I'm Gonna Make You Regret For Losing Me -13-
Title: I'm Gonna Make You Regret For Losing Me
Pairings: Kiseob, one-sided Junseob
Ratings: NC -17
Summary: Inspired by the taiwanese drama 'Hi! My Sweetheart'. A serialized fiction of Freeze
Yoseob's POV:
I got out of the car and waved at the smiling boy who just got out of the building. He ran towards me and looked at me with the eye smile of his. "Hyung! You're done with Junhyung already? So fast?" He asked. I didn't really want him to mention about him. I felt really uncomfortable when his name is being mentioned.
"So, where are we going today?" Kikwang asked. I haven't plan where to go yet. I felt like doing something rather than making him remember everything. He seems like no problem at all. He looks really well. He doesn't look like he has loss of memory at all. Is he pretending?
-Flashback-
After we finished our breakfast, Junhyung has a serious face on. He look at me, crossing his arms. "Yoseob-ah..I know you love Kikwang. More than you love me. But don't you think this has to stop?"
"What do you mean by that? I'm not stopping this until Kikwang's memory is back" I said. Yes, I love Kiki more. And this relationship is not going to end. Just like I promised. Kiki needs my help now. The only person that made him smile is...me. I hate seeing that bright smile of his fading away.
Junhyung slammed his hand on the table and stood up. "Don't you fucking understand? You're not paying a little tiny attention on me. Kikwang is injured. You blame me. Kikwang this, Kikwang that. Everything you blamed it on me. This all shits started when you redate Kikwang. You think I like that?" He said trying to hold his temper in him.
"Jun-" I wanted to calm him down but he cut me and continued on. "Kikwang...is not what you think he is right now. HE doesn't have any fucking loss of memory. HE remembers you. HE remembers every single thing. He is putting up everything so that YOU could spend time with him. Can't you even tell? He's seperating the both of us" He snapped in anger.
This is the very first time I saw Junhyung mad like this. He must have felt lots of pain. Just like how Kikwang felt. But the scar I left is more bigger. I really don't know what to do now. And Kikwang wouldn't do that. I know him. I know he wouldn't do such things. I know he never keep any secrets between the both of us. He's not that kind person.
I just know..
"Just promise me.." Junhyung said softly, controlling his temper. Great another promise. "Promise me that you'll tell Kikwang to stop this. And end your relationship with him. If not, you don't know what I'll do. If you don't want Kikwang to be hurt...break up. Today"
-End of Flashback-
These things kept bugging me. It's all Junhyung's fault. He shouldn't have told me Kiki is putting all up. Part of me doesn't believe him. And part of me believe him. Which one should I trust? And if I didn't break him up, Kikwang will be hurt. But if I did, Kikwang will be hurt too. UGH! THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY! I hate you so much Junhyung.
"Hyung, you okay? You look down. What happened?" Kikwang said as he caressed my cheeks. I held his hand and shook my head softly. "It's nothing. Just get in. We're starting our second date right now" I flashed a smile which Kikwang gave back. He nodded and got in the car.
I wanted him to be safe. But what I do will hurt him. As much as before. His heart is not healed just yet. If I break him up, it'll be just like putting salt on his scar. If I don't leave him, Kikwang will be in danger. God wouldn't even knows what Junhyung will do.
"Hyung! What are you waiting for? Get in" Kikwang said, snapping me out of my thoughts. I nodded and got into the car and drove off to our second date.
Silence soon filled the air and it made the atmosphere uncomfortable. I really want to tell him everything at once. But I'll need a good time. I keep on having the urge to tell him. I held in my words but it won over me and slipped through my mouth.
"Kiki-ah" Kikwang look at me and raised his eyebrows. "Hmm?" He hummed in reply. Here it goes, "You....I.....I..aish, nevermind" I just couldn't let everything out. I felt so nervous and yet disturbed.
From getting away with this, I thought of other things. Like our date. Yeah, that should do it. I sort of remember where we went. Let me think...we went to the park, amusement park..and what's next? Cinema? Yup, cinema that is. The most common place people go to in their dates.
"Kiki-ah, let's go to the cinema shall we?" I asked. In reply, Kikwang nodded and gave a smile. A smile appeared on my lips immediately whenever he smiles. It's like he's controlling my lips.
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"What do you want to watch?" I asked Kikwang. He eyed around the movie list and hummed. "Let's watch this one!" He said as he point on the name of the movie. You Were My Everything. It sounds like a romance movie. And I hope it doesn't refers to Kiki's life. The life that gave pain to him.
Yah! You're here to have fun with Kiki! Not to think about these stuff! Aish, this is really tiring.
"So?" Kikwang asked, still pointing on the name. "Huh? Oh..sure" I said as I nodded.
We went to buy the ticket to the movie and went to watch the movie since the movie almost started. We walk throught the stairs and finally found our seat. We settled ourselves and wait for the movie to start.
Many scenes had passed and know it's the last scene. I think. It's where this guy left the girl and the girl cried and called him jerk. ..... Is this movie teasing us or...this might happen one day to us? No, no no no. That's not gonna happen!
I felt Kikwang laying his head on my shoulder and sniffing. I turned my head to my side saw Kikwang crying while his red puffy eyes are on the screen. "This is so sad. That jerk left that girl for no reason. He's really a jerk" Kikwang said between sniffings.
Maybe he didn't notice at all, it's exactly the same to what happened to us. "That girl should leave him instead. For all that he did. He even tortured her" I said. Kikwang looked at me and gave me a slight smack on my chest. He likes my chest. Keke.
"Wae? The girl doesn't even deserve this" He said and pouted. "Yah, Yoseob! What happened to your neck?" Kikwang whispered. Shit! The bite marks. Argh, Junhyung! It's all your fault! How am I going to tell him?
"Ah, it's nothing really. Don't worry about it" I said and led out a fake laugh.
"Is it Junhyung?" He suddenly ask. Why did he ask? How did he know? Is he suspecting something? I trembled a little, not knowing how to reply him. He's not going to think that we actually did it, does he?
"Aigoo, he bit you didn't he? How can he do such thing to your neck?" He said as he touch the bite softly. I exhaled everything that held inside me. Good thing he isn't thinking of that.
After the movie, we went to grab something to eat. Well, it's actually Kikwang, who wanted to eat so much. We got to the nearby food store and ordered something for Kikwang while I ordered a drink. The waitress bowed and went to give the order.
As soon as the waitress are no longer near our table, I started the topic right away. "Kiki..Jun...Junhyung told me you were...putting everything up so that you could spend time with me. Is that true?" Kikwang blinked a couple of times and began to frown a little.
"What...What do you mean?" He asked. "He said you are pretending to have loss of memory. It isn't true...is it?" I asked waiting for a reply. He scratched his head and looked around. He shook his head trying to deny. "N-no, I didn't. Heh-heh, why would I do such thing?"
"Lee Kikwang! I need you to tell me the truth now. I really need to know. Even if it's true, I won't get mad. I promise" I said as I storked his hand softly. He sighed and looked down on his leg and nodded. "It's...true"
Junhyung indeed is telling the truth. I'm sorry for not believing you. This is the first time Kikwang has ever lied to me. Kikwang lied to me. But why I don't feel any hatred for this?
"I'm really sorry...I lied about everything. I'm....no good for you at all" Kikwang mumbled. "NO! No, no. It's okay. You're perfect enough. You did this just so I could spend time with you. But you made me worried. Really worried. I'm really proud my Kiki have grown up" I said trying to defend him from feeling bad for himself.
"Really?" He asked as he look up at me from his leg. I nodded and said,"Of course. But I said that not to encourage you to lie all the time. But think of yourself too. You are more important than any other people. Even me" He nodded and said that he'll show me the other side of him.
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After the long day, and after dropping Kikwang off, it's already dark outside and I should really get back to Junhyung's apartment. I keep having this feeling where I forgot about something. Something that is really important.
I opened the door and found Junhyung sitting in the living room. I slowly closed the door behind and Junhyung stood up from the couch. He smiled a little and asked me a random question. "Well?"
"Well what?" I asked. Something kind of hit trough my mind when I saw Junhyung. I just can't seem to realise what it is.
His smiled turned upside down and he said softly, "You haven't break him up, didn't you?" Fuck, I forgot! No wonder I keep having this feeling that I forgot something. Before I could even started to worry, I heard a click and saw Junhyung stormed out of the room.
I ran towards him and stopped him by pulling his arm. "Don't...don't hurt Kikwang!"
"SHUT UP! Don't want to break him up? I'll do it myself" He said and pushed me away. I landed on the floor and sprained my ankle. "JUNHYUNG!" I shouted. But he didn't come back. I prayed and prayed for Kikwang to be safe. Oh god, please...protect Kikwang.
How I wish I didn't sprain my ankle. Or I could have ran after him. Kikwang, hang on, I won't let him hurt you.