Why it Must be Me? - Chapter 3
Title: The Maknae's Dilemma Series: Story 1 - Cho Kyuhyun of Super Junior (Why it Must be Me?)
Author: imaginarybulb
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun/?, Eunhyuk/Kibum/Donghae, Kyuhyun/Sungmin, Kangin/Leeteuk, Hankyung/Heechul, parings may come and go
Summary: It had always been the three of them. Everyone knew that, so does Kyuhyun. Especially Kyuhyun. But still, Kyuhyun succumbed into their world.
Kyuhyun huffed and pouted as he exited his bedroom, damn Sungmin hyung… All he cares about is his sleep…
Tiredly, he dragged his body to the kitchen to make some warm milk and honey and in the same time he wished it would work. Kyuhyun really needs some sleep but his body felt restless and he felt like there’s something wrong will happen but he’s just couldn’t put his finger on it.
Kyuhyun sipped the warm drink slowly, savoring the taste. Sometimes, when he couldn’t sleep, Ryeowook and him would go to the rooftop and talked about everything and nothing, but seeing how tired his hyung was, he decided not to wake the other up. Sometimes Sungmin would join too and the three of them had shared their problems and secrets with each other.
Kyuhyun’s head snapped to the side when he heard keys jingling and the lock being opened. Muffled voices reach his ears, along with soft footsteps and the sound of people taking of their shoes.
Who is it? Kyuhyun silently thought, he knew some of the members were still at their respective schedule, but who? Sungmin hyung is home, duh, so did Ryeowook hyung…. Siwon hyung, Heechul hyung, Kangin hyung, Hankyung hyung, Yesung hyung, Shindong hyung, Donghae hyung….
Kyuhyun tapped his chin with his finger, must be Teukie hyung…
Kyuhyun exited the kitchen and tip-toed to the living room. He planned to surprise the leader or something, but he halted in his steps when he noticed there were two figures at the door. He didn’t know why, but he hid from being seen by whoever those were. Focusing all of his attention to the door, Kyuhyun waited for their faces to be revealed. He can make out silhouettes of two people standing in front of the door. One of the figures was leaning against the other one, but Kyuhyun was not that sure since it was dark. Before he has the chance to do anything, a soft noise sounded like a moan spun into his hearing.
“Ahh…. H-Hyung….”
Kyuhyun felt his head going numb because he knew that voice, Kibum hyung.
“…Ngh…. H-Hyukkie hyung….”
Kyuhyun knew he should’ve turn around and went towards his room quickly, wrapped his body under Sungmin’s blanket and force his brain to forget everything the next morning, he knew he should’ve done that and he tried to move his face away from the two figures or maybe close his eyes but he can’t seem to escape it. He was drawn to it, eyes transfixed and heart clenching painfully.
He watched as Eunhyuk kissed Kibum’s lips hungrily while his hand touching all over the younger’s body, swallowing each moans emitted from Kibum’s lips.
He watched as Eunhyuk broke the heated kiss and proceeds to suck, nibble and lick Kibum’s ear lobe, jaw and neck.
He watched as Kibum arched his back as a moan escaped his lips, fingers curled tight in Eunhyuk’s dark brown hair.
“You are beautiful, Kibum-ah…” Eunhyuk stared into Kibum’s eyes, it’s dark but Kyuhyun could feel the lust and love in their gaze. Kyuhyun felt his eyes stung with tears when he heard the words that he had wished he won’t have to hear it.
“I love you…”
Kibum moaned out an ‘I love you too’ when Eunhyuk continued his ministrations while Kyuhyun stood there and watch lifelessly and a single tear rolling down his cheek.
“What are you doing?”
Kyuhyun flinched visibly when he heard Donghae’s deep, rich, husky voice, different from the usual happy tone he used when he’s talking with the members, the fans or other people. Kyuhyun turned his head towards the voice and he didn’t know if he should be relieve or hurt when Donghae leaned against the doorframe, staring at Kibum and Eunhyuk.
Of course he won’t notice you, stupid Kyuhyun…
“H-Hyung… Why aren’t you sleeping?” Kibum asked, fixing his clothes a little bit. Donghae chuckled before making his way towards the pair, Kyuhyun’s teary eyes followed Donghae’s swift movement as he grabbed Kibum by the hair at the back of his head and smashed their lips together, “I’m waiting for you two…” he mumbled against Kibum’s lips after they parted for air.
And Kyuhyun finally found the strength to turn around and quickly tip-toed to the bedroom.
Kyuhyun gasped as he opened his eyes abruptly. His breath was heavy and he was sweating. Closing his eyes, Kyuhyun tried to calm his heartbeat and stopped himself from trembling.
Was it a dream?
After a few moments, he slowly reopened his eyes and breathe out a sigh of relieve. He felt warmth radiating from his back and a pair of arms wrapped securely around his waist.
Slowly, so that he won’t wake the other person up, Kyuhyun turned around and met with a familiar pink fabric. As he trailed his eyes upward, he saw the face of a familiar male sleeping peacefully above him. Of course…. It’s not a dream… Kyuhyun closed his eyes tightly as he felt his eyes started to get blurry from tears.
Taking a deep breath, Kyuhyun slowly gets up from his laying position so that he won’t disturb Sungmin from his sleep. He stared at the sleeping male, why couldn’t I just fall in love with Sungmin hyung? He’s nice and cares about me… Sure he’s a bit of a pervert, but… He cares about me and notices my existence…
Sungmin was always there for Kyuhyun, including Ryeowook of course. But he felt safer when Sungmin holding him because no matter how the fans called him The Prince of Aegyo, Sungmin was actually a knight in shiny armor for Kyuhyun. Ryeowook always made him feel easy and calm after telling him his problems, but the eternal maknae could never give him the feeling of protection for him.
Sungmin could.
Kyuhyun always felt protected around Sungmin and with the older male being around him, Kyuhyun could feel the older one protected him from everything (failure, loneliness, heartbreak).
Kyuhyun snapped back to reality when he felt Sungmin stirred in his sleep. Smiling to himself, he gripped Sungmin’s hand that was rested on his stomach, “Good morning handsome…” he said teasingly.
Sungmin stared at him for a moment, as if the maknae grew a second head before chuckling, “Funny, Kyu… And good morning to you to, pretty~”
Kyuhyun laughed, “I can’t believe I woke up before you. Teukie hyung would be proud of me.”
Sungmin scoffed, “Oh, shut it. Just because you woke up before me once, and also just a few seconds--”
“-minutes,”
“-fine, minutes earlier than me, doesn’t mean you can rub it on my face, maknae-ah.”
Kyuhyun scrunched his face cutely and pokes his tongue out, “Whatever.”
When he was about to leave the bed, he felt Sungmin gripped his wrist, stopping him from moving. Kyuhyun turned around and looked at him questioningly, “What is it?”
“….Did you have a good night sleep?” Sungmin asked, looking straight to his chocolate brown orbs.
Kyuhyun paused for a moment before grinning, “Yup! Well, that’s because there’s this someone hugging me while I’m asleep!”
Sungmin laughed, “I can’t help it because you’re so squishy!”
A moment of silence.
“HYUNG!! I AM NOT FAT!!!”
And there was a loud thump coming from the KYUMIN’s room; Sungmin was on the floor, laughing his ass off.
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Kyuhyun huffed and stomped out of the bedroom, mentally cursing his pink-lover hyung. He couldn’t believe he thought about falling in love with the older male, sure he’s nice and caring…but…… Me!? SQUISHY!? What the hell was he thinking!? I am Super Junior’s maknae, I’m hot, not squishy!
“Oh, morning Kyu~!” Kyuhyun eyes landed on Leeteuk and he had to hide his laugh when he saw the leader waving at him with his eyes closed and his head lolled to the side. Kyuhyun smiled at hyung, Teukie hyung works so hard… He hugged the leader from behind, making the elder one looked at him questioningly.
“You’re clingy this morning. Not that I hate it, quite the opposite actually, but why?” Leeteuk asked, resting his forehead against Kyuhyun’s cheek. Kyuhyun chuckled and turned his head so that his forehead rested against Leeteuk’s and he looked at the leader lovingly and shrugged, “Just because. My dear leader hyung is working hard, so I wanted to show my appreciation.”
Leeteuk laughed, including Hankyung who just finished his Beijing Fried Rice, “Aigoo, our Kyuhyunnie loves his leader so much!” the Chinese male ruffled his hair and Leeteuk pinched his cheek, “You’re awake early.”
Kyuhyun sat across Leeteuk, shrugging as he licked his lips at the sight of Hankyung’s infamous Beijing Fried Rice, “I’m a good maknae, eh?”
Leeteuk laughed while the just arrived Heechul smacked the back of Kyuhyun’s unsuspecting head, “Yeah right, brat.” The pretty male chuckled at the pouting maknae and flicked his forehead, “Morning.”
“Yeah… Morning to you too hyung….” Kyuhyun muttered grudgingly and proceed to devour his breakfast. Shindong laughed and patted his head, “Good morning, Kyu,” and Kyuhyun nodded and muttered a ‘good morning, Shindong hyung’.
“Morning, maknae,” Siwon kissed his right cheek and he felt a kiss being pressed to his left cheek. Ryeowook grinned at him, “Morning KyuKyu~!”
“Double combo?” Kyuhyun laughed and greeted back his two hyungs. Just then, Kangin arrived at the kitchen and as usual the elder one would ruffle Kyuhyun’s hair, but stopped when he felt Kyuhyun’s hair was dry and soft, not like the usual damp but still soft feeling. “You haven’t taken a bath yet?”
Kyuhyun shook his head, “I’m hungry.” Kangin laughed and nodded and proceed to sit next to the sleepy Leeteuk.
“Good morning, Kyu,” Yesung sat next to him and pinched his nose happily when the maknae greeted him back.
“Oh, I just notice… Where’s Sungmin hyung?” Ryeowook asked.
“He’s at the bathroom,” Kyuhyun answered while stuffing his mouth with food.
“Sungmin hyung woke up after you?” Siwon asked, bewildered.
Kyuhyun grinned, “Yeah, I’m a good maknae, right?”
“Yeah right. It’s just one time, maknae-ah and I’m sure your ‘I’m a good maknae’ attitude will change tomorrow or worst, this evening,” Sungmin piped out and Kyuhyun glared at the older male who’s toweling his hair, but he faltered a bit when he caught the sight of Eunhyuk, Kibum and Donghae exited their bedroom. He quickly turned around and stuffed his food, hoping no one notices his tenseness, but little did he know Ryeowook and Sungmin noticed them faster than he thought.
“Morning, Kibum, Hyuk hyung, Hae hyung,” Siwon greeted the three of them with a bright smile and the three of them greeted back with the same amount of cheeriness and smile.
“Oh, that’s right. I heard a thump from your room, what happened?” Heechul asked Sungmin who’s standing next to Kyuhyun and the maknae looked at him questioningly, “What thump?”
Sungmin chuckled and ruffled his hair, “Nothing really. Kyu got mad at me and pushed me from the bed when I told him I hugged him while sleeping because he’s squishy.”
Kyuhyun literally choked on his food.
Hankyung handed him a glass of water when the maknae started to cough violently and Yesung helped rubbing his back comfortingly while the rest of Super Junior - minus three members - laughed at Sungmin’s statement.
“Hyung!! I AM NOT FAT!!”
“I said you’re squishy, not fat.”
“BUT IT’S THE SAME!”
“No, Kyu, it’s not. You spelled fat F-A-T and squishy S-Q-U-I-S-H-Y. See? It’s different.”
“Hyung!!!”
“Don’t yell while eating, maknae,” Sungmin snatched his spoon and took a spoonful of Kyuhyun’s breakfast, “Hmm… Delicious as always, Hankyung hyung.”
“Hyung! Stop being Kangin hyung and stealing my food!” Kyuhyun whined and pouted when Kangin laughed and took his food and the two food-stealing-combo high-fiving in glee.
Suddenly, he felt someone hugged him from behind, “Good morning, Kyuhyunnie~”
“Ahh…. H-Hyung….”
“Ah, morning Kibum hyung,” Kyuhyun smiled, and it was forced but no one noticed and again, except for Sungmin and Ryeowook.
Sungmin grabbed Kibum’s arm and pried the actor from Kyuhyun, startling Kibum and Kyuhyun, “Don’t touch him, he’s mine.”
“H-Hyung…?” Kyuhyun looked at him with wide eyes.
There was a moment of awkward silence as all eyes landed on Sungmin, who’s still holding Kibum’s arm, before the pink-lover male grinned and hugged the dumb-founded Kyuhyun, “Because he’s my squishy pillow!! I’m the only one who can hug him!!”
The other Super Junior members laughed while Kyuhyun whined, “Hyung!! I am not fat!!”
“Squishy, Kyu. I said squishy,” Sungmin buried his nose into Kyuhyun’s soft hair and smiled at the scent.
Kibum pouted, “Aww! I wanted to hug Kyu too! Sungmin hyung is right Kyu, you’re squishy and nice to hug.”
Kyuhyun blushed deeply and pouted, “Not you to Kibum hyung!!”
“See, Kyu? Everyone’s agreeing with me,” Sungmin happily said, still hugging Kyuhyun.
“Kibum hyung is not ‘everyone’ hyung….” Kyuhyun grumbled.
SLAM!!
All eyes darted on a certain dark brown hair male who’s now standing up, hand clenched on the table.
“Eunhyuk-ah?” Leeteuk asked, looking concerned while Kyuhyun gulped nervously, what’s wrong? Did I say something wrong that made him angry?
Eunhyuk was silence for a moment before wailed and clutched his stomach, “I’m hungry!!!”
The other members laughed and Kyuhyun sighed in relieve.
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He was walking through the corridor of SME building when he heard a melodic voice ringing in his ears. He halted his steps and his eyes closed slowly as the sweet voice calmed him down. He then opened his eyes abruptly and turned around before he started running through the corridor. His fox-like eyes searching frantically for the source of voice. It’s not Ryeowook or Yesung; he knew that because this voice is strong and smooth, like liquid caramel or something equally wonderful.
He jogged through the corridors, checking every room he passed by with sharp eyes, not wanting to miss the owner of the beautiful voice. He jogged and jogged, until the voice gets louder and louder and he stopped in front of a room with a door slightly opened.
Quietly, he pushed the door open, just a little bit, enough for him to see who the owner of the voice is. His fox-like eyes landed on a tall, lanky male figure with tousled hair. He couldn’t see the face because the male was back-facing him.
Please show your face, please show your face…
The voice stopped and he was disappointed and in the same time nervous because the male sighing and turned around and….
Wh…
His eyes widen when he saw the newbie kid, what’s his name again? Kyuhae? Kyuwon? Kyuchul? He watched as the younger male slump against the wall, gulping down a bottle of mineral water. He knew he should come in and say ‘Hey kid, you’re good’ and maybe with a ‘What’s your name again?’ or maybe he could just turn around and left like it was nothing, but it was not nothing. The singing was wonderful, his voice was wonderful and he wanted to hear it again. And again and again and again and again.
He was snapped from his reverie when the younger male sighed loudly and stared at the ceiling. What’s wrong?
He was about to come in and asked what was wrong, when he heard the new kid mumbled to himself.
“Umma… what should I do? They said those people are nice people and I should try hard to get on their good side…”
Who was he talking about?
“But, I’ve tried, Umma. I’ve tried so hard, but… But why won’t they accept me?”
They…? Oh…. He bit his lips.
“They didn’t even remember my name…”
He felt a pang of guilt.
“Umma… I….I’m really tired…” he gasped silently when he saw tears started rolling down the younger cheeks and somewhat it made his heart clenched painfully.
“I wanted to give up, umma….”
No… He thought, Don’t give up just yet… I still wanted to hear your voice… Clenching his hands tightly, he turned around and left the room, the building and went straight back to the dorm, tackling his leader down and screamed,
“Don’t let that new kid go!!”
Sungmin opened his eyes when his head hit the roof of the van when the vehicle passed a bumper. He massaged his aching head and was about to continue sleeping when he felt a weight leaning against his body. He turned his head to his right and smiled softly at the sight of Kyuhyun sleeping peacefully. Adjusting his position so that Kyuhyun could lean on his shoulder, Sungmin caressed the younger’s hair, soft enough to show affection, but not too soft to show his true feelings towards the maknae.
Sighing to himself, Sungmin rested his head against the window, watching the cars passing by. His mind went back to earlier at the dorm.
He almost loses it.
Sungmin closed his eyes, remembering about the ‘incident’ during breakfast.
Sungmin laughed with Kangin when Kyuhyun whined about the two of them always stealing his food. Of course he felt bad for stealing the maknae’s favorite food, but he had to do it. He had to do something, anything, to take Kyuhyun’s mind away from Kibum, Eunhyuk, Donghae and last night.
He knew Kyuhyun went tensed when he saw the trio during breakfast. He knew Kyuhyun was remembering the last night event. He knew it all too well.
So here he was, standing beside the maknae because he knew the maknae felt safe and protected when he was around (not that he’s bragging about it, he just knew). And thanks to Kangin hyung, the maknae was laughing genuinely.
Until Kibum hugged him from behind like he always did every morning.
The fourth time Kibum did it was the time when Sungmin already found out about Kyuhyun’s ‘crush’ towards the Kihyukhae trio and that was the first time he felt furious towards the actor. He knew it was not Kibum’s fault because the younger didn’t know anything, but he felt angry because Kibum didn’t notice the look Eunhyuk and Donghae gave Kyuhyun. As if Kyuhyun was the one flirting with their precious Kibummie.
He talked to Kyuhyun the very same day, asking the younger one why he didn’t stay away from Kibum. Why he didn’t do anything to avoid any skinship with Kibum or Eunhyuk or Donghae. Why he let his feelings being toyed like this.
But Kyuhyun just smile and shrug, “I guess… When you like someone, you don’t care anymore whether you were hurt or anything because the only important thing was you can be close to them.”
“I thought you’ll stop.”
“I’ve stopped, hyung. I’ve stopped chasing and dreaming. But… I couldn’t help letting myself being a rag doll. I let them touched me, hugged me, do anything at me and I’ll keep the hurt and loneliness inside me when they just tossed me aside.”
Sungmin frowned, “It’s not healthy, Kyu…”
“I know, hyung… But I have you and Wookie hyung right?”
Sungmin felt his anger bubbled up when he saw Kibum hugged the maknae and he saw the maknae tensed and his eyes…
They were glistening with tears that threaten to fall.
Subconsciously, he grabbed the actor’s arm and pried him off Kyuhyun, “Don’t touch him, he’s mine,” and for a moment there he felt like glaring daggers towards the actor, but Kyuhyun’s wavered voice stopped him.
“H-Hyung?”
He knew that look, that pleading look, that ‘I need your protection’ look and Sungmin did what he did the best other than singing, dancing and messing with Kyuhyun, he protected him.
“Because he’s my squishy pillow!! I’m the only one who can hug him!!”
It’s not really a lie. Kyuhyun felt good to be hug and Sungmin wished he’s the only one who can hug him. For a split second, he felt Kyuhyun sighed in relieve and he gripped Sungmin’s shirt lightly as a silent ‘thank you’. Sungmin also felt relieved because he did it on time. If he was a second late, Kyuhyun would be crying in front of Super Junior by now.
Sungmin cursed under his breath when the van jumped after passing through a bumper. He checked the maknae and smiled when he found the maknae was still sleeping peacefully even though he stirred a bit earlier. He looked at the other members, some were sleeping and others were whispering to each other, eating (Shindong of course), listening to music, playing games or one person… watching. Sungmin then returned his gaze to the window, feeling bothered.
Because he noticed Eunhyuk’s watching them intensely.
Author: imaginarybulb
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun/?, Eunhyuk/Kibum/Donghae, Kyuhyun/Sungmin, Kangin/Leeteuk, Hankyung/Heechul, parings may come and go
Summary: It had always been the three of them. Everyone knew that, so does Kyuhyun. Especially Kyuhyun. But still, Kyuhyun succumbed into their world.
Kyuhyun huffed and pouted as he exited his bedroom, damn Sungmin hyung… All he cares about is his sleep…
Tiredly, he dragged his body to the kitchen to make some warm milk and honey and in the same time he wished it would work. Kyuhyun really needs some sleep but his body felt restless and he felt like there’s something wrong will happen but he’s just couldn’t put his finger on it.
Kyuhyun sipped the warm drink slowly, savoring the taste. Sometimes, when he couldn’t sleep, Ryeowook and him would go to the rooftop and talked about everything and nothing, but seeing how tired his hyung was, he decided not to wake the other up. Sometimes Sungmin would join too and the three of them had shared their problems and secrets with each other.
Kyuhyun’s head snapped to the side when he heard keys jingling and the lock being opened. Muffled voices reach his ears, along with soft footsteps and the sound of people taking of their shoes.
Who is it? Kyuhyun silently thought, he knew some of the members were still at their respective schedule, but who? Sungmin hyung is home, duh, so did Ryeowook hyung…. Siwon hyung, Heechul hyung, Kangin hyung, Hankyung hyung, Yesung hyung, Shindong hyung, Donghae hyung….
Kyuhyun tapped his chin with his finger, must be Teukie hyung…
Kyuhyun exited the kitchen and tip-toed to the living room. He planned to surprise the leader or something, but he halted in his steps when he noticed there were two figures at the door. He didn’t know why, but he hid from being seen by whoever those were. Focusing all of his attention to the door, Kyuhyun waited for their faces to be revealed. He can make out silhouettes of two people standing in front of the door. One of the figures was leaning against the other one, but Kyuhyun was not that sure since it was dark. Before he has the chance to do anything, a soft noise sounded like a moan spun into his hearing.
“Ahh…. H-Hyung….”
Kyuhyun felt his head going numb because he knew that voice, Kibum hyung.
“…Ngh…. H-Hyukkie hyung….”
Kyuhyun knew he should’ve turn around and went towards his room quickly, wrapped his body under Sungmin’s blanket and force his brain to forget everything the next morning, he knew he should’ve done that and he tried to move his face away from the two figures or maybe close his eyes but he can’t seem to escape it. He was drawn to it, eyes transfixed and heart clenching painfully.
He watched as Eunhyuk kissed Kibum’s lips hungrily while his hand touching all over the younger’s body, swallowing each moans emitted from Kibum’s lips.
He watched as Eunhyuk broke the heated kiss and proceeds to suck, nibble and lick Kibum’s ear lobe, jaw and neck.
He watched as Kibum arched his back as a moan escaped his lips, fingers curled tight in Eunhyuk’s dark brown hair.
“You are beautiful, Kibum-ah…” Eunhyuk stared into Kibum’s eyes, it’s dark but Kyuhyun could feel the lust and love in their gaze. Kyuhyun felt his eyes stung with tears when he heard the words that he had wished he won’t have to hear it.
“I love you…”
Kibum moaned out an ‘I love you too’ when Eunhyuk continued his ministrations while Kyuhyun stood there and watch lifelessly and a single tear rolling down his cheek.
“What are you doing?”
Kyuhyun flinched visibly when he heard Donghae’s deep, rich, husky voice, different from the usual happy tone he used when he’s talking with the members, the fans or other people. Kyuhyun turned his head towards the voice and he didn’t know if he should be relieve or hurt when Donghae leaned against the doorframe, staring at Kibum and Eunhyuk.
Of course he won’t notice you, stupid Kyuhyun…
“H-Hyung… Why aren’t you sleeping?” Kibum asked, fixing his clothes a little bit. Donghae chuckled before making his way towards the pair, Kyuhyun’s teary eyes followed Donghae’s swift movement as he grabbed Kibum by the hair at the back of his head and smashed their lips together, “I’m waiting for you two…” he mumbled against Kibum’s lips after they parted for air.
And Kyuhyun finally found the strength to turn around and quickly tip-toed to the bedroom.
Kyuhyun gasped as he opened his eyes abruptly. His breath was heavy and he was sweating. Closing his eyes, Kyuhyun tried to calm his heartbeat and stopped himself from trembling.
Was it a dream?
After a few moments, he slowly reopened his eyes and breathe out a sigh of relieve. He felt warmth radiating from his back and a pair of arms wrapped securely around his waist.
Slowly, so that he won’t wake the other person up, Kyuhyun turned around and met with a familiar pink fabric. As he trailed his eyes upward, he saw the face of a familiar male sleeping peacefully above him. Of course…. It’s not a dream… Kyuhyun closed his eyes tightly as he felt his eyes started to get blurry from tears.
Taking a deep breath, Kyuhyun slowly gets up from his laying position so that he won’t disturb Sungmin from his sleep. He stared at the sleeping male, why couldn’t I just fall in love with Sungmin hyung? He’s nice and cares about me… Sure he’s a bit of a pervert, but… He cares about me and notices my existence…
Sungmin was always there for Kyuhyun, including Ryeowook of course. But he felt safer when Sungmin holding him because no matter how the fans called him The Prince of Aegyo, Sungmin was actually a knight in shiny armor for Kyuhyun. Ryeowook always made him feel easy and calm after telling him his problems, but the eternal maknae could never give him the feeling of protection for him.
Sungmin could.
Kyuhyun always felt protected around Sungmin and with the older male being around him, Kyuhyun could feel the older one protected him from everything (failure, loneliness, heartbreak).
Kyuhyun snapped back to reality when he felt Sungmin stirred in his sleep. Smiling to himself, he gripped Sungmin’s hand that was rested on his stomach, “Good morning handsome…” he said teasingly.
Sungmin stared at him for a moment, as if the maknae grew a second head before chuckling, “Funny, Kyu… And good morning to you to, pretty~”
Kyuhyun laughed, “I can’t believe I woke up before you. Teukie hyung would be proud of me.”
Sungmin scoffed, “Oh, shut it. Just because you woke up before me once, and also just a few seconds--”
“-minutes,”
“-fine, minutes earlier than me, doesn’t mean you can rub it on my face, maknae-ah.”
Kyuhyun scrunched his face cutely and pokes his tongue out, “Whatever.”
When he was about to leave the bed, he felt Sungmin gripped his wrist, stopping him from moving. Kyuhyun turned around and looked at him questioningly, “What is it?”
“….Did you have a good night sleep?” Sungmin asked, looking straight to his chocolate brown orbs.
Kyuhyun paused for a moment before grinning, “Yup! Well, that’s because there’s this someone hugging me while I’m asleep!”
Sungmin laughed, “I can’t help it because you’re so squishy!”
A moment of silence.
“HYUNG!! I AM NOT FAT!!!”
And there was a loud thump coming from the KYUMIN’s room; Sungmin was on the floor, laughing his ass off.
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Kyuhyun huffed and stomped out of the bedroom, mentally cursing his pink-lover hyung. He couldn’t believe he thought about falling in love with the older male, sure he’s nice and caring…but…… Me!? SQUISHY!? What the hell was he thinking!? I am Super Junior’s maknae, I’m hot, not squishy!
“Oh, morning Kyu~!” Kyuhyun eyes landed on Leeteuk and he had to hide his laugh when he saw the leader waving at him with his eyes closed and his head lolled to the side. Kyuhyun smiled at hyung, Teukie hyung works so hard… He hugged the leader from behind, making the elder one looked at him questioningly.
“You’re clingy this morning. Not that I hate it, quite the opposite actually, but why?” Leeteuk asked, resting his forehead against Kyuhyun’s cheek. Kyuhyun chuckled and turned his head so that his forehead rested against Leeteuk’s and he looked at the leader lovingly and shrugged, “Just because. My dear leader hyung is working hard, so I wanted to show my appreciation.”
Leeteuk laughed, including Hankyung who just finished his Beijing Fried Rice, “Aigoo, our Kyuhyunnie loves his leader so much!” the Chinese male ruffled his hair and Leeteuk pinched his cheek, “You’re awake early.”
Kyuhyun sat across Leeteuk, shrugging as he licked his lips at the sight of Hankyung’s infamous Beijing Fried Rice, “I’m a good maknae, eh?”
Leeteuk laughed while the just arrived Heechul smacked the back of Kyuhyun’s unsuspecting head, “Yeah right, brat.” The pretty male chuckled at the pouting maknae and flicked his forehead, “Morning.”
“Yeah… Morning to you too hyung….” Kyuhyun muttered grudgingly and proceed to devour his breakfast. Shindong laughed and patted his head, “Good morning, Kyu,” and Kyuhyun nodded and muttered a ‘good morning, Shindong hyung’.
“Morning, maknae,” Siwon kissed his right cheek and he felt a kiss being pressed to his left cheek. Ryeowook grinned at him, “Morning KyuKyu~!”
“Double combo?” Kyuhyun laughed and greeted back his two hyungs. Just then, Kangin arrived at the kitchen and as usual the elder one would ruffle Kyuhyun’s hair, but stopped when he felt Kyuhyun’s hair was dry and soft, not like the usual damp but still soft feeling. “You haven’t taken a bath yet?”
Kyuhyun shook his head, “I’m hungry.” Kangin laughed and nodded and proceed to sit next to the sleepy Leeteuk.
“Good morning, Kyu,” Yesung sat next to him and pinched his nose happily when the maknae greeted him back.
“Oh, I just notice… Where’s Sungmin hyung?” Ryeowook asked.
“He’s at the bathroom,” Kyuhyun answered while stuffing his mouth with food.
“Sungmin hyung woke up after you?” Siwon asked, bewildered.
Kyuhyun grinned, “Yeah, I’m a good maknae, right?”
“Yeah right. It’s just one time, maknae-ah and I’m sure your ‘I’m a good maknae’ attitude will change tomorrow or worst, this evening,” Sungmin piped out and Kyuhyun glared at the older male who’s toweling his hair, but he faltered a bit when he caught the sight of Eunhyuk, Kibum and Donghae exited their bedroom. He quickly turned around and stuffed his food, hoping no one notices his tenseness, but little did he know Ryeowook and Sungmin noticed them faster than he thought.
“Morning, Kibum, Hyuk hyung, Hae hyung,” Siwon greeted the three of them with a bright smile and the three of them greeted back with the same amount of cheeriness and smile.
“Oh, that’s right. I heard a thump from your room, what happened?” Heechul asked Sungmin who’s standing next to Kyuhyun and the maknae looked at him questioningly, “What thump?”
Sungmin chuckled and ruffled his hair, “Nothing really. Kyu got mad at me and pushed me from the bed when I told him I hugged him while sleeping because he’s squishy.”
Kyuhyun literally choked on his food.
Hankyung handed him a glass of water when the maknae started to cough violently and Yesung helped rubbing his back comfortingly while the rest of Super Junior - minus three members - laughed at Sungmin’s statement.
“Hyung!! I AM NOT FAT!!”
“I said you’re squishy, not fat.”
“BUT IT’S THE SAME!”
“No, Kyu, it’s not. You spelled fat F-A-T and squishy S-Q-U-I-S-H-Y. See? It’s different.”
“Hyung!!!”
“Don’t yell while eating, maknae,” Sungmin snatched his spoon and took a spoonful of Kyuhyun’s breakfast, “Hmm… Delicious as always, Hankyung hyung.”
“Hyung! Stop being Kangin hyung and stealing my food!” Kyuhyun whined and pouted when Kangin laughed and took his food and the two food-stealing-combo high-fiving in glee.
Suddenly, he felt someone hugged him from behind, “Good morning, Kyuhyunnie~”
“Ahh…. H-Hyung….”
“Ah, morning Kibum hyung,” Kyuhyun smiled, and it was forced but no one noticed and again, except for Sungmin and Ryeowook.
Sungmin grabbed Kibum’s arm and pried the actor from Kyuhyun, startling Kibum and Kyuhyun, “Don’t touch him, he’s mine.”
“H-Hyung…?” Kyuhyun looked at him with wide eyes.
There was a moment of awkward silence as all eyes landed on Sungmin, who’s still holding Kibum’s arm, before the pink-lover male grinned and hugged the dumb-founded Kyuhyun, “Because he’s my squishy pillow!! I’m the only one who can hug him!!”
The other Super Junior members laughed while Kyuhyun whined, “Hyung!! I am not fat!!”
“Squishy, Kyu. I said squishy,” Sungmin buried his nose into Kyuhyun’s soft hair and smiled at the scent.
Kibum pouted, “Aww! I wanted to hug Kyu too! Sungmin hyung is right Kyu, you’re squishy and nice to hug.”
Kyuhyun blushed deeply and pouted, “Not you to Kibum hyung!!”
“See, Kyu? Everyone’s agreeing with me,” Sungmin happily said, still hugging Kyuhyun.
“Kibum hyung is not ‘everyone’ hyung….” Kyuhyun grumbled.
SLAM!!
All eyes darted on a certain dark brown hair male who’s now standing up, hand clenched on the table.
“Eunhyuk-ah?” Leeteuk asked, looking concerned while Kyuhyun gulped nervously, what’s wrong? Did I say something wrong that made him angry?
Eunhyuk was silence for a moment before wailed and clutched his stomach, “I’m hungry!!!”
The other members laughed and Kyuhyun sighed in relieve.
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He was walking through the corridor of SME building when he heard a melodic voice ringing in his ears. He halted his steps and his eyes closed slowly as the sweet voice calmed him down. He then opened his eyes abruptly and turned around before he started running through the corridor. His fox-like eyes searching frantically for the source of voice. It’s not Ryeowook or Yesung; he knew that because this voice is strong and smooth, like liquid caramel or something equally wonderful.
He jogged through the corridors, checking every room he passed by with sharp eyes, not wanting to miss the owner of the beautiful voice. He jogged and jogged, until the voice gets louder and louder and he stopped in front of a room with a door slightly opened.
Quietly, he pushed the door open, just a little bit, enough for him to see who the owner of the voice is. His fox-like eyes landed on a tall, lanky male figure with tousled hair. He couldn’t see the face because the male was back-facing him.
Please show your face, please show your face…
The voice stopped and he was disappointed and in the same time nervous because the male sighing and turned around and….
Wh…
His eyes widen when he saw the newbie kid, what’s his name again? Kyuhae? Kyuwon? Kyuchul? He watched as the younger male slump against the wall, gulping down a bottle of mineral water. He knew he should come in and say ‘Hey kid, you’re good’ and maybe with a ‘What’s your name again?’ or maybe he could just turn around and left like it was nothing, but it was not nothing. The singing was wonderful, his voice was wonderful and he wanted to hear it again. And again and again and again and again.
He was snapped from his reverie when the younger male sighed loudly and stared at the ceiling. What’s wrong?
He was about to come in and asked what was wrong, when he heard the new kid mumbled to himself.
“Umma… what should I do? They said those people are nice people and I should try hard to get on their good side…”
Who was he talking about?
“But, I’ve tried, Umma. I’ve tried so hard, but… But why won’t they accept me?”
They…? Oh…. He bit his lips.
“They didn’t even remember my name…”
He felt a pang of guilt.
“Umma… I….I’m really tired…” he gasped silently when he saw tears started rolling down the younger cheeks and somewhat it made his heart clenched painfully.
“I wanted to give up, umma….”
No… He thought, Don’t give up just yet… I still wanted to hear your voice… Clenching his hands tightly, he turned around and left the room, the building and went straight back to the dorm, tackling his leader down and screamed,
“Don’t let that new kid go!!”
Sungmin opened his eyes when his head hit the roof of the van when the vehicle passed a bumper. He massaged his aching head and was about to continue sleeping when he felt a weight leaning against his body. He turned his head to his right and smiled softly at the sight of Kyuhyun sleeping peacefully. Adjusting his position so that Kyuhyun could lean on his shoulder, Sungmin caressed the younger’s hair, soft enough to show affection, but not too soft to show his true feelings towards the maknae.
Sighing to himself, Sungmin rested his head against the window, watching the cars passing by. His mind went back to earlier at the dorm.
He almost loses it.
Sungmin closed his eyes, remembering about the ‘incident’ during breakfast.
Sungmin laughed with Kangin when Kyuhyun whined about the two of them always stealing his food. Of course he felt bad for stealing the maknae’s favorite food, but he had to do it. He had to do something, anything, to take Kyuhyun’s mind away from Kibum, Eunhyuk, Donghae and last night.
He knew Kyuhyun went tensed when he saw the trio during breakfast. He knew Kyuhyun was remembering the last night event. He knew it all too well.
So here he was, standing beside the maknae because he knew the maknae felt safe and protected when he was around (not that he’s bragging about it, he just knew). And thanks to Kangin hyung, the maknae was laughing genuinely.
Until Kibum hugged him from behind like he always did every morning.
The fourth time Kibum did it was the time when Sungmin already found out about Kyuhyun’s ‘crush’ towards the Kihyukhae trio and that was the first time he felt furious towards the actor. He knew it was not Kibum’s fault because the younger didn’t know anything, but he felt angry because Kibum didn’t notice the look Eunhyuk and Donghae gave Kyuhyun. As if Kyuhyun was the one flirting with their precious Kibummie.
He talked to Kyuhyun the very same day, asking the younger one why he didn’t stay away from Kibum. Why he didn’t do anything to avoid any skinship with Kibum or Eunhyuk or Donghae. Why he let his feelings being toyed like this.
But Kyuhyun just smile and shrug, “I guess… When you like someone, you don’t care anymore whether you were hurt or anything because the only important thing was you can be close to them.”
“I thought you’ll stop.”
“I’ve stopped, hyung. I’ve stopped chasing and dreaming. But… I couldn’t help letting myself being a rag doll. I let them touched me, hugged me, do anything at me and I’ll keep the hurt and loneliness inside me when they just tossed me aside.”
Sungmin frowned, “It’s not healthy, Kyu…”
“I know, hyung… But I have you and Wookie hyung right?”
Sungmin felt his anger bubbled up when he saw Kibum hugged the maknae and he saw the maknae tensed and his eyes…
They were glistening with tears that threaten to fall.
Subconsciously, he grabbed the actor’s arm and pried him off Kyuhyun, “Don’t touch him, he’s mine,” and for a moment there he felt like glaring daggers towards the actor, but Kyuhyun’s wavered voice stopped him.
“H-Hyung?”
He knew that look, that pleading look, that ‘I need your protection’ look and Sungmin did what he did the best other than singing, dancing and messing with Kyuhyun, he protected him.
“Because he’s my squishy pillow!! I’m the only one who can hug him!!”
It’s not really a lie. Kyuhyun felt good to be hug and Sungmin wished he’s the only one who can hug him. For a split second, he felt Kyuhyun sighed in relieve and he gripped Sungmin’s shirt lightly as a silent ‘thank you’. Sungmin also felt relieved because he did it on time. If he was a second late, Kyuhyun would be crying in front of Super Junior by now.
Sungmin cursed under his breath when the van jumped after passing through a bumper. He checked the maknae and smiled when he found the maknae was still sleeping peacefully even though he stirred a bit earlier. He looked at the other members, some were sleeping and others were whispering to each other, eating (Shindong of course), listening to music, playing games or one person… watching. Sungmin then returned his gaze to the window, feeling bothered.
Because he noticed Eunhyuk’s watching them intensely.