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hopita

Death

Nov 04, 2005 14:33

I wanted to update my journal once again because I'm still pretty freaked out about yesterday. Today's thoughts are mostly along the lines of not wanting to die alone, not wanting to be like Richard Brautigan, who lay dead in his apartment for weeks and was only found because the neighbors started to notice the smell ( Read more... )

gus, depression, death, isolation, loneliness

Comments 3

caelidh November 4 2005, 20:37:32 UTC

I hear ya.

I have felt at times that the only way they would notice I was dead if I didn't show up for work.

Which I guess counts for something.

but ya. I feel isolated and alone. I don't feel I have "best" friends. Folks that are there are a moments notice. Most folks I know are so busy and have other people way ahead of me on the totem pole.

Our society is crummy that way. I am sorry you feel so isolated and alone. Hang in there.

Peace

hopita November 4 2005, 20:45:37 UTC

Thanks, Caeli.

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hopita November 4 2005, 22:03:49 UTC

When I got arrested the night that the war started, it was lurpy who came to the rescue, though even then there were special circumstances (as in he knew I was going to a protest that day, and he saw on TV that they arrested hundreds of people, so when I didn't answer my cell phone for a day, he made the logical assumption). Now, even lurpy and I are barely in contact. I know these things happen -- friendships ebb and flow -- but it really did feel a little safer when I knew that I had a gay boy who would notice if I didn't answer my phone for 24 hours.