My way: by Michelle Grissom, formerly ani Dechen Drolma

[icarusancalion]

I'm cleaning up my relationship with my teacher, Jetsunma Ahkon Lhamo, and temple, Kunzang Palyul CholingIn order to do so, I need to post my clean-up confession just as publicly as I once posted my criticism

Comments

[kijikun]

Oddly, I've always viewed you as a very supportive person to me. I've never regretted friending you after meeting you on HP_dungeon. You've defended me against people wanting to write me off just for being a member of fandom wank.

I don't really understand you specific situation, but I can understand struggling to try correct mistakes of the past and being honest with yourself as well as others that you've erred. And I can understand being at war in a sense with ones faith. I was alternatively at war with god and hiding in religion after my father's death, until I realized it wasn't my faith in something higher I was angry with but people and institutions.

If I were to say you are a person I don't want anything to do with because you've confessed to wrong doing I'd be a hypocrite.

*HUGS*

[icarusancalion]

Thank you.

I would appreciate it if you could link to this post in your LJ as c_smith_author did here:

http://c-smith-author.livejournal.com/40016.html

There are people who are using my past words and my RL name to continue to lambast Jetsunma. If this post is linked to and has hits, it will show up in the search and mitigate what I've done.

She's taken flack no male teacher would receive, just because she's a woman, and she deserves our support.

[kijikun]

I'd be more than happy to do so.

[icarusancalion]

Thank you.

[rellan]

I had no idea about any of this. Of course, it wasn't that long ago that we 'met' via the 'net when I commented on your fic.

I do not think badly of you. I know how black things become when all you see is negative. It's easier to lash out than think 'am I in the wrong?' or 'did I create the mess?' or even WTF am I doing?' I am happy that you've turned over a new leaf, as it were. Now you/your life can improve. Knowing some of your recent troubles, I sincerely hope making reparations begins to heal your wounds and the wounds you gave others. This is a good start.

I'll still be here commenting, encouraging, poking, whatever's needed. Right now, I send a *HUG*

[icarusancalion]

Especially the "WTF am I doing?"

Can I ask a favor?

What's going on is my words -- and my RL name -- are being used by some people to lambast Jetsunma. A confession is good, but what needs to happen is that it needs to show up in a search. To mitigate what I've done and the fact that it's still being repeated, over and over again. That requires links in and hits.

Would you be willing to post a link in your LJ to this?

c_smith_author has a pretty good template here: http://c-smith-author.livejournal.com/40016.html

Jetsunma's a woman and therefore she's taken criticism no male teacher would ever have to face. And she deserves our support. The attacks are getting really ugly for her right now.

[rellan]

Linked almost immediately after I posted here. I have a small flist but if even one person reads...

[rellan]

Also, linked on my dreamwidth account. Although, I think my flist is about the same on lj and dw.

[sharp_tongue]

Hi, Michelle.

I'm happy for you. It sounds like you're finding your way. It sucks to admit to yourself when you were wrong and it sucks even more to admit it publicly. It's painful but I hope this can be a good pain for you. Growing pains, as it were.

I posted in my LJ with a link back to you.

[icarusancalion]

Okay, I'm tearing up. Thank you, Sharpie. I am so lucky to have friends like you guys.

The attacks against Jetsunma are getting really ugly right now so this will really help.

[sharp_tongue]

You're welcome, Icarus. :)

Being able to help you make amends makes me feel good, so it's a win-win. Jetsunma sounds like a woman of profound compassion.

[icarusancalion]

Jetsunma sounds like a woman of profound compassion.

Yes. That sums it up.

Very true.

[nova_bright]

It takes immense courage to admit wrongdoing, especially when it's been years in brewing.

There really is nothing better then coming out and speaking out against your own mistakes.

I'll link to this post, because I think every little thing may help.

Good on you for this. It's the best way to begin to heal wounds, both caused by you and inside of you.

[nova_bright]

I posted here: http://ix-tab.livejournal.com/320965.html

I hope it helps!

[icarusancalion]

Thank you. I've no doubt that it will.

[nova_bright]

No problem at all. I also twittered a link to this post and posted it on my facebook, which is the end of my social networking, sadly.

Facing up to the past is so hard, and I admire you for making this post.

[ursule]

Hey. Glad you're not as angry.

[icarusancalion]

You have always been true friend who has caught me when I'm going off the deep end.

I'd appreciate it if you'd be willing to link to this, and here's why. This is not self-flagellation. There's a pragmatic reason for this.

A fellow just got out of prison who fancies himself a killer Lama. He's decided to "take on" Jetsunma. He runs a Buddhist blog that attacks her using my words. The temple itself is being harassed on regular basis. For example, someone just called the fire marshall on them, etc., etc.

I need to have this post show up in searches alongside what he's writing.

[ursule]

Thanks.

I have spiders turned off on my journal, so I can't help with the google thing. I trust it will work out, though.