Comments | i_llbedammned: Written while in the midst of a moderate breakdown.

i_llbedammned

Written while in the midst of a moderate breakdown.

Feb 27, 2008 13:04

I'm actually not doing well lately. It's strange. I've been through so many things more serious than this. You name it and I've probably dealt with it at some time in my life. For god's sakes I've dealt with fricken death better than this, even when I nearly got my own dumb self killed. But the testing is what's getting to me. ( Angst, angst, angst )

angst, college

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hkpadfoot February 27 2008, 19:30:04 UTC

Employers and colleges looking over shoulders is half the reason my LJ is on friendslocked. ^_^ *pats you*

I'm not sure I understand half of this, *is sort of half asleep* but I would like to say I feel for you, and I hope you can get control of things. Just take a deep breath. *nods*

And I totally understand that whole feeling where you think you understand something until you realize you don't. It's not a fun feeling at all. But there's still hope *nods* So hang on sweetie.

i_llbedammned February 29 2008, 22:27:49 UTC

Yeah. Another reason that you probably don't understand half of this is because it really doesn't make much sense. I wrote my confused thoughts down as they came and it was naturally quite disjointed. Thanks for your thoughts. ^_^

rissy_rae2000 February 27 2008, 20:39:37 UTC

*Hug ( ... )

i_llbedammned February 29 2008, 22:19:02 UTC

Thanks, Ai. Your reply actually helped a lot. It's not petty to compare high school and college, they're still the same breed of animal only a bit more reading and papers are expected in college. It's basically been the same with me through high school. I never really had to struggle that much with the work, since all my AP subjects were in classes that I did amazingly in anyway it wasn't that much of a stretch, and all that was really a trouble was math. It just took me longer than it took you for real life to decide to hit me across the face. Heh, people assume that I'm just going to get things and I don't like asking for help either...because I'm stubborn as hell and am convinced that I'll just start understanding things suddenly if I just keep going through despite the fact that I haven't understood half of what I just read. I'm going to go talk to the teaching assistant, like the professor junior, though. Maybe she'll help, it's worth a try.