Dancing with Ghosts

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Ron wasn't entirely sure how he should take their mum's suggestion that he move in with George and help with the shop.  Sure, it really was a brilliant suggestion, but at the same time, he wasn't sure if she was just sick of having him mope around the Burrow.  He wasn't like Harry, Hermione, even Ginny, with their jobs at the Ministry, and playing

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It seemed strange for a moment, the way that George called it the guest room, but maybe he just didn't want to talk about Fred at the moment, knowing it was a sore spot for the both of them. Ron looks better, but still not exactly good, not like he did before. He's still stronger, broader in the shoulders than the twins, but he's still a bit thinner than he used to be, and it doesn't sit quite right on his body, although it's not as bad as it was right after the War, when he had trouble forcing himself to eat at all. Nowadays he just doesn't have much of an appetite

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"I hoped you weren't," Ron murmurs in reply, still staying close, pressed in against him even as George's grip loosens. It given him the permission, ability to pull away, but he doesn't. He shyly presses a small kiss to his jaw, just a brush of lips that says he wants this in all the ways that he's never dared before. He's not sure if he should say it, if kisses are strong enough to hold the weight of it. He's always been the sort that seems to get himself into questionable situations.

"I loved both of you," he says it softly, timid, uncertain, like a secret. He told their mum that he'd loved Fred once, in the depths of sorrow, but she'd brushed it off, told him how all of us loved him. George, if nothing else, he at least would understand what he meant. And hopefully, wasn't about to toss him out on his ear for it. "Still do, really," he pulls away a big more, looking down, eyelashes hiding his blue eyes. He'd made so certain to hide it, that actually saying it, telling him, seems frightfully mad.

But somehow, he regrets that Fred

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I loved both of you. He knows what he means. It's obvious in the way he says it, shy like it's a secret. Any other declaration wouldn't be, would be far from it, that usual brotherly love expected, understood, but this is different. There's a pang of sadness at the fact that Fred won't ever know how he feels, but another part of him wonders if he does anyway.

He's not sure what to say. He hadn't felt that kind of love for Ron, but of course he loves him. Second to Fred, he'd been his favorite brother, constant pranks aside. It had only been recently that he'd started to see him as something more than his grubby kid brother, once he'd started filling out and broadening and looking more like a man than a kid. He remembers a passing conversation he'd had with Fred, one that makes him wonder if maybe Fred knew and never said, Fred wondering aloud if maybe it wasn't a witch that Ron was going to make happy one day, but a wizard

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In a way it's comforting, hearing those words, that George and Fred were together. It makes him feel not as sick, strange, not quite so alone. He leans in, his arms tightening around George, trying to offer what comfort he can, because there's that jolt of hurt, that knowledge that George lost his lover as well as his brother; Ron was still in pieces over losing him, and Fred had never even known. How must it feel to have been in a relationship with him and then losing him? He hugs George because it's the only comfort he really knows how to give.

"I never realized. I'm sorry," he murmurs against his brother's skin, a tremble through his body as he slides fingers through his hair. He feels guilty, about Fred, moreso now knowing just how much George lost. But, there's that fact that the kiss somehow seems to mean more, too. Less like a whim, and more intentional, like George really meant it, and that warms him a bit as his lashes flutter. "I just... how could we stop Voldemort, save everyone else, and not save Fred? I.. don't understand

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"We didn't want anyone to know," he says in response to the apology. "No one would have understood…" it feels good to talk about it now. In a way, the hardest part in all of this is that no one understood just how much he'd lost. Of course, everyone saw how tragic it was for him to have lost his twin. They recognized the bond between them, but didn't realize just how deeply it went.

He's wondered the same thing, how they could have saved everyone else and won the war but lost Fred.

"I don't know," he breathes against Ron's skin, hugging him closer as if it will help, because in a sense it will, it means he isn't quite so alone. Then he's smiling because Ron is talking about how they made him feel safe and loved even if they were tormenting him, and he's thinking about some of the awful things they used to do to Ron when he was a kid.

"Fred guessed you were into blokes… 'bout a year before the war, he said he could tell or something, like he had an extra sense that told him who didn't really like girls…"

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"Probably good for you I never told him.. you know he would have insisted you'd made a bet on it," he says it softly, a little sadly, but trying to smile through it, to think of all the things that made Fred as incorrigibly adorable as he was. He leaned in, hugging George tight, and he can't help himself when he leans in, kisses him, because he wants to feel it again, that soft, insistent thrum of pleasure. It's brief, gentle, and he looks into George's eyes.

"I still love you. You don't have to.. I'm not asking for anything. I just need you to know that," he whispers softly in the slight space between them as he still holds onto his older brother. The closeness, the touch, the simple fact of having someone else who understands, who knows how hard this is on him, and more than that, knows why. He leans in, resting his forehead to his brother's temple.

"Can I... stay?" He means here, the bed, with George, the way they're cuddled together. "It's not so lonely with you."

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There's a quick grin that's difficult to suppress when Ron points out he'd have insisted there'd been a bet riding on it. At first he's just letting Ron kiss him when he comes back for more, but then he moves into it, arms curling tight around Ron's body, drawing him in and kissing back in the moments before Ron pulls away again

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It's the first night in the past year where Ron hasn't woken up from either vicious, vivid nightmares, or with that cloying sensation of screaming terror he can't quite remember. Waking up, breathing in George, that warmth of his body still under his hands, still cuddling into him as his eyelashes flutter open to the light of a day that seems warmer than he's felt in quite sometime.

"Oh, come off it. It's been ages since the last time I splinched myself." Ron pointed out, although 'ages' was most certainly quite an exaggeration. He shoved at his brother's shoulder petulantly, and brazenly swung his legs across George's lap. "Even have my license to apperate now."

But his brother already knows that. He knows he's just harassing him, but Ron's never been able to resist playing into their games, the playful way they'd terrorize him. And honestly, he's missed it. Even if its not the same without Fred taking the second line of attack, the world feels even more wrong when he's not getting teased at all.

"Besides, you wouldn't be a sight

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"Shows what you know," he says, making a face as Ron drapes his legs over his lap, as if it's unwelcome. "I'd pick Rory up before I went after a twit like Amy… and so what if I would put my feet on his pillows? He'd probably like it… spend the night having sweet dreams about my feet," he grins and wraps his arms around Rons' legs and gives a tug, sliding him down so he's not sitting comfortably anymore, but is practically laying on the couch.

"It's a miracle you're still intact," he chirps, going back to his initial line of insults; Ron is awful at apparation. "Are these even your real legs?" he asks, and he's lifting the cuffs of his jeans to check that his ankles and calves are real, but he knows that Ron's unbelievably ticklish and that the gentle brushes that threaten to do actual tickling to his feet will be ticklish themselves with the threat of it.

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"There's nothing sweet in dreaming about your feet," Ron declared petulantly, squirming as George grabbed his legs and pulled him further down on the couch so he wasn't sitting, but mostly lying down now. He scowled dramatically, trying to resituate himself across his brother's lap, trying to seem as put out as he wanted it to be. But, this was actually kind of nice, the playful banter, as he rolled his eyes.

"Of course they're my real legs -- stoppit," he broke off and demanded, his squirms suddenly intensifying as George's fingers were dangerously close to his feet, brushing against his ankles. He was painfully ticklish about his feet and ankles, a fact that his brothers have abused to the point that it only takes the threat of it to start him thrashing. He grabs onto George's shoulder, and with a mischievous gleam in his blue eyes, tries to pull him down. They used to wrestle all the time, and Ron always lost, but he'd been younger then, and two-on-one was never fair, anyway.

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"Oi, you're awfully judgy for someone whose feet have been known to kill garden gnomes," but then Ron is squirming in fear of being tickled and he's got an overwhelming urge to pin him down. It's been years since they've wrestled, and he's rarely wrestled with him without Fred around to make the score thoroughly uneven, and he doesn't quite know who would win these days in a fair fight. Ron is more solid than he used to be, broader and stronger, and he's got an awful feeling - a thrillingly awful feeling - that Ron could beat him now

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"I do not have muggle feet," Ron declares, though he's unable to keep it from coming out with a huff of a laugh. There's a smiling thrill to the idea of wrestling with George, and as the older redhead moves with that tug, and is going for Ron's hands, he knows that's exactly what they're going for. He wants it, he realizes, as more than just a way to keep George's hands off his ticklish feet, but there's a thrill to the idea of it, to bodies pressing together and struggling. He also thinks he might be able to win now. And Merlin but there's a vindictive part of him that loves that idea.

He manages to keep George from pinning his hands, and he's trying to get his legs around his brothers longer limbs. His hands moving, trying to catch at George's shoulders, give Ron the leverage to flip their bodies. He wants to pin him down, hold him, and maybe pretend he can't hear him for a moment or two. There's also the closeness, the fact that it just feels good to touch him.

He doesn't want to replace Fred in George's heart, just like George won't

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They've hardly begun, and Ron is already startlingly better at this than he used to be. He's escaping the way he's gone for Ron's hands and he's turning this against him, working to use his legs to steal the upper hand that he's got, trying to flip them over. George is losing ground and fast, and there's a frantic sort of chuckle, but then he feels as though he's going fall off the edge of the sofa as Ron struggles to push him down, and instead of fighting, he's suddenly holding on desperately so that he doesn't land on the floor.

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Ron can feel that George is slipping, and he grabs onto him, holds on tight, and he uses his hips, leverages his body to roll them over. He's pulling George away from the edge, pushing him into the couch, saving him from falling. Or, more accurately, pinning him more fully into the couch. He's going for his hands, sliding hands from his shoulders to his biceps, trying to hold him down.

There's a thrill, and this strikes him breathless. Being able to hold him down, getting the better or his older brother. George has height on him, but Ron is doing his best to negate the advantage of his longer limbs. "Given how you're flopping around, I'd say you're the one with bionic parts," Ron murmured impishly, all lifted eyebrows and a flushed face.

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He's glad that Ron is saving him from falling off the edge of the sofa, but he's less glad that he's using it as an excuse and an opportunity to pin him against the back edge of the sofa. However, there's a part of him that is quite pleased, actually, to find himself in this position. Not the losing part, but the contact, the length of Ron's body pressed to his, the solid grip of hands on his biceps.

He doesn't quite know if this is just wrestling or if they're circling in on something more, but he wants it to be more. Ron's flushed and excited, but it's different than how he got when they wrestled him to the floor when he was a kid. This is breathless and he wants more, actually wants Ron to win, to pin him down, even though if this becomes something more he wants to switch, flip them back over so that Ron is beneath him.

"There's one part of me that's definitely not bionic…" his voice is low, and it's suggestive, and he is fighting back (he's too proud not to) but he's losing, and he's surprisingly aroused at the fact that he is

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That comment catches his breath, makes his eyes go wide and his lips part with surprise, because it's undeniably suggestive. And as they move, as George struggles, and Ron fights to keep him pinned down, there's a definite sexuality in their motions. The way Ron uses his hips to try and keep him pinned, the way that George squirms underneath his body. George refuses the stay still, and the way he squirms is doing things to Ron that he's trying to ignore.

That is, until he can feel George's erection prodding against his thigh, and suddenly he realizes that he's not the only one affected. "You're a bloody cheat," Ron gasps breathlessly. He's so overwhelmed that he's having trouble keeping up, but he absolutely refuses to let George win (he has his pride, too). But he wants more, he wants it to be less about holding him down and more about the friction. He's leaning into it, moving against the way his brother's hardness pressing against him. He's awe-struck and not sure he's allowed but it's so good he can't help himself