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iggysluv

Staying the weekend (YES)

Jul 23, 2004 08:56

Well folks i willing be staying on center this weekend
It sux i know, but i have no other choice. I wish that i had some place to go. or someone to see but i guess that i have to stay and be bored. but anywho. They have things on center that they do, but it just doesnt seem the same as me going home ( Read more... )

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hey hunny lovechris143 July 23 2004, 07:08:57 UTC

hey hunny i am so sorry you feel that way and i know what you are going through and there is nothing anyone can say or do to make you feel better but it takes time and you know that i am here for you always and i love you josh i am staying here this weekend also so maybe we can chill after i sleep all day and come out once in awhile you know but hey there is nothing esle to do because i feel so alone and hurt i am so dead inside and i don't want to do anything but sleep and dream cause that is the only person i can see him but josh keep your head held high and remember i am here for you love you hunny

JOSHUA................................ hotrorogyrl21 July 23 2004, 09:48:31 UTC

How can you say that no one will really care if you dye. How many times do I have to tell you I will always love you no matter what. You are like a younger sister/brother to me. I have two older brothers for real, and we dont even talk anymore like me and you do. I cant belive you would say such an assanine thing. You don not talk like that when you know I will hear or see it. What are you thinking. I told you & Tammy yesterday that I didnt want you guys talking like that. Well I have to go Luv ya

Re: JOSHUA................................ iggysluv July 23 2004, 10:15:14 UTC

i cant help it hunny, i really feel like that inside. its like putting on a mask for other people so they dont ask me what is wrong, thats why i burn because it takes my focus off of the emotional pain and directs it to the physical pain ya know. and i just feel that that eventually people will get over it. in time. but like im not afraid of dieing, not one of my fears i fear being alone and unhappy. i love you too. but like im afraid of the future like what will it be like when i get out of job corps and not be able to see you very often. I like that younger sister. part that was cute. I will try my best not to talk like that around you and keep it out of my live journal. i love you and i will talk to you lata.
luv josh

I leave for one night... ricepattie July 23 2004, 14:19:01 UTC

Why are you so sad? You didn't sound depressed when we talked. Well, not really anyway. GAH! You need a night out on the town... er- center! If you feel depressed why not dump on me via e-mail? I don't mind and it gives me something constructive to do. Plus, I have to do some summer reading. I can add that to my list too. No problem.

Re: I leave for one night... iggysluv July 24 2004, 06:15:01 UTC

Well i think its just me in my world and that everything going on plus talking to you kind of adds to it. i am really stressed out and i dont know how else to handle things but by crying. i am emotional and i dont know why. I would really like to see you. i was wondering if you were busy this saturday coming up, i get paid next week and i can come see you if you would like me too. i mean that would be really nice just to hang out with you, i can bring kristina if you would like. i dont know i just wish things were different i wish i was a different person, like i wish my attitude was different and just everything about me. so that no one would really care about me. at least i know that you do or else you wouldnt be talking to me trying to make me feel at least alittle better. thank you.

its not you i dont think, i think its just my life that gets me so depressed.
josh