae and stood beside his bed. “Listen to me, okay?”
Sungmin took Kyuhyun’s frail hand and held them in his hands, “I…” Sungmin took a deep breath, “You can’t speak for now, Kyu.”
Kyuhyun frowned, more confused and he tilted his head to the side as a sign ‘Why?’
Sungmin licked his lips, clearly nervous, “You went mute because of the accident.”
Wha-
“You couldn’t speak for now and--”
Before Sungmin could finish, Kyuhyun jerked his hand from Sungmin’s grasp, startling the older male and everyone in the room.
“Kyu--”
Bullshit! Kyuhyun wanted to scream but instead, but no noise came out from his mouth. Frustrated, he yanked the tubes that were attached to all over his body and jumped off his bed, backing off from everyone.
“Kyu, stop!” Ahra gasped.
Bullshit all this!! I don’t want to believe this! Kyuhyun tried to speak but again no noise came out from his mouth. He shook his head and tried to say anything but there’s nothing, not even the slightest sound escaped his mouth.
“Kyuhyun-ah…” Ryeowook pleaded for the maknae to calm down, tears rolling down his cheeks.
Kyuhyun shook his head and tried to speak again, his face also wet with tears. He ignored the painful feelings at his throat and continued to speak. He cried harder when no sounds coming from his mouth.
“Kyuhyun-ah…” Sungmin tried to persuade him from across the bed. He shook his head and tried to form at least one word, but still he heard nothing coming out from his mouth. Siwon quickly lunged towards him and pulled him into his strong embrace. Kyuhyun tried to struggle and started, tried to scream to just let me go, dammit! But no sound escaped his mouth because he’s mute and Ryeowook cried harder.
I want to sing, that’s what he tried to say all the time.
“Kyu? What’s wrong?” Hankyung’s question jolted him out of his reverie. Kyuhyun looked at the Chinese male before glancing at the notepad and pen in his hands.
“Kyu--” Hankyung was cut off when he saw Kyuhyun started to cry silently. He tried to calm the younger male down when Kyuhyun gave him the notepad.
“Wh…” Hankyung felt numb and he fell on to the chair while Kyuhyun continued to cry silently. Closing his eyes as tears pricking his eyes, his sigh coming out in shudder. He opened them back and his heart churned at how vulnerable the maknae look.
No, I can’t cry…
He stood up and scooped the younger male into his arms, “Oh Kyu…. I’m so sorry….It’s okay sweetheart… No matter what, we’re here for you…”
Kyuhyun cried harder.
Not everyone though….
--
The next member to visit Kyuhyun was surprisingly, Eunhyuk. Why, why of all people!?
Kyuhyun was actually awake, until he heard Eunhyuk’s voice outside, talking to the nurse who just done doing a checkups on Kyuhyun. The maknae quickly lied down on the bed, pretending to be sleeping. His heart started to beat like crazy when he heard the door being opened and the older male stepped into the room, the shuffling of his shoes made Kyuhyun squirm and shivered in fear.
Eunhyuk stood beside his bed and Kyuhyun was relief he was back-facing the older male or else… Kyuhyun didn’t want to even think about the consequences. He shut his eyes and all his senses and forced himself to just to fall asleep, but the sigh coming from Eunhyuk made it harder because curiosity started to grow in him.
Why? Does he felt it was troublesome for visiting me?
Kyuhyun started to feel sad at the thought and he unconsciously gripped his pillow tighter.
Eunhyuk stared at the sleeping figure in front of him. He leaned against the chair and sighed for the umpteenth time, remembering what Sungmin told him the first time the older male visited him.
Eunhyuk was having a great time at the hospital because all the members were visiting him, except for Hankyung (because he didn’t want to. I’ll cry, he said), Siwon, Sungmin, Ryeowook and obviously, Kyuhyun. It had been a few days and today was the first day the members could visit him because they were all busy with the sudden change of schedule after the accident.
Eunhyuk grinned as Kibum feed him a slice of apple, making Heechul making a disgusted face, “I shouldn’t have come, you guys make me sick.”
Eunhyuk laughed, “Oh come on, hyung. I’m injured; you should’ve taken care of me.”
Heechul rolled his eyes, “Oh come on, brat. You have your dear Kibummie over here treating you like a princess--”
“-Prince, hyung.”
“-eh, whatever. The point is, you’re very well taken care of.”
Eunhyuk grinned as he opened his mouth for another slice of apple from his boyfriend. Kibum giggled as he continued to feed Eunhyuk, making the members groaned at the sickeningly sweet scene.
“Oh god, I think I’m having a toothache,” Leeteuk complained and covered his face with his hands. They were all laughing, until Ryeowook, Sungmin and Siwon entered the room.
“Oh, what’s up?!” Eunhyuk greeted the trio in English, grinning and waving, and he stopped abruptly when he saw Ryeowook was crying, Siwon seemed in trance and Sungmin glared at him.
Eunhyuk scoffed, “Yah, what’s wrong, guys? It’s not like I’m dead!” the members snorted and chuckled at the statement, but the trio was unfazed by it.
“So, you only think about yourself? You think this is funny?” Sungmin snarled at him, making the room fell silence instantly. Eunhyuk frowned, “Yah, what the hell is wrong with you? I’m the one who’s injured and lying on this goddamn bed, and the least you could do is ask me if I was okay and all you did is snarled at me!!?”
“What?” Sungmin scoffed before he laughed bitterly. “So, you think everyone needed to be worry about you!? You know what, for me, what happened to you is just a scratch. I…” Sungmin took a shuddering breathe, “I even wished that Kyuhyun is in your position!!”
“Wh… What?” Eunhyuk clenched his jaw.
“Sungmin-ah! What are you talking about!?” Leeteuk reprimanded the pink-lover male.
“We just visited Kyuhyun…” Siwon finally spoke and Ryeowook broke down into sobs and Kibum quickly scooped him into his arms and coaxing him.
“You think your injuries were serious? Then, let me tell you about what happened to Kyuhyun,” Sungmin started as his eyes fixated on Eunhyuk whose eyes twitched visibly at the mention of the maknae.
“He has a broken foot, fractured hip, broken ribs, and facial scratches and bruises. The fractured hip is bleeding and his broken ribs have come down on his lungs. Kyuhyun has to rely on CPR machine because he's suffering from a fucking pneumothorax and had difficulties breathing. And he had a fucking tube inserted into his lungs so that he could breathe. He was slipping in an out of consciousness and needed to have operation immediately but his chest was seriously injured, so he cannot have it. And you think you’re the one who needed to be taken care of?”
Sungmin tried to control his breathing because he felt like crying when he described what exactly happened to the poor maknae. He heard Ryeowook had cry harder and joined by Kibum and Shindong. He heard Siwon told him to stop because Leeteuk and Eunhyuk were still healing and they don’t need to hear all this.
Maybe not Leeteuk, but Eunhyuk? Yes, he needed to know.
“…We, knew about this, Sungmin…” Leeteuk spoke out, his voice wavering and a single tear rolled down his cheek which he wiped instantly. Yes, they knew, but it hurts more to hear in a very detailed description.
“You wanna know more?” Sungmin dared everyone - when he actually dared Eunhyuk - and Ryeowook choked out, “Hyung… Please, no….”
“Kyuhyun…. Kyuhyun, our maknae…” Sungmin gritted his teeth. “Kyuhyun….” A single tear rolled down his cheek, “Kyuhyun… He went mute because of the shock. And you, here, laughing your ass off and you said you’re the one who needed to be taken care of?”
Eunhyuk’s eyes widen, and so does the members in the room. Ryeowook cried harder and Kibum stared at Sungmin in horror while Siwon shut his eyes in pain as tears started roll down his cheeks.
“Kyuhyun, our maknae… Couldn’t even speak because of the shock and you’re here talking about how I should ask you if you’re okay,” Sungmin continued as tears flow abundantly from his eyes, but his face remained impassive.
“You know how hurt we were when we visited him? He didn’t even know he couldn’t speak and he kept opening his mouth at us, tried to yell at us, tried to say something at us but he couldn’t! You know why!? Because he’s goddamn mute!!!” Sungmin closed his eyes tightly before let out a shuddering breathe, “And you’re here, happily said ‘Hey, I’m not dead!’. He loves to sing, Eunhyuk-ah. Singing is his life! And he’s mute and the doctor said it could be permanent!! You know how that feels like? Remember when you told me that dancing is your life and you’re going to die in vain without it? That’s the exact thing that happened to Kyuhyun!!”
Sungmin started to sobbed and he fell on his knees, “You know how hurt I was to see him like that? His mouth was wide open and he tried to screamed, tried to say something at me but I didn’t understand what he’s trying to say at all! To see he looked so hopeless like that? He looked so… So… Sad…” Sungmin cried harder and started hitting his chest with his fist, “My heart ached so much seeing him looking so lost and pitiful when he found that he couldn’t speak, couldn’t sing! He yelled at us with tears flowing on his pale face, again and again even though he knew no sounds were coming out from his mouth like… Like he was telling us that he needed a help because he wanted to sing!”
The members started to cry silently, grieving for the poor maknae and Eunhyuk could only stare, eyes wide with horror.
--
He had heard from the members who had visited Kyuhyun at how frail and sick Kyuhyun was and Eunhyuk really, really wanted to see it for himself, but he hesitated, not sure if visiting the maknae is a good idea. The two of them couldn’t even stay in the same room for more than a minute because Kyuhyun would run out the room, run from him.
He wanted to visit the maknae, but he’s afraid he’ll hurt him more.
Eunhyuk sighed again and massaged his temple as he fixed his gaze towards Kyuhyun who’s back-facing him. He felt his heart breaking to see how small the maknae look in front of him.
“Hyukkie hyung?” Eunhyuk’s head snapped towards the door and his eyes widen at the sight of Kibum, who’s probably just finished shooting. He stood up and Kibum quickly went towards him and hugged him.
“Why are you here?” Eunhyuk asked as he pulled away from Kibum.
“I’m here to visit Kyu…” Kibum sighed as he leaned his head on Eunhyuk’s shoulder and stared at Kyuhyun’s back. “Oh god, look at him… So fragile and weak… I wish I could change everything…”
“But we don’t have the power,” Eunhyuk whispered into Kibum’s hair and the younger male sighed at the affection.
“Hey…” Donghae entered the room, “Am I interrupting something?”
Kibum laughed heartedly, “No, hyung. Of course not,” and he beckoned the older male to come in. Donghae entered the room, hesitantly glancing at sleeping Kyuhyun and he instantly bit his lips guiltily for visiting the maknae now. He had been itching to visit the maknae, to see how the maknae was, but he was too busy with schedule and the managers had prepared a schedule for their visiting time because they didn’t want to cause a ruckus at Kyuhyun’s room (because he really, really needed some rest) and Donghae, Kibum and Eunhyuk’s turn was the last.
He stared at the maknae’s back as he encircles his left arm around Kibum’s waist. He gripped the hold on Kibum’s waist a bit tighter to prevent himself from jumping on to the bed and hug the maknae because one, that would hurt Kyuhyun more because God, he looked so fragile and second, that won’t be good for his relationship with Kibum.
Kyuhyun on the other hand felt so many emotions in his head. He felt anger and wanted to just stand up and throw everything towards the trio and says ‘Get the hell out!’, he felt sadness and wanted to just cry and sobbed uncontrollably and wished for Sungmin, Ryeowook or Leeteuk to come here and hug him, he felt disappointed and wanted to just jumped off the building and end his life so that he won’t have to live with this pained emotion anymore.
When he heard Kibum sighing as Donghae nuzzled his neck, Kyuhyun chose to do all three.
He clenched his hands tightly and gets up from his position, glaring at the startled trio.
“K-Kyu?” Kibum said, alarmed.
Kyuhyun kept his gaze steady on the trip in front of him before he quickly grabbed his notepad and pen. The trio watched as Kyuhyun hastily scribbled something on the notepad before he ripped of the paper, scrunched it and threw it to them, or more, towards Kibum.
Kibum quickly opened the scrunched paper and they frowned at the note that was written in a messy handwriting,
“Wait, Kyu. We--- Ahhh!!!” Kibum yelled in surprise when Kyuhyun suddenly grabbed the nearest vase and threw it at them.
“Kibum-ah!!” Eunhyuk yelled in alarm, he and Donghae quickly inspected their lover and the dancer frowned when he saw Kibum’s arm was cut and bleeding. Eunhyuk glared at Kyuhyun while Kibum started crying and Donghae coaxing him, “What the fuck, Kyuhyun!! This is how you treat your hyungs!!??”
Eunhyuk was caught on guard for a moment when Kyuhyun continuously threw scrunched paper at them, “Kyu!! What the f--” Eunhyuk stopped abruptly when he saw Kyuhyun cried, tears flowing abundantly from his soft brown eyes but no sounds escaped his mouth, only sniffles. He saw Kyuhyun cried while hastily scribbling something on the notepad and ripped it off before throwing it at them, again and again.
Donghae picked up each one of the papers with Eunhyuk, reading every single one of them.
Kibum cried harder, not because of the cut, but because of the notes, “Oh god… Kyuhyun-ah…”
Kyuhyun shook his head, trying to say something before he continued to scribble on to the notepad,
“Kyu?” Sungmin’s voice jolted Kyuhyun from his doings and the maknae looked at his hyung with pleading eyes before the soft chocolate brown eyes closed slowly and his body swayed to the side. Alarmed by the maknae sudden blackout, Sungmin quickly rushed towards the maknae and caught him in time.
“Oh god, Kyuhyun-ah!! Kyuhyun-ah!!” Sungmin slapped the maknae’s cheek lightly trying to wake him up when he found something was scribbled on the notepad in Kyuhyun’s hand. He removed the notepad from Kyuhyun’s grasp and read the note.
Clenching the notepad, he adjusted Kyuhyun so that the younger male lied down properly on his bed. He draped the blanket across the unconscious male body when he heard Kibum spoke out.
“H-Hyung… K-Kyu…” his voice was cracked and Sungmin sighed.
“I suggest you get out now.”
Eunhyuk narrowed his eyes (Sungmin could feel it), “What? We’re not at fault over here! He’s the one who suddenly snapped and threw a fucking vase to Kibum--”
“Get the fuck out,” Sungmin glared at the trio, making Donghae and Kibum flinched visibly while Eunhyuk’s frown deepened. Kibum bit his lips guiltily and tugged Donghae and Eunhyuk to exit the room which the two older males obeyed mutely.
“And also, call the doctor on your way out,” Sungmin said, back-facing the trio. He felt bad not mentioning about Kibum’s cut (because it does look hurt) but to compare what happened to Kyuhyun, that’s just like being scratch by a kitten.
Kibum stared at Sungmin’s back before nodded though the older male couldn’t see it, “…Okay… And, uh… Call us if anything happen…”
Sungmin ignored them as he continued adjusting Kyuhyun’s pillow and blanket and when he heard the door slammed, he let out a sigh that he didn’t know he was holding. He looked at the unconscious Kyuhyun pitifully before he lightly brushed away Kyuhyun’s bangs from his forehead before placing a soft kiss on to the slightly scarred skin.
I’ll protect you, Kyuhyun-ah…