Feeling really lost

[iggysluv]

Sometimes i just dont know what to do with myself. Um i walk around and think why the hell am i going this way or that way or doing this or that, like i just dont know. maybe my memory is going. i dont know but im just lost.

I figured it out
Sence i was with tyrone, and happy being with him. now that i dont have him to talk to everyday, or see

Comments

Gah

[ricepattie]

I was thinking about that, too. Well, not the suicide aspect but the whole effort issue. I felt bad that you always had to come visit me and do basically all of the calling. It wasn't fair to you and I guess you're right when you say it wouldn't have worked out. We're at different points in our lives, about that you're absolutely correct. Someone older than you would probably be best since they have experienced a lot more. I suppose I do want to experiment/experience new things. Maybe I'm only realizing that now. I hate growing up. But, hey, don't read too much into seeing Buddhas. Not everything is an omen or a sign. Somethings are, yes, but not everything. It's weird to imagine. I feel like I'm haunting you. lol

Re: Gah

[iggysluv]

No you are not haunting me, well i dont know but like yeah i understand that i had a lot to do with it. i dont know about suicide it just seems that it would make things a lot easier. well anyways i will go now.