FIC: on the road to better, 2/4, NC-17

[hoosierbitch]

Title: on the road to better
Author: hoosierbitch
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Neal/Peter
Series: Broken Road: Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3.
Warnings: Consent issues, angst, reference to rough sex and fisting (full warnings can be found in the first part).
Word Count: 3,500
Notes: For those of you waiting for the happy ending: there will be a third part, and it should be

Comments

[speccygeekgrrl]

Okay, in all honesty? If it had just been the first one I never would have read it. But something about the description for this one piqued my interest, so I read the first one and it just about broke my heart, and then I read this one and it finished the job the first one started. I usually avoid angst, but this was so good in the most painful way possible. I'm really looking forward to the third part!

[hoosierbitch]

I'm so glad you read these, because you leave great feedback!! I'm sorry I broke your heart! *gives you glue* I hope the third part lives up to expectations!

[elrhiarhodan]

I think this is the best thing you've ever, ever written. I've cried before at your fic - but this is like a dagger right between the ribs. So incredibly beautiful, and true and perfect.

The best part? This:

"So you weren't faking that?"

"Faking what?"

"That you like me."

"I like you, Peter," Neal whispers, and his voice is hoarse. "I miss you."

"I miss you, too." If Peter wanted to he could reach out and grab Neal. Could hit him or kiss him or force him to suck his cock. Peter's spent so long questioning every move he makes that he just - freezes, in that moment of painful honesty and hope.

But then Neal puts his hand, palm up, on the middle of the seat. And Peter clasps it and it's sweaty and Neal holds on too tightly and honestly they're not middle schoolers anymore, but it - it feels right. And maybe this, too, is a lie - but it doesn't feel like one. It's uncomfortable and imperfect and not like anything he and Neal have ever shared before. It feels...real.

I am honored to read this. Thank you, thank you, thank

[hoosierbitch]

This comment is so, so wonderful, IDEK. Thank you. I'm so glad you're enjoying the ride.

[daria234]

This is wonderful. SO glad you did more of this series. Peter's reaction seems so real and so does Neal's explanations - love everything!

[hoosierbitch]

Thank you, daria! I'm glad the reactions and explinations were IC and real to you! Thank you for your feedback! :D

[tuckatangent]

GAH! I'm so happy you continued, because that last part about made me suicidal, hehe. Thanks for ending on a note of hope, and I look forward to the next section.

[hoosierbitch]

Thanks for your feedback! I'm glad it resonated with you, but sorry it made you suicidal (not exactly the intended reaction...). The series as a whole WILL have a happy ending, I promise, even if the individual parts don't. :D Thank you!!!

[tuckatangent]

Yeah, I just meant I hate seeing Neal sad. It makes me sad for him. But it was very realistic and well-done. :-)

[photoash]

This is so amazing -- I don't even feel like I can properly express how moving it is!

That you picked it up right at the end of last chapter is so brave and brilliant in and of itself!! Almost every line is chock full of meaning -- I think my favorite was:
"I raped him," he repeats. "Until he couldn't fake it anymore."
and
I learned a long time ago that nothing's free. And nobody gives you anything without expecting something in return."I think Neal is lonely too and you wrote it so beautifully and heartrendingly. that he misses peter makes sense -- he didn't want to lose his relationship with Peter and El to begin with but Peter didn't understand and Neal didn't know how to tell him

[hoosierbitch]

Ash, you are so many buckets of awesome, I cannot carry them all at the same time. THAT IS HOW AWESOME YOU ARE. I honestly would not have finished the next part without your support and cheerleading. You are wonderful. Thank you.