Well now that my finals are over, I have a few days to myself. But a bunch of my family is in town for my grandma's 90th birthday party. I know. She's really getting old ( Read more... )

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fuck the world and all who are in it. I hate life. I hate love. I hate people. I hate you. I hate me.

Somehow this always comes back and bites me in the ass when I least expect it. Something bothers me right? right. It pushes me over the edge. And I just want to burst. So this happens. Fuck everything. I hate it all.

Sorry to leave everyone hanging with those last two entries. I haven't had time to update ( Read more... )

If You Get More Than 40 You're Spoiled ( Read more... )

I am so lost and depressed. I'm broken. I no longer have any control over anything in my life. It's just spinning into a black oblivion. A forever abyss. I can't stop it. I'm not strong enough ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do. I can't control myself anymore. I freaked out yesterday about Dr Jin and his horrible exam. I got it back and I had an 8. not out of 10 or 20. No. Out of 100. yes. I got an 8%. And that was with the curve. I couldn't breathe; so I had to leave class. I ran out. I ran to Olin, found a fiew people to vent to. They ( Read more... )

I got a room in Southgate with Mary. I should be happy, and I am about that. But I'm not happy. I'm just not. People just don't get it. I'm not happy. I don't think Maia or Shane noticed, but when they were driving me home last night, I started to cry. I don't know why I was crying. It just hit me while we were on US1 ( Read more... )

Well I will be in CAPS testing almost all day today so don't call me. I won't answer. I get to find out if I'm ADD. Well that's an easy one ( Read more... )

I am so tired. I went flying with Eric last night. It was very peaceful, but I didn't get back home until 11:00. But I don't think it was enough to actually help me. Sure it was nice. But no one really gets it. I'm so alone. I have friends. But I'm so lonely. I follow and I'm followed. I'm followed by the unwanted. I'm watched ( Read more... )