I sort of need a Haiku, Around 10 years ago I ended finally this 20+-year relationship.
I just heard she died last week.
I was mostly a lover. Reflecting backwards I realize that I could have tried to make it more and or better but didn’t know how to negotiate. I’m a late bloomer around figuring what these needs of mine are.
Her full-time girlfriends (she was never monogamous) had no picnic. Mostly they did all the work in the relationship. Like indentured servants to a rock star.
They say her current partner is like a saint. And I believe them.
She would have wanted a saint as a partner. Lets just say my level of co-dependence is less than hers and all the other official girlfriends before her.
And I am mourning her. But I wonder how much is a figment of my projection.
I am not a documented "friend" invited to her funeral processions.
I like your Haikus because they create an ocean of inner space.
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Around 10 years ago I ended finally this 20+-year relationship.
I just heard she died last week.
I was mostly a lover. Reflecting backwards
I realize that I could have tried to make it more and or better but didn’t know how to negotiate.
I’m a late bloomer around figuring what these needs of mine are.
Her full-time girlfriends (she was never monogamous) had no picnic. Mostly they did all the work in the relationship. Like indentured servants to a rock star.
They say her current partner is like a saint. And I believe them.
She would have wanted a saint as a partner.
Lets just say my level of co-dependence is less than hers and all the other official girlfriends before her.
And I am mourning her. But I wonder how much is a figment of my projection.
I am not a documented "friend" invited to her funeral processions.
I like your Haikus because they create an ocean of inner space.
I need that space now to float on.
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