Comments | honeylocusttree: Fic: Thinking about What a Friend Had Said, PG, 3/3

honeylocusttree

Fic: Thinking about What a Friend Had Said, PG, 3/3

Oct 30, 2012 11:36

Thinking about What a Friend had said(3/3)
Warnings: Discussion of death, characters being mean to each other.
Summary: Follows Hoping for Replacement. John attempts to make peace with his eldest sons. Things don't go as he'd planned. John POV

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( “Dad,” Adam said, voice carefully modulated to carry as little emotion as possible, “When are you coming home?” )

sam, john, dean, au, fic

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honeylocusttree October 30 2012, 18:30:14 UTC

Yeah sometimes Sam's ability to be a scary-as mofo comes in real handy. Like here! I had a lot of fun writing him in this. He's just so ready the whole time to rip John's head right off.

Really happy you liked this, despite having to put up with almost 5000 words of John's general assholery. It was a tough writing experience but I'm lad it paid off. Thank you so much!

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honeylocusttree October 30 2012, 20:05:50 UTC

Well, that's the main storyline I'd had in my head for the setting, so I'd intended this to be a fic complete (mostly) in itself. I didn't have any big ideas for follow-up fics, but that doesn't mean there could never be any. I just knew for certain that the main tension would be John coming back, so that any longer fic I did had to deal with that. Afterward...well, there's certainly a ton of possibilities, though I don't have any concrete plans. But with fic, you never know...;)

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honeylocusttree October 30 2012, 18:24:22 UTC

I put off writing this for something like 2 months (?) or however long it's been since I did the last chapter, just because I *knew* it was going to be John POV and I kept hoping some other option would prevent itself. It didn't. :( So I had to buckle down and just write it. It was actually really interesting, because of the challenge,though, so I guess it's a net positive experience. Thank you very much, I'm really glad that John's dickishness here didn't ruin the fic for you. ;) Really happy you enjoyed it.

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honeylocusttree October 30 2012, 23:51:43 UTC

Yeah, I totally take more chances with fic than I'd do with original stuff---it's probably why I write so much of it. It's a good chance to stretch myself.

On the other hand there are a billion and one premises and what-all I wouldn't dare touch, so I'm actually a really limited writer. But there are a lot of aspects of this based on RL experience, so I kind of cheated a little. Tee-hee!

cassiopeia7 October 30 2012, 18:33:02 UTC

Oh, my gosh, you've kinda broken my heart here. (I totally understand why Sam behaved the way he did, but . . . augh. Poor John. Poor Dean. Poor Adam. You shredded everyone's heart, haven't you?)

Awesome story, though! And I love that "little" Dean still takes command like "big" Dean would have.

honeylocusttree October 30 2012, 23:38:02 UTC

Poor everyone was pretty much my goal, yah. I have no idea how things worked out at the Winchester-Milligan house, but I imagine there was some fallout. :D My favorite thing! And scary-ass-sonuvuabitch!Sam is actually underused in fic, imho, so he was a lot of fun to write. I think as this is his second go-round at life he genuinely doesn't care anymore about right and wrong--all he cares about is looking after the only person in the world who matters to him. So he just does whatever he wants. I think John got off pretty easily, to be honest. ;)

Thanks for reading! It was tough to write, I had to really wring out the old rock o' creativity to get anything on paper, so I'm glad you enjoyed it despite its grimness!

ferrous_wheeler October 30 2012, 22:28:52 UTC

Great fic! Sam and Dean may not be hunting, but it seems like they've wound up in some sort of hell or purgatory. Heart rending for just about everybody - almost felt sorry for John, but not really, so you managed that balance beautifully!

honeylocusttree October 30 2012, 23:29:59 UTC

Aw, it's not that hellish. Actually the neighborhood is kind of based on a place I lived in Cincy, though a bit more crowded. And there are a lot of little nods to personal experience in here. It's not particularly afterlife-horrible, just sort of the reality of some people's lives, where sometimes people aren't very kind to each other and terrible things happen for no reason at all. Um. I guess that's kind of depressing? But I tried to end on the positive idea that at least Sam and Dean have each other. And while I don't really feel sorry for John either, at least I think his behaviour isn't outside the realm of possibility. I think we're all a little more like this version of John than we'd maybe like to admit to ourselves. Scary as that may be!

I'm glad you enjoyed it anyway! I definitely went into the bleak and depressing zone with this, which can be tough to get through, so thanks very much for reading!

antrazi October 30 2012, 22:29:30 UTC

At the moment I'm not sure what to say.
On one side John is auch an #&!% that you want to hit him, on the other hand he wasn't completely dickish, even if he chose the easiest way.
And while it's always clear what Sam could do he isn't normally portrayed in such a aggressive manner.
Perhaps you will write another in this verse?

honeylocusttree October 30 2012, 23:25:16 UTC

Oh well, I like badass!scary!Sam. Actually i do think there's precedent. And anyway while on the one hand John is in a tough situation...he did take off on his kids and abandon them for 15 years, with no intention of ever contacting them. Sam being kind of mean to him is far from the worst thing that *could* have happened to him.

I didn't have any big plans to write more, but as I said above of course anything is possible. The main thing I really wanted to address is the whole issue of what would happen if John came back. After that...well, who knows what the future could hold? There are certainly some possibilities. Anything could happen!

Thanks for reading!