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(TRIGGER WARNING. This meme deals heavy with death and also possibly with strong violence or with suicide/depression. If you are not comfortable reading about that, please PLEASE do not proceed further.)

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Tamaki Suoh | Ouran High School Host Club | 4 + 5

[spectaculaire]

[it was strange learning that he only had a few months to live. everything had seemed just...normal. and then it happened and the diagnosis confirmed.

he let out a breath as he leaned against the window of his apartment. he knew that death wasn't permanent here-that he would return. but what if she disappeared while he was gone? what if...what if for once death was permanent? some have even disappeared after dying. would that happen to him, too?

these thoughts and more flooded his mind as he continued to stare out the window. but one person kept reappearing in his mind each time. the one person he knew he should see but just couldn't bring himself to see her just yet.

...Haruhi.]

[ootorospring]

[she lets her hands drop, just looking up at him for a moment with a stubborn set of her jaw]

It's you who's important now. But I will be.

[spectaculaire]

I know this is about me but-[he placed a hand against her cheek.] It's about you, too, Haruhi. You're always telling me to think about myself, but you're being unfair by not thinking about yourself either.

lmao we keep changing tenses--

[ootorospring]

[she shook her head] I am thinking about myself, Tamaki. If I let you be an idiot like this and not think about yourself, I wouldn't bear it. Knowing that for once you're thinking of your own happiness... that's what I want.

bah it's first person who cares 8|

[spectaculaire]

[he could only stare at her for a moment before a small smile formed. a real one.]

So does this mean you'll let me be a little more selfish?

[ootorospring]

I've never told you to not be selfish. Within reason.

[spectaculaire]

Ah, but Haruhi! I only have so much time left to be graced by your presence! [though he was saying this in his usual overdramatic way, it was also a bit painful because it was true. but he continued with the act as he suddenly just. kind of fell onto her lap.]

So could I request to be spoiled a little bit more than usual?

[ootorospring]

[jhasdfg] I said within reason!

---How did this turn CUTE!?

[spectaculaire]

[just looks up at her with a slight pout.]

I can't...?

BECAUSE IT'S THEM.

[ootorospring]

[those eyes aksdjh]

....I suppose it would be all right... depending...

Compared to the one below......

[spectaculaire]

Depending...?

WE'RE MAKING UP FOR IT ;;

[ootorospring]

As long as you're not being too weird.

;;

[spectaculaire]

And what counts as being weird?

[ootorospring]

[...well, she'd backed herself into a corner, because the standard "Tamaki is weird" response would contradict her orders for him to think of himself.

Avoid...?]

Just-worry about yourself, Tamaki.

[spectaculaire]

[a soft smile forms as he reaches up and gently caresses her cheek.]

I will...but I'll never be able to stop worrying about you, Haruhi. No matter how many times you try and tell me to, I just can't.

[ootorospring]

I'll always be fine, Tamaki. [but yes turning red] As long as I know that you're not thinking stupid things and forgetting to take account of your own happiness.