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[im_stumped]

The highs! The lows! This morning i felt so calm and good, then oscillated during the day between bright elation and deep depression. No median emotions, not even a little rage. Who am i kidding with this whole sassy fun clever bitch thing? I am so fucking sensitive. And unbearably dark at times. Dark moods. Heavy. Yuck. There is no part of me that

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[suck3rpunch]

i've developed a strange (for me) relationship with sex (casual and otherwise) lately. something about being a ridiculous wild child slutty hoebag having the time of her life for a decade+ totally caused a crash and burn situation in my mid-20's for some reason. it's not that i'm against sex (casual or otherwise) or that i won't have it if the circumstances is feeling right as rain, but i am so beyond actively seeking it out in any way whatsoever that i get worried that part of my life is over. like why don't i care about sex at all anymore?! maybe it's a hormone shift that happens at this age, maybe it's just good ole growing and changing and becoming a different version of you, maybe it's a bit deeper and has to do more with not wanting to actively seek out a ~~connection~~ with another human because that inevitably leads to disappointment and heartbreak... as kid rock says "only god knows why" so i'ma "let jesus take the wheel" on this one and invest in some new heavy duty sex toys to replace (the sometimes not so) heavy duty boy

[im_stumped]

lmao for real. sex is weird because it's so complicated. carnal and instinctual, emotional, mental, and depending on who you're with, it can take you to the spiritual plane as well. i totally feel ya on the "crash and burn" aspect. maybe you're having these feelings cause you just need to regenerate. like when i work too much, i always get sick, but the time alone healing sends me back in better spirit. maybe that's a shit analogy. anyway, biologically speaking, our sexual peak is yet to come, and we can look forward to enjoying that time with much more wisdom. sex ain't everything, it's like sometimes you're into green day, sometimes you're just like "no." plus, like you said, the people that are attached to those dingalings can bring immeasurable grief