well its about time i actually had a night to myself w/o john.
now i can finally sleep.

today was looong. and uninteresting. i wanted to cry all day just because i knew i was wasting my time. that is such a frustrating feeling.

why am i so hard to please all of a sudden?
i dyed my hair but now i don't like it.

i'm thinking red with brown low lights is next.
the day after graduation i'm going blonde.

just letting my true colors shine through.

wow tonight was like so awesome.
i want it again just like this every night.
minus the barking dog on my porch.

happy hannakuh.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING

"i dont want a fucking barbie doll, i want a real person."

i am so pissed off that john didn't refill his ambien prescription.

tomorrow i'm going to make the biggest mistake of my life. but its ok because i will enjoy myself.

i just worked an 11 hour shift.

this is where i work, since no one seems to have ever heard of it:
A. Rive on Broad Street

and the cute blonde is my boss.

wow.
so not in a good mood and i don't have a single fucking person to tell.