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[koyo]

(TRIGGER WARNING. This meme deals heavy with death and also possibly with strong violence or with suicide/depression. If you are not comfortable reading about that, please PLEASE do not proceed further.)

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Chihiro Shindou | ef - a tale of memories. | 3 + 1

[allephoria]

[That was it. She was tired of this, tired of trying to pretend she could have a normal, happy life when it was so obvious that she couldn't. She didn't even care anymore if she was remembered or not--her life had been a pointless one, and there was no reason for anyone to waste time and try to remember it. After all, any feelings she might have had about it would just disappear anyways, right?

She's standing on the roof of the school, feet already by the edge. The height is scary, but it's not like she'll care once it's over.

Will anyone even find her?]

5.

[heartnotation]

[ normally, he'd spend the majority of his time outside, playing a little sports with his friends or just eat some food in the cafeteria, but today was different. strangely enough, he wanted to be alone, so he can gather all of his thoughts. the most prominent concern in his head was the whereabouts of his friend. he hasn't seen much of her recently and that was odd enough for him. he knew she was just a call away, but it would be better to ask her in person, right?

obviously, he didn't expect to run into her so soon. seeing her the moment he opened the door surprised him quite a bit. most of all, what confused him was the fact that she was (dangerously) close to the edge. ]

... Shindou, what are you doing over there?

kazehayaaa ;w;

[allephoria]

[She freezes, turning around ever so slowly. She'd thought she'd picked a good time to do this, or had been sure to lock the door. Ah, this was going to be rather difficult now, wasn't it. In any case though, she puts on a tiny smile.]

O-Oh, good afternoon, Kazehaya-kun. I was just... looking at the horizon a bit.

lmao, i'd go "chihirooo" in return, but i haven't seen the series yet.

[heartnotation]

[ well. if that was the truth, it didn't sit well with him that she's near the edge, so: ]

You can look at it from here, too. The view is good. [ ... ] Here, give me your hand so you won't fall. [ edging closer now. ]

haha well i hope you like it when you do!

[allephoria]

[If she could step any further back she would, but--no one had to see this. She keeps her hands close to her, trying to dismiss it.]

It's fine, the view is nice here too. I'll be alright, so you don't have to worry.

thanks! i'm sure i will.

[heartnotation]

[ those words did little to reassure him. wasn't that weird? no one would be caught standing there. what would happen if he continued to walk towards her? nothing, right? that's what he hoped for. ]

... It's been awhile since I've last spoken to you. [ might as well get that out of the way. he was thinking about her today. ]

[allephoria]

Oh, I suppose it has been. [Her tone is light and pleasant. Nope, nothing wrong here.]

[heartnotation]

Were you busy? [ now that he's a bit closer, he feels a bit at ease. ]

[allephoria]

[Her eyes are on the ground though, and she wonders--she doesn't want him, no anyone, to see this but. But those are all just fleeting thoughts, right? Feelings that won't last for more than thirteen hours, just like everything else.

It didn't matter.]

Kind of... I guess I've just been thinking a lot lately.

[heartnotation]

I see... Do you want to talk about it? [ he didn't feel like eating anymore, so the bread he brought along with him was sitting safely in his pocket at this point. ]

[allephoria]

[She shakes her head.] No, it's fi--[She stops herself. If this is the last time she'll talk to someone, why hold back?]

I don't. It won't even matter if I do. I'll forget all about it in the end.

[heartnotation]

Do you really mean that?

[ ... ] It matters to me, Shindou. And, even if you do end up forgetting everything [ over and over again. ], you have us, don't you?

[allephoria]

Of course I do. [said very matter-of-fact] For now, I suppose. Eventually you'll all become tired of having to deal with me anyways. It's just a matter of time.

[heartnotation]

... What brought this on? Did something happen? [ because they were perfectly fine the last time they talked, so this was like whiplash to him. ]

I can't speak for everyone, but I wouldn't get tired of you. I definitely won't.

[allephoria]

Everything did. How tired I am of this. It's all rather pointless in the end, don't you think?

You say that now, but you'll change. You're not stationary like me.

[heartnotation]

[ if he was in her shoes, would he agree? if he had a condition similar to hers, would he feel like she did at the moment? maybe it would be frustrating and maybe there will be days he wished he didn't have to go through something like that, but still... it never hurts to keep trying even if it is frustrating, right? ]

I don't think it's pointless. [ ... ] It's okay to be tired of it, but don't assume that everyone else will leave you behind because of something you can't control. Adding to that, you're my friend. Why would I ever get tired of my friends...?