Too Late Part 2
Title: Too Late Part 2
Author: Ila Way!
Fandom: ZE:A
Pairing: HeeShik, KevShik, HeeWoo
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance/Angst? (a little)
Disclaimer: I don't own Heechul, Hyungshik, Kevin or any of ZE:A members but I do own the right to love them ;]
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Too Late Part 2
He look up to Kevin's eyes. There was so much to offer there. Kevin's eyes are warm, friendly, loving and honest. He caressed Kevin's cheek before kissing softly on his lips. Kevin seems happy, he thought. He move himself away from the other boy, Kevin's cock sliding out of him when get up. He smiled bitterly, "Kevin hyung, I want to clean up."
Kevin nodded, giving Hyungshik a hand, helping him into the bathroom where Hyungshik decided to take a deep soak in the bathtub. Kevin uses the shower and Hyungshik didn't seem to mind Kevin's eyes that keeps on staring at him. Hyungshik was too lost in his own thought. His eyes never leaving the water for a second. Kevin frowned when he saw Hyungshik's expressionless face. He thought Hyungshik would at least have some sort of reaction. Either freaked out realizing what just happened between them or happy that it happened. But what he sees are only emptiness in Hyungshik's face. It's like his sould has left his body to somewhere else. Kevin let out a sigh. Did he done the wrong decision?
Is it wrong to love Hyungshik?
Or is it wrong to make love to him?
He knew he love the boy. He had always do. But he never really know how Hyungshik feel about him. He never confessed, he never tell the younger but he does give hints here and there, hoping that Hyungshik would take it and understands. He just can't tell Hyungshik he loves him. Not when that bastard are always around whenever he thought he had the chance to. That Jung Heechul bastard. How come he always get the best? He is popular in school, he has fangirls and fanboys, he have money, he have power, he have looks, he have the voice and most importantly, he have Hyungshik.
Hyungshik is like everybody's little brother and lover. Everybody just want to be like him. The girls love him, the boys love him too and that's all because Hyungshik is such a sweet, innocent and cute boy. He get along with everybody well, always being so nice to the people around him. Kevin had never see Hyungshik got mad in public, because he always think about other people more than himself.
Only that lately, Hyungshik seemed to have change, little by little. After Heechul took him away from everybody else.
Kevin looked away from the sight. He looked into the mirror instead. Still, he saw Hyungshik's expressionless face, he still looking down to the tub, but mind somewhere else. Kevin feel the urge to confront Hyungshik so high but when he looked into his own reflection in the mirror, there were questions that hang in his head.
'Am I good enough for him?'
'What am I actually in his eyes?'
'Does he love me? Even just one bit?'
It was hard to ignore the questions. He knew he needed to know the answers for the questions but he knew too for a fact that maybe it's just better to never know the answer. Maybe he should just ignore them. Be oblivious of everything and just enjoy the moment, every single moment, every single seconds he spent with Hyungshik without questioning Hyungshik or himself or whether all of this are alright. Because even if it's not right, he wouldn't want to admit it. Kevin glanced back to Hyungshik. He still have that face on. He must be in deep thought, Kevin reminded himself. Slowly, really slowly, he walked to the bath tub, lean in to the boy lost in his thought and kissed the latter on his cheeks. That somehow brings Hyungshik back to life. When he kissed the boy, he smiled and Hyungshik replied it with shocked sparkling eyes, and then the small blush.
Hyungshik is just so cute, Kevin thought.
"Hyungshik, what are you thinking about?" asked Kevin. He knew he shouldn't ask but somehow that just went out. He didn't even think.
Hyungshik was hesitating to tell him but then he cleared his throat, avoiding his eyes from Kevin's, "Is... Is this okay?"
Kevin raised a brow, a hand caressing Hyungshik's cheek, "What is okay?"
Hyungshik leaned in to the touch. It feels good. Those little touches Kevin always gave him, always made him melt inside. It feels like he is truely loved and that feeling made Hyungshik happy. Kevin just smiled a little when Hyungshik didn't answer but leaned into his touch instead, enjoying it like a cat enjoying soft touches. Hyungshik closed his eyes and Kevin can see that Hyungshik feels relaxed like this. It made Kevin's heart flutter, heart beating faster. Being able to touch Hyungshik like this, had always been his dream ever since the first time his eyes laid on the younger boy. Only God knows just how much he loved Hyungshik.
There was a ring on the living room, Hyungshik's cellphone showing a familiar ID, Heechul.
Heechul sighed. It's the third time he called already. Why isn't Hyungshik answering? Is he studying? No, Hyungshik never left his cellphone even when he's studying. He always bring it everywhere. He kicked the rock he saw and rolled his eyes. If Hyungshik didn't pick up at the 5th time he call, he is so going to pay for it. Heechul smirked when he thinks about the punishment he would give to the younger when he sees him later. Oh, maybe now it's even better if Hyungshik didn't pick up. He would have so muchfun making Hyungshik feel sorry for not picking up later. Minwoo looked at the smirking Heechul from afar. He felt a pang in his heart. He knew Heechul's calling Hyungshik.
Hyungshik.
He always feel bad for being the guy Heechul cheated with on Hyungshik but he just couldn't control himself. Heechul is just so hard to resist. And he is so weak, he just couldn't fight his desire to be with Heechul. Even if that means, he's just a secret lover.
Even if Heechul only look at him when Hyungshik isn't there. He is so pathetic, he thought. A loser. But it doesn't matter to him. He would choose to be a loser if that means he'll get Heechul to look at him. At least Heechul noticed him. How funny this all works, he thought as he stared at Heechul, who's holding his cellphone close to his ear, still trying to get Hyungshik on line.
It was winter when he first met Heechul. He, Hyungshik, and Dongjun are playing a snow fight like little kids at the university's back garden. It was when Dongjun and Hyungshik playing a cheat game and tag teamed to gether to beat Minwoo out that Heechul happened just to be there. Minwoo was trying so hard to run away from the snow balls, laughing and that's when he tripped on his own shoelace and fell on the snow, luckily, but on his face, unluckily too. Someone gave a hand to him to help him out and he just took it, helping himself in the process. But when his eyes laid on the kind guy that lend his hand for him, his mind went blank for a second. The guy had the most seductive smile he ever saw, with a face so pretty, he thought he just saw an angel.
He was spazzing in his mind of how pretty this man is and how awesome and great and manly and just pure awesomeness he is until Heechul asked him, "Are you okay?"
Oh, the perfect moment, just like in the movies and Minwoo couldn't help to feel something tingle inside of him. And oh yes, he just fell in love, baby.
And that perfect moment is of course ruined by his friends that came running to him to check him out too whether he's okay or not.
Dongjun and Hyungshik just had to ruin this moment.
"Minwoo hyung, are you okay?"asked Hyungshik, a little scared that he might have be the one in fault for Minwoo's exclusive trip.
Dongjun laughed and Minwoo felt like kicking him right there and then but he erased the feeling to look at his saviour once again only to find that his saviour's eyes fixed at someone behind his back. He looked back and he knew, he could see that it was Hyungshik that he was looking at. Then he saw a little smile on the other's lips. That time he just knew, Hyungshik is stealing another heart again. And he was sad that it was Heechul's.
That time, he knew he wouldn't stand a chance.
He stood up, in between Heechul and his friends, with his hands spread in a protective way, "Yah, this one is mine!"
The statement made everyone shocked. Minwoo cursed himself in his head for letting his heart out. Shit, now they know that he likes this guy. There was silence for some good seconds and finally Minwoo's brain come up with a good idea to cover up what he just said, "Now it's two on two! You guys can't play cheat anymore!" Dongjun and Hyungshik let out and 'oh' expression and they smiled to the newcomer. Minwoo turned around to meet a set of beautiful awesome angelic devilish awesome eyes of his saviour and his heart just melted again. When Heechul smiled, Minwoo gave him his hand, "Hi! I'm Minwoo. Ha Minwoo."
He tried his best to give a good impression, to capture his heart, eventhough he knew this guy that later introduced himself as Jung Heechul will most probably never feel the same as what he's feeling right now.
And he's right when two weeks later, Heechul is officially with Hyungshik.
He is freaking jealous of Hyungshik. But he can't find any reason to hate his friend. Hyungshik was always nice to him and he admit that Hyungshik is just too cute to resist but he is cute too. He deserve Heechul's attention too, right?
Heechul walked away from his spot, placing his cellphone safely in his pocket after he failed again for the 5th time. He wonder where Hyungshik is right now and what is he doing as he walked back to Minwoo. Minwoo smiled to him and he smiled back, a teasing smile before he just walked pass the boy. Minwoo followed him, lacing his hand with Heechul's, demanding attention from the older boy. Heechul just ignored him, his mind went off to wonder where Hyungshik is. Minwoo decided to break the silence, "Heechul ah, can we go to the cafe?" Heechul spared him a look before he nodded. Minwoo smiled happily when he saw the approval. They went to the cafe they usually hang out together, taking the same spot everytime and Heechul just ordered cappucino while Minwoo settled with a piece of chocolate cake and chocolate smoothie.
"Are you free on this Saturday?" Minwoo asked, as he watched Heechul taking a sip from his cappucino.
"Hmm?"
Minwoo looked down a moment before repeating his question again, "Uhm, I asked, are you free this Saturday?"
Heechul looked at him, then he looked outside, "Kinda, yeah. If nothing comes up, I'm quite free."
Minwoo's face lit up with the answer. "Well then, can we go out this Saturday?"
Heechul averted his gaze back to the cheerful Minwoo, "Yeah, of course."
Hearing that, Minwoo just can't deny how happy he is. His happiness meter hits the spot up there and he is like 100% happy now.
He always asked Heechul out but he was never approved before. This is the first time Heechul said yes to his invitation and now he felt like exploding with happiness.
Then, Heechul's cellphone suddenly ring. Minwoo just didn't care who it was, he was just too happy to be bothered by it. Heechul pick it up though.
"Hello?"
"Heechul, do you have Kevin's number?" asked Taehun, in the line.
"Why would I have his number?" Heechul asked back, not interested.
"Well, since Hyungshik is so close to Kevin, I figured you'd have his number."
"Nope, I just don't find it necessary to have his number. Oh, wait, maybe Minwoo has it." Heechul looked at Minwoo and Minwoo nodded. "Yeah, I have it." Minwoo replied with a smile.
Another cellphone ringed at Kevin's apartment and this time it's Kevin's. Kevin ignored it, enjoying the moment as he started kissing Hyungshik back, first on the forehead, then the lips. Hyungshik kissed back and that brings a smile on Kevin's lips.
Carefully, he started kissing Hyungshik more and more, hand going down to Hyungshik's chest. A finger teased Hyungshik's skin and Hyungshik moaned, mouth open in the process. Kevin took the chance to slid his tongue in, heating the kiss. Hyungshik's hands find Kevin's back and they started to kiss again, feverishly.
It was then Kevin started to pull Hyungshik up softly, slowly guiding him to the shower area together with him, still kissing in the process. Hyungshik felt his body getting hot again at Kevin's touches and kisses. His breathing started to get messed up again and he didn't know whether he should stop Kevin or let him do whatever he please.
He didn't know if he is allowed to do this or not. He knew he wasn't supposed to allow Kevin to do all these things but didn't want Kevin to stop. He didn't want Kevin to hate him, he didn't want Kevin to feel bad for doing these and it seems that his body is liking it too. It's just his heart that wouldn't want to respond. No matter how hard he tried, it's still Heechul that keeps on appearing, not Kevin.
Even when Kevin pushed him softly against the wall. Even when Kevin is kissing his neck, loving every inch of his skin, spoiling it tenderly, lovingly. He loved those kisses, he loved those touches but it makes him feel guilty inside for cheating on Heechul like this.
Cheating on Heechul. Like this.
His senses lost it's excitement and anticipation for Kevin's touch when those words keeps on ringing in his head. Is this really a payback for what Heechul have done to him? He didn't know the answer.
Kevin in other hand is admiring Hyungshik's body again, his hands are all over the younger boy's slim body, his lips loving the skin of Hyungshik neck. Oh, he really want to suck those skin and left mark so much but he knew he shouldn't do that. Hyungshik might get mad. Frustrated not being able to mark Hyungshik, he let out his tongue to taste Hyungshik's milky white skin.
Hyungshik was a little shocked to feel the wet muscle tracing, licking his skin. He let out a soft moan, it started to feel so good again as Kevin's loving touch seemed to erase Heechul little by little from his mind.
Hyungshik lift Kevin's face up, guiding his lips to the other. They started kissing again. Kevin's hand wander lower, and when it found its prize, he gripped on it, making Hyungshik moan in anticipation. He started stroking the half awakened member slowly, melting Hyungshik into his palm.
They seperated for air and Hyungshik let out a needy moan, legs getting weaker by the second. "A-ah, Kevin hyung.." Oh, those moans, calling his name, sounded so beautiful when it comes from Hyungshik's mouth. Kevin speed up his strokes, thumbing the slit in between the strokes. Hyungshik started closing his eyes, wanting to feel of the attention Kevin is giving him but Kevin suddenly stopped. He let out a whimper and he opened his eyes to see what Kevin is doing. Kevin smiled and kissed him softly on the lips before he took Hyungshik's free hand to grip on his own now fully erect member. Hyungshik at first didn't get it but when Kevin bring his erected member close to Hyungshik's and wrap Hyungshik's hand aroung both of them, he started to wonder how this would feel like. Kevin too then wrapped a hand on their erections, long fingers touching the other.
Kevin started pumping in a sensuous way, making Hyungshik's wrapped hand pump in time together with him. Hyungshik moaned, "Ke-Kevin hyung... This feels..." Hyungshik's cheels started to reddened, he had never done this before and he feels kind of shy doing it but it feels good. Kevin just stared at Hyungshik into the eye and Hyungshik find it so embarassing but so turned on to stare back into Kevin's dark eyes. Not being able to take it anymore, Hyungshik closed their distant, cutting the lustful gaze Kevin is sending him with a kiss. They started to speed up their strokes and Hyungshik could feel the precum forming on the tips of their cock. The feeling is a bit weird, his hard cock pressed together with Kevin's while his hand and Kevin's stroking them together in unison. Oh, it feels weird but it feels damn good.
"Ungh." Hyungshik can feel the knot in his groin started to grow tighter. His length aching for release. This new sensation is turning him on and he started to feel the need of more friction, more of it so he strated to pump their erections faster, only to be halted by Kevin. He can feel Kevin's tongue licking his sensitive ear and then Kevin whispered, "Let me fuck you, Hyungshik." Hyungshik nodded at the words, and he felt Kevin's hand leaving their erections.
Kevin brought his hand up, touching Hyungshik's sexy pouty lips before pushing it on slowly. Hyungshik getting the hint, sucked on the two fingers, licking, lapping it, coating it with his saliva while his other hand still pump on their erections. Kevin felt so damn horny with the double stimulation and when he feels it's coated enough he pull his fingers out, bring it down to Hyungshik's entrance. He pushed the two digits in slowly, observing Hyungshik's facial reaction as he started to move it in and out slowly.
Hyungshik let out a breath, the two fingers inside of him are teasing him as they are preparing him.
"K-Kevin..."
Kevin pulled out his fingers and put his drooling cock on Hyungshik's entrance. He angles himself and when Hyungshik said he's ready, he pushed in, enjoying the heat and the heavenly pleasure of being inside of Hyungshik again. Hyungshik let out a long moan and when Kevin is fully seated, he lift Hyungshik's leg. Then he started to move when Hyungshik nodded to him, his face showing want and Kevin just couldn't resist that. It makes him horny when Hyungshik has that face on.
His pace started to grow faster as the tension gets higher. Hyungshik's brain melted and his legs weaken. His chest feels tight, he can't breathe properly. He threw his head back, mouth open to grab as much air as possible. It just feels damn good, it's so hard to breathe. Kevin was way beyond temptation when Hyungshik threw his head beck, exposing his sexy long neck, making him look even more sexy and seductive. Oh god, can he be any sexier? He just can't find anyone as sexy as Hyungshik and the fact that he's fucking Hyungshik made Kevin feel like he's in heaven.
Hyungshik's sweat started to wet his bangs and he moved them aside. When Kevin move even faster he had to grip on the older tighter, trying not to fall in the middle of this. Kevin feel his limit coming close and he started pumping Hyungshik's abandoned cock, making Hyungshik scream in pleasure. "Come on, baby." Hyungshik felt like he can't hold it anymore, Kevin's hard dick fucking him deliciously and his hand pumping him is just too much too handle. He called out Kevin's name in a chant and he cum, spilling everything he had on their stomach. Kevin soon cum too, not being able to hold it any longer.
They both slide down onto the floor, bodies still tangled to each other. Hyungshik's eyes are still closed and Kevin took the time to calm his breath before opening the tap. The shower helps in calming and cleaning them both. Hyungshik opened his eyes after a minute to look at Kevin. Kevin was smiling and he kissed Kevin again.
"Are you done yet?" asked Heechul, head getting heavy minute by minute. Minwoo pouted at the question, "Not yet, I still haven't finish the cake."
"Why are you so slow?" Heechul let out a sigh. His cup have been empty for 20 minutes now and Minwoo is still eating his cake slowly. Ah, he feels tired and bored and sleepy. He looked around, examining the details of the cafe boredly. Not many people are in cafe, most of the customers are couples, maybe in their date or something. The cafe gave a romantic feeling, the walls are soft pink with cute hearts decorations. The waitress are chatting to each other. They are wearing short pink frilly skirt with aprons, making them look like a cute little maids. Heechul thought that they looked pretty but that could never match Hyungshik though.
Ah, where is Hyungshik now? Realizing that he made Heechul wait, Minwoo ate the cake faster, "Heechul ah~ Open your mouth and help me finish this." Heechul's eyes went back to the younger boy. A spoonful of chocolate cake was presented in front of him. Not wanting to make a fuss of the little things, he just obeyed and open his mouth, letting Minwoo feed him. Minwoo was so happy when the cake went perfectly into Heechul's mouth. He smiled giddily, girlishly, enjoying feeding the older one. It feels like he's in love again.
Heechul's cell rings again. He looked at the caller ID and Taehun appears to be the one who's calling. Still chewing, he picked up the call, "Yeah?"
"Heechul, are you sure the number is right?" Taehun look up to the clock, it's almost late in the evening.
"I don't know. Is it, Minwoo?" Heechul shrugs. Minwoo nodded and answered, "Yeah, it's right. I called him with that number before."
"Minwoo said it's right."
Taehun sighed. He took a stack of paper with him. "But he wasn't answering. And I don't know where he lives. Can you give something to him?"
"What? I'm lazy. And plus, I don't like that kid." Heechul didn't like the idea of visiting or even seeing Kevin. He, does not like the older boy. Hyungshik is too attached to Kevin sometimes and Heechul hates that.
"Come on, Heechul. You need to do this or else our work will not be done. He should be the one in charge for the last part of the assignment and if we didn't get him to finish it, we're doomed." Taehun can already imagine their lecturer scolding them in anger, humiliating them in front of the class. Nope, he wouldn't want that because he's a cool guy and he knew that Heechul wouldn't want that too.
"Aish, okay then. Meet me up at the usual cafe I and Minwoo always hang." Heechul gave up. As much as he hate seeing Kevin, he hated public humiliation more. He's the university idol, okay? Of course he has to take care of his image.
"Will be there in 5 minutes." Taehun hung up after that and Heechul made a face. Which Minwoo thought is cute.
Hyungshik went to the living room, to pick up all the shattered clothes. He spot his jet black cellphone on the floor and he took it.
9 missed calls.
Hyungshik eyes went wide when he checked the caller ID. "Shit!" It was all Heechul's. He suddenly feel panic. He never had this much missed calls from Heechul. This is the first time. His heart raced. What if Heechul decided to leave him? What if he makes Heechul really mad this time? What if it was an emergency? What if...
A hand grab his shoulder. He jumped in shock. But the hand eased him and he let out a relieved breath when he remembers there's only him and Kevin in the house. Kevin slid a hand on his shoulder, "Are you okay?"
Hyungshik look up to him. "Uh, yeah."
"I see that you've been staring at your cell. Is there anything wrong?" Kevin asked. He squeezed Hyungshik's shoulder a little.
"Well, I just can't believe that it's already late in the evening. I have to go home now." Hyungshik smiled bitterly. He is doomed when he gets home. Now he just wished that Heechul isn't home yet.
"You have a curfew?" Kevin was a bit taken aback but he just think maybe Hyungshik's mom is over protective.
"Yeah, funny, right?" Hyungshik laughed a little, awkwardly.
Kevin just smiled at that and he kissed Hyungshik's cheek before leaving him alone to get dressed. "Well then, get dressed." he said. Hyungshik touched his cheeks and smiled again before his brain went back to the panic mode. He checked his phone again and is relieved to see there's no new message. He's freak out if he missed any of Heechul's message.
Kevin went into his own room and browse through his vast collection of clothes. He is not exactly a fashionista but he just loved to buy clothes. He laughed at himself remembering that he always have serious headache sometimes when he thinks so hard of what to wear everyday to classes just to impress Hyungshik. Hyungshik may seem like a simple person but he knew that Hyungshik always look at people from up to down, means that he cares about fashion and how people dressed. He continued on searching for what he should wear and he chose just a simple soft pink T-shirt. He knew Hyungshik loves pink. After he was fully dressed, he took his keys to go out.
Hyungshik quickly dress himself and tuck his cellphone in his pocket safely. He heard foot steps and keys clattering so he went to the door, not even bothering to look at Kevin. Kevin hugged him from the back playfully, making Hyungshik laugh. Then he let go and linked their hands together, Kevin leading the way to the elevator.
Taehun reach the cafe 5 minutes after he hang up the call. He went in and started searching for his friend. He spotted Heechul and Minwoo at the far left at the back. Heechul was laughing at Minwoo's jokes or story, he didn't know with their hands linked together on the table. Well, it's actually more of Minwoo holding Heechul's hand. He shakes his head in a dissaproving way. He knew all about Heechul's relationship with Hyungshik and Minwoo. He pity Hyungshik for having Heechul as his boyfriend. Poor Hyungshik. Hyungshik is so innocent, nice and loyal to begin with. So opposite to Heechul. But he can't do a thing about it, Heechul is his friend and he did give him his advice before, it's just that Heechul didn't want to listen at him.
He walked to the couple and handed the paper to Heechul. Heechul give him a cute unsatisfied pout and Minwoo laughed.
Heechul then whined about not wanting to go to meet Kevin or give him the papers because he hate that boy. Taehun just smiled and replied, "If you didn't give this to him then, Miss Kim is going to get very angry and we will most probably be scolded in front of the class." Heechul groaned at that. He knew Heechul would do it when he mentioned their lecturer's name. Their lecturer is really a devil spawn. She would scold anybody anytime whenever she likes it in anyway she likes it.
Heechul being the idol of the university of course have to take care of his image and being scolded publicly is so not cool and is going to bring shame to him. Taehun pat him on the shoulder, "I already did mine and your part, so it's only him that's left." Heechul let out another pout and Taehun just melt at that. No matter how bitchy, scary and crazy Heechul is sometimes, he just can't bring himself to hate him. And maybe that's how it works with everybody else too. Everybody always loved Heechul no matter how he acts.
Heechul walked away after a final goodbye wave to Taehun and Minwoo. He shrugged when he think back of how hard it is to seperate Minwoo from himself. Minwoo keep on insisting that he wanted to follow. He keep on holding onto him until he gave the younger one a glare. Then Minwoo let go but hesitantly with a dissapointed face. Thank god Taehun was there to help him to take the youngest of them back home.
He checked the paperworks Taehun did and he feels like puking at the amount of words in the paper. The assignment is so long to him and is kinda thick too. He is really thankful that Taehun helped him with his part. It would suck to have to write this all by himself. He has never been the one to do assignments, it's always Taehun who helped him. He looked around to make sure that he's taking the right way to Kevin's apartment. When he spot the building he is sure that he's right but then he saw something that made him stop at his track.
Hyungshik. And Kevin. Holding hands together. Happily. Like a pair of lovers.
The words came up to him one by one. And he stayed at his spot, watching them.
"Are you sure you don't want me to send you off at your door?" Kevin was dissapointed not being able to walk Hyungshik home.
Hyungshik look at Kevin guiltily, "Yeah. Not this time. Maybe next time. I have to think. By myself on my way home." The truth is he never tell Kevin that he had already moved in to Heechul's apartment. And he just didn't want Kevin to know yet. He doesn't think Kevin is ready for it.
"Okay then." Kevin kissed Hyungshik on the lips softly, lovingly. He the hugged the younger, "No matter what your conclusion is and what ever you come up with later, just... don't abandon me."
Hyungshik felt like his heart is being stabbed by knives at those words. He looked down guiltily. Kevin let go of the him and saw Hyungshik's guilty face. He lift Hyungshik's face up so that their eyes met and continued, "It's okay. Don't feel guilty about it. I know and still I choose this. None of this is your fault, okay? I'm the one who wanted this." Hyungshik just stared, without a word and Kevin kissed him again. "I love you, Park Hyungshik. No matter what happens, I will always do."
Heechul's fingers curled into a fist after the second kiss. "Oh, so this is why he didn't answer." His body started to feel hot. He was angry and there was some weird emotions are inside of him but he didn't know what it is. He looked away, not being able to watch this further and walk away. He'll just come back when this finishes. He kicked the can on the road and fuck, did he just imagine that it's Kevin's head?
After waving Kevin a cheerful goodbye, Hyungshik walk his way back home. His head was in a total mess. He... wanted to punch Heechul, yell at him, throw pillows and stuff at him for cheating behind his back but as much as he want to do that, now he is more weighed about his own act behind Heechul's back. He didn't know what to do. Should he tell Heechul or should he not? Of course he can say that it was a payback for Heechul's act but he just can't stand seeing Heechul's heart got broken by him. He sighed, why is this so hard? And why did he do all those things with Kevin? He can't seem to find the answer.
He... don't want to hurt Heechul's feeling.
He knew he is stupid for that but he just can't help it. He just loved Heechul too much. Now how to solve all this?
Maybe he should just pretended like he never saw Heechul with Minwoo and he'll pretend like his moments with Kevin never happen. At least for now. Until he get the solution.
After a long walk, Heechul went back to Kevin's apartment. He had been thinking and Kevin will get off this time, he decided to hear from Hyungshik first. He rings Kevin's door and Kevin opened the door with a hopeful face. Heechul feels disgusted at Kevin's look. He must have thought he's Hyungshik. Kevin's expression however turned to his normal expression then to the expression of seeing him. The look that says 'I hate you but I can't say that on your face'. Heechul smirked when he saw that look. The feeling is mutual. "Yah! Why don't you answer your call? It's tiring to send this to you." Kevin made a face and Heechul just shoved the papers to Kevin's chest, "Don't have to answer. Don't need your excuse. I'm going now."
Heechul turned around and left. His anger started to boil again every second he saw Kevin so he had to go before something happens. Kevin feels so pissed with Heechul's acts, he feel like shouting at Heechul now that he had just fuck Heechul's boyfriend and there's nothing Heechul can do about it but he know that it's really not a good idea. He wouldn't want Hyungshik to involve in trouble. "That son of a bitch. Tch, doesn't even know how to respect his hyungs."
Every seconds ticked by, fueled Heechul's anger into a wrath. He feels like going back and punch Kevin, the beat him into a pulp but his pride just wouldn't allow it. He didn't understand it himself but it's so frustrating so he ran. He ran all the way back home.
About 10 minutes later, he reached home. He opened the door, and took his shoes off quickly. His breathing was fast, he was panting and sweating. He spot Hyungshik sitting on the couch in the living room. Hyungshik was staring at the red table on the center of the room, probably day dreaming or maybe thinking about something but he didn't care. He walked to him and yanked him off the couch with a force. Hyungshik was shocked when he was suddenly yanked off the couch and out of his mind. Heechul dragged him to their shared bedroom. At first Hyungshik protested a bit but then he just followed, though a bit hesitant. When they're are in their bedroom, Heechul push the younger onto the bed and locked the door. He can feel his anger inside but he tried his best to calm down and not show it to his lover.
Hyungshik was confused and a little scared with the sudden harsh treatment from his boyfriend. He looked at Heechul's back.
Heechul was breathing harshly and it looked like he's been in a marathon or something. "Heechul?" Heechul turned around with a smirk. His eyes met with a pair of now scared eyes of Hyungshik. Hyungshik wanted to ask, if there's anything wrong and why he's acting like that but no words could come out of his mouth when he opened them. "H-Heechul?" All that he could said was only his boyfriend's name and Heechul walked closer to him.
"Hyungshik, it's... time to do a body check up." Heechul's voice was deep but somehow it's a little different from Heechul's usual deep voice. Hyungshik's eyes went wide hearing that and he started to get really scared, his brain started to go into panic mode.
"W-what?" he asked, not wanting to believe what he just heard. Heechul took a step closer, "I said... it's time to do a check up."
Hyungshik mentally cursed. Shit, if Heechul is really going to do what he said he would, he would know about what happened earlier. The panic was even more visible in Hyungshik's face now. Heechul's smirk grew. So, Hyungshik does have something to hide, doesn't he? Is it a lovebite? Marks somewhere? Or... did he...
Heechul wasn't very happy when his brain started opening up all possibilities to him. When it went to that, his smirk fades and he started to strip Hyungshik out. Hyungshik was scared to the core, he didn't know what to do but he did protest a bit. He tried to push Heechul away, "H-Heechul-ah!" Heechul glared at him and his words died. "Shut up and just obey me." Heechul hissed, deep in commanding tone. He can feel his anger boiling seconds by seconds.
Hyungshik knew better to not anger his lover but he was so scared of Heechul knowing he felt like crying. Soon, Hyungshik was topless. Heechul inspected his lover's body. Even more carefully at the sensitive parts. Hyungshik feels like his body is being raped by Heechul's eyes.
No marks, good. Heechul thought. But what about the other side? Just thinking about what he could find makes his anger boils even higher.
Not being able to fully control his anger, he just yanked Hyungshik's pants along with his boxer after unzipping and unbottoning it. Hyungshik was fully naked in front of his eyes and he can see that there Hyungshik's hips are a little red. Even though it's just little, he could notice it. He knew Hyungshik's body like he his own. Hyungshik was beyond panic when he was stripped fully out of his clothing. The cold air hit his body mercilessly. He was so scared and his eyes started to become teary. Heechul lift his leg up. Hyungshik's eyes went even more wider when Heechul did that and his breath hitched when Heechul shoved two of his fingers inside. His tears fell.
Heechul's suspicion was proven right when he shoved his fingers in. Hyungshik's walls were wet and Hyungshik's sharp gasp confirmed the little pain he always had afterwards whenever they have sex. Heechul couldn't believe it. He took out his fingers
slowly, carefully looking at the white liquid that went out with it, coating his fingers with it. Even though there are only traces left, Heechul knew what its perfectly. Hyungshik, not knowing what to say or how to defend himself started crying. Heechul brought his wet fingers up and glared at Hyungshik, his jaws clenching. His angry eyes met again with Hyungshik's now scared and teary eyes. Hyungshik really didn't know what to do, his tears kept on falling.
He was beyond scared. He was so scared, he can't even think.
Not being able to look into his lover's eyes anymore, he broke his glare and looked away. His anger are taking control of him. Not wanting to hurt his lover, he step up and out of the room, leaving the crying Hyungshik. He didn't even spare a glance to his lover before exiting the room, not even spare any time to take his coat or sweater.
Hyungshik heard a loud bang. Means that Heechul went out. He pull his legs to his chest and cried.
Heechul knew.
His heart ached. And that just fucking hurts.
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A/N: Whoaaa TT_TT I want to cry when my laptop suddenly died after I updated the story sooo much dfsadvhvasjbvfh just because my charger is being a complete bitch. I didn't put on the battery that time so when it died, ahhh everything is just.. gone like that. The pain of using notepad and not Words. Dang. This should be longer but ahh I can't remember what did I write before
so... I'm sorry if this sucks =[
This is starting to get really long Dx means there will be more chapters. ahh, I'm so sorry for that.
My exam starts Monday next week. This is my final exam for my final semester. WISH ME LUCK!!!! TT_TT
BTW updates will only be written AFTER my exams ended. TT-TT
Means I'm in HIATUS for now Dx
Author: Ila Way!
Fandom: ZE:A
Pairing: HeeShik, KevShik, HeeWoo
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance/Angst? (a little)
Disclaimer: I don't own Heechul, Hyungshik, Kevin or any of ZE:A members but I do own the right to love them ;]
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Too Late Part 2
He look up to Kevin's eyes. There was so much to offer there. Kevin's eyes are warm, friendly, loving and honest. He caressed Kevin's cheek before kissing softly on his lips. Kevin seems happy, he thought. He move himself away from the other boy, Kevin's cock sliding out of him when get up. He smiled bitterly, "Kevin hyung, I want to clean up."
Kevin nodded, giving Hyungshik a hand, helping him into the bathroom where Hyungshik decided to take a deep soak in the bathtub. Kevin uses the shower and Hyungshik didn't seem to mind Kevin's eyes that keeps on staring at him. Hyungshik was too lost in his own thought. His eyes never leaving the water for a second. Kevin frowned when he saw Hyungshik's expressionless face. He thought Hyungshik would at least have some sort of reaction. Either freaked out realizing what just happened between them or happy that it happened. But what he sees are only emptiness in Hyungshik's face. It's like his sould has left his body to somewhere else. Kevin let out a sigh. Did he done the wrong decision?
Is it wrong to love Hyungshik?
Or is it wrong to make love to him?
He knew he love the boy. He had always do. But he never really know how Hyungshik feel about him. He never confessed, he never tell the younger but he does give hints here and there, hoping that Hyungshik would take it and understands. He just can't tell Hyungshik he loves him. Not when that bastard are always around whenever he thought he had the chance to. That Jung Heechul bastard. How come he always get the best? He is popular in school, he has fangirls and fanboys, he have money, he have power, he have looks, he have the voice and most importantly, he have Hyungshik.
Hyungshik is like everybody's little brother and lover. Everybody just want to be like him. The girls love him, the boys love him too and that's all because Hyungshik is such a sweet, innocent and cute boy. He get along with everybody well, always being so nice to the people around him. Kevin had never see Hyungshik got mad in public, because he always think about other people more than himself.
Only that lately, Hyungshik seemed to have change, little by little. After Heechul took him away from everybody else.
Kevin looked away from the sight. He looked into the mirror instead. Still, he saw Hyungshik's expressionless face, he still looking down to the tub, but mind somewhere else. Kevin feel the urge to confront Hyungshik so high but when he looked into his own reflection in the mirror, there were questions that hang in his head.
'Am I good enough for him?'
'What am I actually in his eyes?'
'Does he love me? Even just one bit?'
It was hard to ignore the questions. He knew he needed to know the answers for the questions but he knew too for a fact that maybe it's just better to never know the answer. Maybe he should just ignore them. Be oblivious of everything and just enjoy the moment, every single moment, every single seconds he spent with Hyungshik without questioning Hyungshik or himself or whether all of this are alright. Because even if it's not right, he wouldn't want to admit it. Kevin glanced back to Hyungshik. He still have that face on. He must be in deep thought, Kevin reminded himself. Slowly, really slowly, he walked to the bath tub, lean in to the boy lost in his thought and kissed the latter on his cheeks. That somehow brings Hyungshik back to life. When he kissed the boy, he smiled and Hyungshik replied it with shocked sparkling eyes, and then the small blush.
Hyungshik is just so cute, Kevin thought.
"Hyungshik, what are you thinking about?" asked Kevin. He knew he shouldn't ask but somehow that just went out. He didn't even think.
Hyungshik was hesitating to tell him but then he cleared his throat, avoiding his eyes from Kevin's, "Is... Is this okay?"
Kevin raised a brow, a hand caressing Hyungshik's cheek, "What is okay?"
Hyungshik leaned in to the touch. It feels good. Those little touches Kevin always gave him, always made him melt inside. It feels like he is truely loved and that feeling made Hyungshik happy. Kevin just smiled a little when Hyungshik didn't answer but leaned into his touch instead, enjoying it like a cat enjoying soft touches. Hyungshik closed his eyes and Kevin can see that Hyungshik feels relaxed like this. It made Kevin's heart flutter, heart beating faster. Being able to touch Hyungshik like this, had always been his dream ever since the first time his eyes laid on the younger boy. Only God knows just how much he loved Hyungshik.
There was a ring on the living room, Hyungshik's cellphone showing a familiar ID, Heechul.
Heechul sighed. It's the third time he called already. Why isn't Hyungshik answering? Is he studying? No, Hyungshik never left his cellphone even when he's studying. He always bring it everywhere. He kicked the rock he saw and rolled his eyes. If Hyungshik didn't pick up at the 5th time he call, he is so going to pay for it. Heechul smirked when he thinks about the punishment he would give to the younger when he sees him later. Oh, maybe now it's even better if Hyungshik didn't pick up. He would have so muchfun making Hyungshik feel sorry for not picking up later. Minwoo looked at the smirking Heechul from afar. He felt a pang in his heart. He knew Heechul's calling Hyungshik.
Hyungshik.
He always feel bad for being the guy Heechul cheated with on Hyungshik but he just couldn't control himself. Heechul is just so hard to resist. And he is so weak, he just couldn't fight his desire to be with Heechul. Even if that means, he's just a secret lover.
Even if Heechul only look at him when Hyungshik isn't there. He is so pathetic, he thought. A loser. But it doesn't matter to him. He would choose to be a loser if that means he'll get Heechul to look at him. At least Heechul noticed him. How funny this all works, he thought as he stared at Heechul, who's holding his cellphone close to his ear, still trying to get Hyungshik on line.
It was winter when he first met Heechul. He, Hyungshik, and Dongjun are playing a snow fight like little kids at the university's back garden. It was when Dongjun and Hyungshik playing a cheat game and tag teamed to gether to beat Minwoo out that Heechul happened just to be there. Minwoo was trying so hard to run away from the snow balls, laughing and that's when he tripped on his own shoelace and fell on the snow, luckily, but on his face, unluckily too. Someone gave a hand to him to help him out and he just took it, helping himself in the process. But when his eyes laid on the kind guy that lend his hand for him, his mind went blank for a second. The guy had the most seductive smile he ever saw, with a face so pretty, he thought he just saw an angel.
He was spazzing in his mind of how pretty this man is and how awesome and great and manly and just pure awesomeness he is until Heechul asked him, "Are you okay?"
Oh, the perfect moment, just like in the movies and Minwoo couldn't help to feel something tingle inside of him. And oh yes, he just fell in love, baby.
And that perfect moment is of course ruined by his friends that came running to him to check him out too whether he's okay or not.
Dongjun and Hyungshik just had to ruin this moment.
"Minwoo hyung, are you okay?"asked Hyungshik, a little scared that he might have be the one in fault for Minwoo's exclusive trip.
Dongjun laughed and Minwoo felt like kicking him right there and then but he erased the feeling to look at his saviour once again only to find that his saviour's eyes fixed at someone behind his back. He looked back and he knew, he could see that it was Hyungshik that he was looking at. Then he saw a little smile on the other's lips. That time he just knew, Hyungshik is stealing another heart again. And he was sad that it was Heechul's.
That time, he knew he wouldn't stand a chance.
He stood up, in between Heechul and his friends, with his hands spread in a protective way, "Yah, this one is mine!"
The statement made everyone shocked. Minwoo cursed himself in his head for letting his heart out. Shit, now they know that he likes this guy. There was silence for some good seconds and finally Minwoo's brain come up with a good idea to cover up what he just said, "Now it's two on two! You guys can't play cheat anymore!" Dongjun and Hyungshik let out and 'oh' expression and they smiled to the newcomer. Minwoo turned around to meet a set of beautiful awesome angelic devilish awesome eyes of his saviour and his heart just melted again. When Heechul smiled, Minwoo gave him his hand, "Hi! I'm Minwoo. Ha Minwoo."
He tried his best to give a good impression, to capture his heart, eventhough he knew this guy that later introduced himself as Jung Heechul will most probably never feel the same as what he's feeling right now.
And he's right when two weeks later, Heechul is officially with Hyungshik.
He is freaking jealous of Hyungshik. But he can't find any reason to hate his friend. Hyungshik was always nice to him and he admit that Hyungshik is just too cute to resist but he is cute too. He deserve Heechul's attention too, right?
Heechul walked away from his spot, placing his cellphone safely in his pocket after he failed again for the 5th time. He wonder where Hyungshik is right now and what is he doing as he walked back to Minwoo. Minwoo smiled to him and he smiled back, a teasing smile before he just walked pass the boy. Minwoo followed him, lacing his hand with Heechul's, demanding attention from the older boy. Heechul just ignored him, his mind went off to wonder where Hyungshik is. Minwoo decided to break the silence, "Heechul ah, can we go to the cafe?" Heechul spared him a look before he nodded. Minwoo smiled happily when he saw the approval. They went to the cafe they usually hang out together, taking the same spot everytime and Heechul just ordered cappucino while Minwoo settled with a piece of chocolate cake and chocolate smoothie.
"Are you free on this Saturday?" Minwoo asked, as he watched Heechul taking a sip from his cappucino.
"Hmm?"
Minwoo looked down a moment before repeating his question again, "Uhm, I asked, are you free this Saturday?"
Heechul looked at him, then he looked outside, "Kinda, yeah. If nothing comes up, I'm quite free."
Minwoo's face lit up with the answer. "Well then, can we go out this Saturday?"
Heechul averted his gaze back to the cheerful Minwoo, "Yeah, of course."
Hearing that, Minwoo just can't deny how happy he is. His happiness meter hits the spot up there and he is like 100% happy now.
He always asked Heechul out but he was never approved before. This is the first time Heechul said yes to his invitation and now he felt like exploding with happiness.
Then, Heechul's cellphone suddenly ring. Minwoo just didn't care who it was, he was just too happy to be bothered by it. Heechul pick it up though.
"Hello?"
"Heechul, do you have Kevin's number?" asked Taehun, in the line.
"Why would I have his number?" Heechul asked back, not interested.
"Well, since Hyungshik is so close to Kevin, I figured you'd have his number."
"Nope, I just don't find it necessary to have his number. Oh, wait, maybe Minwoo has it." Heechul looked at Minwoo and Minwoo nodded. "Yeah, I have it." Minwoo replied with a smile.
Another cellphone ringed at Kevin's apartment and this time it's Kevin's. Kevin ignored it, enjoying the moment as he started kissing Hyungshik back, first on the forehead, then the lips. Hyungshik kissed back and that brings a smile on Kevin's lips.
Carefully, he started kissing Hyungshik more and more, hand going down to Hyungshik's chest. A finger teased Hyungshik's skin and Hyungshik moaned, mouth open in the process. Kevin took the chance to slid his tongue in, heating the kiss. Hyungshik's hands find Kevin's back and they started to kiss again, feverishly.
It was then Kevin started to pull Hyungshik up softly, slowly guiding him to the shower area together with him, still kissing in the process. Hyungshik felt his body getting hot again at Kevin's touches and kisses. His breathing started to get messed up again and he didn't know whether he should stop Kevin or let him do whatever he please.
He didn't know if he is allowed to do this or not. He knew he wasn't supposed to allow Kevin to do all these things but didn't want Kevin to stop. He didn't want Kevin to hate him, he didn't want Kevin to feel bad for doing these and it seems that his body is liking it too. It's just his heart that wouldn't want to respond. No matter how hard he tried, it's still Heechul that keeps on appearing, not Kevin.
Even when Kevin pushed him softly against the wall. Even when Kevin is kissing his neck, loving every inch of his skin, spoiling it tenderly, lovingly. He loved those kisses, he loved those touches but it makes him feel guilty inside for cheating on Heechul like this.
Cheating on Heechul. Like this.
His senses lost it's excitement and anticipation for Kevin's touch when those words keeps on ringing in his head. Is this really a payback for what Heechul have done to him? He didn't know the answer.
Kevin in other hand is admiring Hyungshik's body again, his hands are all over the younger boy's slim body, his lips loving the skin of Hyungshik neck. Oh, he really want to suck those skin and left mark so much but he knew he shouldn't do that. Hyungshik might get mad. Frustrated not being able to mark Hyungshik, he let out his tongue to taste Hyungshik's milky white skin.
Hyungshik was a little shocked to feel the wet muscle tracing, licking his skin. He let out a soft moan, it started to feel so good again as Kevin's loving touch seemed to erase Heechul little by little from his mind.
Hyungshik lift Kevin's face up, guiding his lips to the other. They started kissing again. Kevin's hand wander lower, and when it found its prize, he gripped on it, making Hyungshik moan in anticipation. He started stroking the half awakened member slowly, melting Hyungshik into his palm.
They seperated for air and Hyungshik let out a needy moan, legs getting weaker by the second. "A-ah, Kevin hyung.." Oh, those moans, calling his name, sounded so beautiful when it comes from Hyungshik's mouth. Kevin speed up his strokes, thumbing the slit in between the strokes. Hyungshik started closing his eyes, wanting to feel of the attention Kevin is giving him but Kevin suddenly stopped. He let out a whimper and he opened his eyes to see what Kevin is doing. Kevin smiled and kissed him softly on the lips before he took Hyungshik's free hand to grip on his own now fully erect member. Hyungshik at first didn't get it but when Kevin bring his erected member close to Hyungshik's and wrap Hyungshik's hand aroung both of them, he started to wonder how this would feel like. Kevin too then wrapped a hand on their erections, long fingers touching the other.
Kevin started pumping in a sensuous way, making Hyungshik's wrapped hand pump in time together with him. Hyungshik moaned, "Ke-Kevin hyung... This feels..." Hyungshik's cheels started to reddened, he had never done this before and he feels kind of shy doing it but it feels good. Kevin just stared at Hyungshik into the eye and Hyungshik find it so embarassing but so turned on to stare back into Kevin's dark eyes. Not being able to take it anymore, Hyungshik closed their distant, cutting the lustful gaze Kevin is sending him with a kiss. They started to speed up their strokes and Hyungshik could feel the precum forming on the tips of their cock. The feeling is a bit weird, his hard cock pressed together with Kevin's while his hand and Kevin's stroking them together in unison. Oh, it feels weird but it feels damn good.
"Ungh." Hyungshik can feel the knot in his groin started to grow tighter. His length aching for release. This new sensation is turning him on and he started to feel the need of more friction, more of it so he strated to pump their erections faster, only to be halted by Kevin. He can feel Kevin's tongue licking his sensitive ear and then Kevin whispered, "Let me fuck you, Hyungshik." Hyungshik nodded at the words, and he felt Kevin's hand leaving their erections.
Kevin brought his hand up, touching Hyungshik's sexy pouty lips before pushing it on slowly. Hyungshik getting the hint, sucked on the two fingers, licking, lapping it, coating it with his saliva while his other hand still pump on their erections. Kevin felt so damn horny with the double stimulation and when he feels it's coated enough he pull his fingers out, bring it down to Hyungshik's entrance. He pushed the two digits in slowly, observing Hyungshik's facial reaction as he started to move it in and out slowly.
Hyungshik let out a breath, the two fingers inside of him are teasing him as they are preparing him.
"K-Kevin..."
Kevin pulled out his fingers and put his drooling cock on Hyungshik's entrance. He angles himself and when Hyungshik said he's ready, he pushed in, enjoying the heat and the heavenly pleasure of being inside of Hyungshik again. Hyungshik let out a long moan and when Kevin is fully seated, he lift Hyungshik's leg. Then he started to move when Hyungshik nodded to him, his face showing want and Kevin just couldn't resist that. It makes him horny when Hyungshik has that face on.
His pace started to grow faster as the tension gets higher. Hyungshik's brain melted and his legs weaken. His chest feels tight, he can't breathe properly. He threw his head back, mouth open to grab as much air as possible. It just feels damn good, it's so hard to breathe. Kevin was way beyond temptation when Hyungshik threw his head beck, exposing his sexy long neck, making him look even more sexy and seductive. Oh god, can he be any sexier? He just can't find anyone as sexy as Hyungshik and the fact that he's fucking Hyungshik made Kevin feel like he's in heaven.
Hyungshik's sweat started to wet his bangs and he moved them aside. When Kevin move even faster he had to grip on the older tighter, trying not to fall in the middle of this. Kevin feel his limit coming close and he started pumping Hyungshik's abandoned cock, making Hyungshik scream in pleasure. "Come on, baby." Hyungshik felt like he can't hold it anymore, Kevin's hard dick fucking him deliciously and his hand pumping him is just too much too handle. He called out Kevin's name in a chant and he cum, spilling everything he had on their stomach. Kevin soon cum too, not being able to hold it any longer.
They both slide down onto the floor, bodies still tangled to each other. Hyungshik's eyes are still closed and Kevin took the time to calm his breath before opening the tap. The shower helps in calming and cleaning them both. Hyungshik opened his eyes after a minute to look at Kevin. Kevin was smiling and he kissed Kevin again.
"Are you done yet?" asked Heechul, head getting heavy minute by minute. Minwoo pouted at the question, "Not yet, I still haven't finish the cake."
"Why are you so slow?" Heechul let out a sigh. His cup have been empty for 20 minutes now and Minwoo is still eating his cake slowly. Ah, he feels tired and bored and sleepy. He looked around, examining the details of the cafe boredly. Not many people are in cafe, most of the customers are couples, maybe in their date or something. The cafe gave a romantic feeling, the walls are soft pink with cute hearts decorations. The waitress are chatting to each other. They are wearing short pink frilly skirt with aprons, making them look like a cute little maids. Heechul thought that they looked pretty but that could never match Hyungshik though.
Ah, where is Hyungshik now? Realizing that he made Heechul wait, Minwoo ate the cake faster, "Heechul ah~ Open your mouth and help me finish this." Heechul's eyes went back to the younger boy. A spoonful of chocolate cake was presented in front of him. Not wanting to make a fuss of the little things, he just obeyed and open his mouth, letting Minwoo feed him. Minwoo was so happy when the cake went perfectly into Heechul's mouth. He smiled giddily, girlishly, enjoying feeding the older one. It feels like he's in love again.
Heechul's cell rings again. He looked at the caller ID and Taehun appears to be the one who's calling. Still chewing, he picked up the call, "Yeah?"
"Heechul, are you sure the number is right?" Taehun look up to the clock, it's almost late in the evening.
"I don't know. Is it, Minwoo?" Heechul shrugs. Minwoo nodded and answered, "Yeah, it's right. I called him with that number before."
"Minwoo said it's right."
Taehun sighed. He took a stack of paper with him. "But he wasn't answering. And I don't know where he lives. Can you give something to him?"
"What? I'm lazy. And plus, I don't like that kid." Heechul didn't like the idea of visiting or even seeing Kevin. He, does not like the older boy. Hyungshik is too attached to Kevin sometimes and Heechul hates that.
"Come on, Heechul. You need to do this or else our work will not be done. He should be the one in charge for the last part of the assignment and if we didn't get him to finish it, we're doomed." Taehun can already imagine their lecturer scolding them in anger, humiliating them in front of the class. Nope, he wouldn't want that because he's a cool guy and he knew that Heechul wouldn't want that too.
"Aish, okay then. Meet me up at the usual cafe I and Minwoo always hang." Heechul gave up. As much as he hate seeing Kevin, he hated public humiliation more. He's the university idol, okay? Of course he has to take care of his image.
"Will be there in 5 minutes." Taehun hung up after that and Heechul made a face. Which Minwoo thought is cute.
Hyungshik went to the living room, to pick up all the shattered clothes. He spot his jet black cellphone on the floor and he took it.
9 missed calls.
Hyungshik eyes went wide when he checked the caller ID. "Shit!" It was all Heechul's. He suddenly feel panic. He never had this much missed calls from Heechul. This is the first time. His heart raced. What if Heechul decided to leave him? What if he makes Heechul really mad this time? What if it was an emergency? What if...
A hand grab his shoulder. He jumped in shock. But the hand eased him and he let out a relieved breath when he remembers there's only him and Kevin in the house. Kevin slid a hand on his shoulder, "Are you okay?"
Hyungshik look up to him. "Uh, yeah."
"I see that you've been staring at your cell. Is there anything wrong?" Kevin asked. He squeezed Hyungshik's shoulder a little.
"Well, I just can't believe that it's already late in the evening. I have to go home now." Hyungshik smiled bitterly. He is doomed when he gets home. Now he just wished that Heechul isn't home yet.
"You have a curfew?" Kevin was a bit taken aback but he just think maybe Hyungshik's mom is over protective.
"Yeah, funny, right?" Hyungshik laughed a little, awkwardly.
Kevin just smiled at that and he kissed Hyungshik's cheek before leaving him alone to get dressed. "Well then, get dressed." he said. Hyungshik touched his cheeks and smiled again before his brain went back to the panic mode. He checked his phone again and is relieved to see there's no new message. He's freak out if he missed any of Heechul's message.
Kevin went into his own room and browse through his vast collection of clothes. He is not exactly a fashionista but he just loved to buy clothes. He laughed at himself remembering that he always have serious headache sometimes when he thinks so hard of what to wear everyday to classes just to impress Hyungshik. Hyungshik may seem like a simple person but he knew that Hyungshik always look at people from up to down, means that he cares about fashion and how people dressed. He continued on searching for what he should wear and he chose just a simple soft pink T-shirt. He knew Hyungshik loves pink. After he was fully dressed, he took his keys to go out.
Hyungshik quickly dress himself and tuck his cellphone in his pocket safely. He heard foot steps and keys clattering so he went to the door, not even bothering to look at Kevin. Kevin hugged him from the back playfully, making Hyungshik laugh. Then he let go and linked their hands together, Kevin leading the way to the elevator.
Taehun reach the cafe 5 minutes after he hang up the call. He went in and started searching for his friend. He spotted Heechul and Minwoo at the far left at the back. Heechul was laughing at Minwoo's jokes or story, he didn't know with their hands linked together on the table. Well, it's actually more of Minwoo holding Heechul's hand. He shakes his head in a dissaproving way. He knew all about Heechul's relationship with Hyungshik and Minwoo. He pity Hyungshik for having Heechul as his boyfriend. Poor Hyungshik. Hyungshik is so innocent, nice and loyal to begin with. So opposite to Heechul. But he can't do a thing about it, Heechul is his friend and he did give him his advice before, it's just that Heechul didn't want to listen at him.
He walked to the couple and handed the paper to Heechul. Heechul give him a cute unsatisfied pout and Minwoo laughed.
Heechul then whined about not wanting to go to meet Kevin or give him the papers because he hate that boy. Taehun just smiled and replied, "If you didn't give this to him then, Miss Kim is going to get very angry and we will most probably be scolded in front of the class." Heechul groaned at that. He knew Heechul would do it when he mentioned their lecturer's name. Their lecturer is really a devil spawn. She would scold anybody anytime whenever she likes it in anyway she likes it.
Heechul being the idol of the university of course have to take care of his image and being scolded publicly is so not cool and is going to bring shame to him. Taehun pat him on the shoulder, "I already did mine and your part, so it's only him that's left." Heechul let out another pout and Taehun just melt at that. No matter how bitchy, scary and crazy Heechul is sometimes, he just can't bring himself to hate him. And maybe that's how it works with everybody else too. Everybody always loved Heechul no matter how he acts.
Heechul walked away after a final goodbye wave to Taehun and Minwoo. He shrugged when he think back of how hard it is to seperate Minwoo from himself. Minwoo keep on insisting that he wanted to follow. He keep on holding onto him until he gave the younger one a glare. Then Minwoo let go but hesitantly with a dissapointed face. Thank god Taehun was there to help him to take the youngest of them back home.
He checked the paperworks Taehun did and he feels like puking at the amount of words in the paper. The assignment is so long to him and is kinda thick too. He is really thankful that Taehun helped him with his part. It would suck to have to write this all by himself. He has never been the one to do assignments, it's always Taehun who helped him. He looked around to make sure that he's taking the right way to Kevin's apartment. When he spot the building he is sure that he's right but then he saw something that made him stop at his track.
Hyungshik. And Kevin. Holding hands together. Happily. Like a pair of lovers.
The words came up to him one by one. And he stayed at his spot, watching them.
"Are you sure you don't want me to send you off at your door?" Kevin was dissapointed not being able to walk Hyungshik home.
Hyungshik look at Kevin guiltily, "Yeah. Not this time. Maybe next time. I have to think. By myself on my way home." The truth is he never tell Kevin that he had already moved in to Heechul's apartment. And he just didn't want Kevin to know yet. He doesn't think Kevin is ready for it.
"Okay then." Kevin kissed Hyungshik on the lips softly, lovingly. He the hugged the younger, "No matter what your conclusion is and what ever you come up with later, just... don't abandon me."
Hyungshik felt like his heart is being stabbed by knives at those words. He looked down guiltily. Kevin let go of the him and saw Hyungshik's guilty face. He lift Hyungshik's face up so that their eyes met and continued, "It's okay. Don't feel guilty about it. I know and still I choose this. None of this is your fault, okay? I'm the one who wanted this." Hyungshik just stared, without a word and Kevin kissed him again. "I love you, Park Hyungshik. No matter what happens, I will always do."
Heechul's fingers curled into a fist after the second kiss. "Oh, so this is why he didn't answer." His body started to feel hot. He was angry and there was some weird emotions are inside of him but he didn't know what it is. He looked away, not being able to watch this further and walk away. He'll just come back when this finishes. He kicked the can on the road and fuck, did he just imagine that it's Kevin's head?
After waving Kevin a cheerful goodbye, Hyungshik walk his way back home. His head was in a total mess. He... wanted to punch Heechul, yell at him, throw pillows and stuff at him for cheating behind his back but as much as he want to do that, now he is more weighed about his own act behind Heechul's back. He didn't know what to do. Should he tell Heechul or should he not? Of course he can say that it was a payback for Heechul's act but he just can't stand seeing Heechul's heart got broken by him. He sighed, why is this so hard? And why did he do all those things with Kevin? He can't seem to find the answer.
He... don't want to hurt Heechul's feeling.
He knew he is stupid for that but he just can't help it. He just loved Heechul too much. Now how to solve all this?
Maybe he should just pretended like he never saw Heechul with Minwoo and he'll pretend like his moments with Kevin never happen. At least for now. Until he get the solution.
After a long walk, Heechul went back to Kevin's apartment. He had been thinking and Kevin will get off this time, he decided to hear from Hyungshik first. He rings Kevin's door and Kevin opened the door with a hopeful face. Heechul feels disgusted at Kevin's look. He must have thought he's Hyungshik. Kevin's expression however turned to his normal expression then to the expression of seeing him. The look that says 'I hate you but I can't say that on your face'. Heechul smirked when he saw that look. The feeling is mutual. "Yah! Why don't you answer your call? It's tiring to send this to you." Kevin made a face and Heechul just shoved the papers to Kevin's chest, "Don't have to answer. Don't need your excuse. I'm going now."
Heechul turned around and left. His anger started to boil again every second he saw Kevin so he had to go before something happens. Kevin feels so pissed with Heechul's acts, he feel like shouting at Heechul now that he had just fuck Heechul's boyfriend and there's nothing Heechul can do about it but he know that it's really not a good idea. He wouldn't want Hyungshik to involve in trouble. "That son of a bitch. Tch, doesn't even know how to respect his hyungs."
Every seconds ticked by, fueled Heechul's anger into a wrath. He feels like going back and punch Kevin, the beat him into a pulp but his pride just wouldn't allow it. He didn't understand it himself but it's so frustrating so he ran. He ran all the way back home.
About 10 minutes later, he reached home. He opened the door, and took his shoes off quickly. His breathing was fast, he was panting and sweating. He spot Hyungshik sitting on the couch in the living room. Hyungshik was staring at the red table on the center of the room, probably day dreaming or maybe thinking about something but he didn't care. He walked to him and yanked him off the couch with a force. Hyungshik was shocked when he was suddenly yanked off the couch and out of his mind. Heechul dragged him to their shared bedroom. At first Hyungshik protested a bit but then he just followed, though a bit hesitant. When they're are in their bedroom, Heechul push the younger onto the bed and locked the door. He can feel his anger inside but he tried his best to calm down and not show it to his lover.
Hyungshik was confused and a little scared with the sudden harsh treatment from his boyfriend. He looked at Heechul's back.
Heechul was breathing harshly and it looked like he's been in a marathon or something. "Heechul?" Heechul turned around with a smirk. His eyes met with a pair of now scared eyes of Hyungshik. Hyungshik wanted to ask, if there's anything wrong and why he's acting like that but no words could come out of his mouth when he opened them. "H-Heechul?" All that he could said was only his boyfriend's name and Heechul walked closer to him.
"Hyungshik, it's... time to do a body check up." Heechul's voice was deep but somehow it's a little different from Heechul's usual deep voice. Hyungshik's eyes went wide hearing that and he started to get really scared, his brain started to go into panic mode.
"W-what?" he asked, not wanting to believe what he just heard. Heechul took a step closer, "I said... it's time to do a check up."
Hyungshik mentally cursed. Shit, if Heechul is really going to do what he said he would, he would know about what happened earlier. The panic was even more visible in Hyungshik's face now. Heechul's smirk grew. So, Hyungshik does have something to hide, doesn't he? Is it a lovebite? Marks somewhere? Or... did he...
Heechul wasn't very happy when his brain started opening up all possibilities to him. When it went to that, his smirk fades and he started to strip Hyungshik out. Hyungshik was scared to the core, he didn't know what to do but he did protest a bit. He tried to push Heechul away, "H-Heechul-ah!" Heechul glared at him and his words died. "Shut up and just obey me." Heechul hissed, deep in commanding tone. He can feel his anger boiling seconds by seconds.
Hyungshik knew better to not anger his lover but he was so scared of Heechul knowing he felt like crying. Soon, Hyungshik was topless. Heechul inspected his lover's body. Even more carefully at the sensitive parts. Hyungshik feels like his body is being raped by Heechul's eyes.
No marks, good. Heechul thought. But what about the other side? Just thinking about what he could find makes his anger boils even higher.
Not being able to fully control his anger, he just yanked Hyungshik's pants along with his boxer after unzipping and unbottoning it. Hyungshik was fully naked in front of his eyes and he can see that there Hyungshik's hips are a little red. Even though it's just little, he could notice it. He knew Hyungshik's body like he his own. Hyungshik was beyond panic when he was stripped fully out of his clothing. The cold air hit his body mercilessly. He was so scared and his eyes started to become teary. Heechul lift his leg up. Hyungshik's eyes went even more wider when Heechul did that and his breath hitched when Heechul shoved two of his fingers inside. His tears fell.
Heechul's suspicion was proven right when he shoved his fingers in. Hyungshik's walls were wet and Hyungshik's sharp gasp confirmed the little pain he always had afterwards whenever they have sex. Heechul couldn't believe it. He took out his fingers
slowly, carefully looking at the white liquid that went out with it, coating his fingers with it. Even though there are only traces left, Heechul knew what its perfectly. Hyungshik, not knowing what to say or how to defend himself started crying. Heechul brought his wet fingers up and glared at Hyungshik, his jaws clenching. His angry eyes met again with Hyungshik's now scared and teary eyes. Hyungshik really didn't know what to do, his tears kept on falling.
He was beyond scared. He was so scared, he can't even think.
Not being able to look into his lover's eyes anymore, he broke his glare and looked away. His anger are taking control of him. Not wanting to hurt his lover, he step up and out of the room, leaving the crying Hyungshik. He didn't even spare a glance to his lover before exiting the room, not even spare any time to take his coat or sweater.
Hyungshik heard a loud bang. Means that Heechul went out. He pull his legs to his chest and cried.
Heechul knew.
His heart ached. And that just fucking hurts.
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A/N: Whoaaa TT_TT I want to cry when my laptop suddenly died after I updated the story sooo much dfsadvhvasjbvfh just because my charger is being a complete bitch. I didn't put on the battery that time so when it died, ahhh everything is just.. gone like that. The pain of using notepad and not Words. Dang. This should be longer but ahh I can't remember what did I write before
so... I'm sorry if this sucks =[
This is starting to get really long Dx means there will be more chapters. ahh, I'm so sorry for that.
My exam starts Monday next week. This is my final exam for my final semester. WISH ME LUCK!!!! TT_TT
BTW updates will only be written AFTER my exams ended. TT-TT
Means I'm in HIATUS for now Dx