strength, new chapter, squalor, death thoughts

[ilipodscrill]

i definitely got tired of this journal being all about my fucked, unfortunate circumstances. right before i got my new apartment i mentally turned a corner and realized "You are strong, and even though you have something in your brain that tells you that your way to handle things is almost always the "fucked up" way, you're actually handling all

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[amarama]

I'm glad you're here! I'm going to start inviting you out when I do errands and etc to just hang out in a homelike way. I need to find out what your work schedule is like these days. I was just going to invite you to go for a walk Saturday morning, but I think you're working--if you're not, I'll pick you up and maybe we can go to the Albany bulb?

In any case, let me know your work schedule. xoxoxo

[ilipodscrill]

i'm working a lot lately, but i'll check in w/ you on my schedule soon. working saturday, off sunday this weekend.

[crowjoy]

You are one of those people who always lights up a space, for whom mundane is never possible, and who just makes places interesting and beautiful without even trying. So if there's squalor, it's the coolest fucking squalor I've ever seen. :D

I'm glad you're getting settled love. I dreamed of you last night. Mqoq and Goodbadgirl were there too. Heh, with the time difference, I might have been dreaming of you while you were typing this. We are connected! I love you!

[ilipodscrill]

thanks, A. i love you, too.

[lizsybarite]

Crowjoy said it so well... you do light up every space I've had the all-too-rare opportunity to share with you. I'm proud to know ya. xoxoxo

[ilipodscrill]

thanx, liz.

a thought...

[chestertodd]

not sure if you have internet in your house - but i have an good pc that needs a home. was thinking it would be good for the lonely times. let me know - we'll figure out a way to transport it on an upcoming visit. xx glad you are settling in. looking forward to visiting the new homestead.

Re: a thought...

[ilipodscrill]

i don't have the internet yet, but that's a great offer, thanx.

[mqoq]

Baby Pete. There's no need to apologize, it's good that you share those feelings and I doubt there's one person among your friends who hasn't felt similarly at some point. I know the fuck I have.
As far as your new place goes, just give it time. Moving into any new place requires a period of adjustment and considering the circumstances you might be feeling a little leery of embracing it. You are a wonderful artist and I know in time it will reflect you in a beautiful way that expresses that perfectly. Can I have a snail mail addy to send housewarming prezzies?
I love you.
xox
M

[ilipodscrill]

thanx, Michelley. i'll give you my new addresses soon.