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so sick of music
i need a hair cut. but i have no idea what i want to do with it. any thoughts? it's really long right now so i have lot to work with. -
with a silence no melody could erase.
so i guess i might start using this thing again. i just back logged all the entries that were on my old myspace account that i just deleted. so feel free to peruse things. and stay tuned for more about my current life situations. -
holy crap!
is anybody out there?
holler if you hear me! -
insomnia; creative endeavor or health risk?
i've been having a really hard time going to sleep lately. and an even worse time getting up in the morning. but boy have the dreams been interesting. i had a terrible dream the other night when i finally got to sleep around 4 or 5, basically it started out with me laying down being kinda tortured eep!
ok so ... i was laying on the floor of this ( Read more... ) -
fuck committees (i believe in lunatics)
a friend of mine sent this to me. after a few days of it collecting digital dust on my desktop, i finally opened it an read it. this is the stuff my dreams are made of right here. i get behind this 100%. enjoy.
fuck committees (i believe in lunatics)
it's about the struggle between individuals with jagged passion in their work and today's ( Read more... ) -
notes to myself
i find it very strange that i'll be friends with a girl.... just friends mind you.... and then all of a sudden we'll stop talking for no reason in particular then i look at their myspace because i haven't in awhile... and the profile is completely different and all talking about their boyfriend like they've been together forever... am i missing the ( Read more... ) -
i put my pain in a jar; it just grows.
i really don't like this. i tried to just ignore my feelings and just walk on. but all it takes is one little thing to remind me about it and i'm just a wreck. my heart completely stopped, i couldn't breathe, and i swear tears were beginning to form in the corners of my eyelids. but i don't know what else to do. i was given no other choice. it's ( Read more... ) -
born under a bad sign
it doesn't matter how hard i try to live as a good person i'll always get the short end of the stick. in the past month and a half, i've had a stream bad luck. not only am i broke, and have a hard time keeping a healthy relationship (with anyone), i've also gotten a speeding ticket (a rather expensive one, yesterday), had to borrow a large sum of ( Read more... ) -
pain less painful
so it happened again. i worked really hard towards something i thought i wanted, got it, had doubts, proved those doubts positive and i'm alone again.
i can't say i'm too happy or sad about this state of affairs but i can say that i feel like myself again. i already miss her but i can't let that distract me. this is for the best. it's so obvious ( Read more... ) -
binge, purge, repeat.
my life has become a ridiculous ritual. it goes like this.
- go out.
- have a good time.
- have a few drinks.
- see a beautiful girl i'd like to talk to but never muster up the guts to do so.
- come home.
- get depressed about said girl.
- never see her again.
- get bitched at by my father for being a drunk.
- talk to friends on AIM about how sad ( Read more... )