I went to dawson last night & couldn't stop crying; my sister & cousin & chris had to hold onto me to make sure I don't bash my head if I fall :( I've never been so depress...
THen after that I went to my friend's bar to grab a drink - my sister wanted to go to orchid so we went (I felt so guilty but I didn't want to be the cause of the problem to hold them back from having fun)
At the end of the night they dedicated a song to Staz.. I started balling my eyes out again & had to be carried.. i fuckin' cried in a club :\ I went out to forget about all the drama & event of the shooting & he had to say her name.... I felt like total shit for being out but Chris made me go out because I've been home since the shooting & he didnt want me to lock myself in the closet all depress & shit - in a way I was glad I went out because part of the night took my mind off of things - like Staz & Eric..
i'm really sorry about that hun! i completely understand i had one of my old friends going there and i called him 11 times before he picked up..i'll pray for the lord to give you strength through these hard times for you... She is in a better place love. Angel<3
I'm teribly sorry for your loss. I hope your friends come out of all of this okay as well as you. Losing a friend is an extremely difficult thing. I lost a friend from high school last month from a self inflicted gunshot wound to her head. If you need anyone to talk to, vent to...I'm always online.
It's always surreal at first, then time begins to pass and you get used to not seeing that person anymore. It never gets easier. Maybe it's not supposed to. This is when I find time to spend by myself and with my friends.
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I went to dawson last night & couldn't stop crying; my sister & cousin & chris had to hold onto me to make sure I don't bash my head if I fall :( I've never been so depress...
THen after that I went to my friend's bar to grab a drink - my sister wanted to go to orchid so we went (I felt so guilty but I didn't want to be the cause of the problem to hold them back from having fun)
At the end of the night they dedicated a song to Staz.. I started balling my eyes out again & had to be carried.. i fuckin' cried in a club :\ I went out to forget about all the drama & event of the shooting & he had to say her name.... I felt like total shit for being out but Chris made me go out because I've been home since the shooting & he didnt want me to lock myself in the closet all depress & shit - in a way I was glad I went out because part of the night took my mind off of things - like Staz & Eric..
RiP ERIC & STAZ :(
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Angel<3
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It's always surreal at first, then time begins to pass and you get used to not seeing that person anymore. It never gets easier. Maybe it's not supposed to. This is when I find time to spend by myself and with my friends.
I'll keep you and your friends in my prayers.
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