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Who? Maisie MacIntyre
What? Run
When? Right now in grownhp6words
Where? Hogwarts
Why? ....
Two more attacks. The Durmstrang champion and Sebastian Savage…attacked. Badly injured.
Maisie doesn’t know any of the details. The school’s grapevine doesn’t move that quick. So far it’s all vague. Aurors and Healers called in. Blood in the halls. Mauling…
It wasn’t her. No matter how numb and dead inside she’d been feeling there was no lost time, she could account for every waking moment. She hadn’t attacked them but who was going to believe her? After all she was already a murderer.
She couldn’t catch her breath. Her plan had been to turn herself in to the Aurors. Explain what happened. Confess to what happened because she didn’t have an explanation for it, but she could confess. Admit that she’d been the one in the park and try and make things right But now with another attack in the school - they’d know that she was a killer and that she’d stayed …she hadn’t come forward when she realized what she’d done.
Too late. Maisie was too late in telling the truth. Whatever mercy they might have shown her right after the full moon was gone. She was the very monster they were looking for. Her stomach tied itself into knots. They’d never listen to her now.
She had to get out of the castle. She couldn’t wait until the next Hogsmeade weekend. She had to get out.
First she left the letters where they’d be found, then shouldered her bag and transfigured her clothes into a Durmstrang uniform. She allowed herself to be escorted to the ship but as soon as her escort was out of sight broke into a sprint away from the castle. As soon as she hit the edge of the grounds she apparated away.
Dear Dad and Mum,
I know when you find this letter there's nothing I can say that will help you not to worry. I'm so sorry. I couldn't stay here at Hogwarts and I can't go home. I don't know what to do.
The attack in the park, the night of the last full moon...it was me. I woke up the morning after and I was hurt very badly. And I knew all the blood wasn't mine. But I didn't remember the night before. I remembered Dad and Scorpius went one way and I just kept running.
At least I didn't remember at first. There were some dreams but--I thought that was all they were. That's all I wanted them to be. Nightmares. Nothing more than nightmares and I kept waking up thinking they would be gone in the morning. But they weren't really nightmares--they were my memories.
I remember now.
Not everything, but I remember enough that I know I was in the park. I remember the woman crawling into the bushes. I remember attacking someone. I remember they fought back...and I killed them.
I killed someone.
There's nothing I can do that will change that.
If there's no changing it then that means I have to find a way to live with it and live with myself. I have to be able to live with what I've done. I don't know how to do that but I know that I won't be able to if I hide and lie. I’ve kept quiet and let all of this escalate and now two more people have been attacked. You don’t have any reason to believe me but I swear it wasn’t me. No one will believe that now. It’s too late.
I don’t know what happens from here. I don’t know -anything. I never thought I was a monster, but I was wrong. 'I'm sorry' isn't enough. It's not nearly enough. But please understand I need to go and I need you to let me go.
- Maisie
Scorpius -
I'm sure you're going to hear what happened soon enough. It was me in the park.
I know you'll look out for Dad when I can't.
- Maisie
Capella,
I've been sitting here trying to write your letter for the last hour. Every time I start all I can think is 'Oh God, I don't want to go'. But I need to. I can't risk hurting anyone else, especially not you.
Please, please Capella be careful. Don't let anything or anyone get you out of the castle on the full moon. Be safe.
I love you,
Maisie
What? Run
When? Right now in grownhp6words
Where? Hogwarts
Why? ....
Two more attacks. The Durmstrang champion and Sebastian Savage…attacked. Badly injured.
Maisie doesn’t know any of the details. The school’s grapevine doesn’t move that quick. So far it’s all vague. Aurors and Healers called in. Blood in the halls. Mauling…
It wasn’t her. No matter how numb and dead inside she’d been feeling there was no lost time, she could account for every waking moment. She hadn’t attacked them but who was going to believe her? After all she was already a murderer.
She couldn’t catch her breath. Her plan had been to turn herself in to the Aurors. Explain what happened. Confess to what happened because she didn’t have an explanation for it, but she could confess. Admit that she’d been the one in the park and try and make things right But now with another attack in the school - they’d know that she was a killer and that she’d stayed …she hadn’t come forward when she realized what she’d done.
Too late. Maisie was too late in telling the truth. Whatever mercy they might have shown her right after the full moon was gone. She was the very monster they were looking for. Her stomach tied itself into knots. They’d never listen to her now.
She had to get out of the castle. She couldn’t wait until the next Hogsmeade weekend. She had to get out.
First she left the letters where they’d be found, then shouldered her bag and transfigured her clothes into a Durmstrang uniform. She allowed herself to be escorted to the ship but as soon as her escort was out of sight broke into a sprint away from the castle. As soon as she hit the edge of the grounds she apparated away.
Dear Dad and Mum,
I know when you find this letter there's nothing I can say that will help you not to worry. I'm so sorry. I couldn't stay here at Hogwarts and I can't go home. I don't know what to do.
The attack in the park, the night of the last full moon...it was me. I woke up the morning after and I was hurt very badly. And I knew all the blood wasn't mine. But I didn't remember the night before. I remembered Dad and Scorpius went one way and I just kept running.
At least I didn't remember at first. There were some dreams but--I thought that was all they were. That's all I wanted them to be. Nightmares. Nothing more than nightmares and I kept waking up thinking they would be gone in the morning. But they weren't really nightmares--they were my memories.
I remember now.
Not everything, but I remember enough that I know I was in the park. I remember the woman crawling into the bushes. I remember attacking someone. I remember they fought back...and I killed them.
I killed someone.
There's nothing I can do that will change that.
If there's no changing it then that means I have to find a way to live with it and live with myself. I have to be able to live with what I've done. I don't know how to do that but I know that I won't be able to if I hide and lie. I’ve kept quiet and let all of this escalate and now two more people have been attacked. You don’t have any reason to believe me but I swear it wasn’t me. No one will believe that now. It’s too late.
I don’t know what happens from here. I don’t know -anything. I never thought I was a monster, but I was wrong. 'I'm sorry' isn't enough. It's not nearly enough. But please understand I need to go and I need you to let me go.
- Maisie
Scorpius -
I'm sure you're going to hear what happened soon enough. It was me in the park.
I know you'll look out for Dad when I can't.
- Maisie
Capella,
I've been sitting here trying to write your letter for the last hour. Every time I start all I can think is 'Oh God, I don't want to go'. But I need to. I can't risk hurting anyone else, especially not you.
Please, please Capella be careful. Don't let anything or anyone get you out of the castle on the full moon. Be safe.
I love you,
Maisie