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[honeyandvinegar]

Had to work out kinks on the new laptop, otherwise I would've been here yesterday. I still can't get up the nerve to go to my long-ignored friends-list and pay witness to what HAS to be the most enormous, bittersweet explosion of love to our lovely mews1945... I've been assaulted by grief-filled experiences for close to a year now, a huge chunk of the

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[prisca1960]

**sniff** Honey, this is a wonderful post. And I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes again.

Especially one sentence makes me smile (maybe you can figure out which one). Without Mews I would have stopped writing a long time ago. For her I did write my first C&Z story ever (and yes, it was ... ähm ... not the best). She was there to read and comment and encourage me through all the years. And even now, when almost no one is interested in the Fandom anymore she was still around. The last comment I got only some weeks ago, when she was already very weak and not around often anymore. And then, out of the blue, I got her comment: This story made me laugh.

It's hard to accept it, that this will never happen again. :( She was a very special wonderful lady and I will never forget what she has done for me (and for the whole Fandom and LJ world, of course)

[honeyandvinegar]

But it doesn't *matter* if you're not "the best", because we're not here to fight for Pulitzers or awards. The reward has always been getting to share fun stories about fun boys (or ebul stories, ebul boys ;)), and that's what Julia represented in fandom. That's why we love her. :)

I'm gonna try to be around more. It may take me a while to get back into the swing of things, but I *need* this place. I've missed it so, so much. *hugs*

[verangel]

Ditto all you just said!!!!! Damn the tears are rolling down my face but in such a good way. Grief healing and Julia living way. You just represented so many of us and our feelings even though yours is far more personal with the loss of your own mother which Amanda and family are now living. Oh I regret not getting one of this big giant marshmallow hugs but it is what it is. I feel so glad that I KNOW in my heart that Julia knew I loved her and adored her words in stories that gave her heart and souls in details that could make you hungry for that peice of apple pie!! You wrote all this on that laptop? I'm so glad you have it because you just gave a gift of love and a full embodiment of a glorious human being we love and will remember and continue to embrace her stories and think of her and know she is whole in her essence. Love you V. Your v. Xoxoxo.

[honeyandvinegar]

Well, yea! Had another insomnia bout, the comp was configured (again, yay, panmodal!) and I was ready to post. I'll be going through the f-list soon... miss everything, so much. And as you know, it's always been on my mind. :) Love you guys so, so much. And againagainagain, thanks so much for being around as you have, with your mountains of encouragement, help and cheer. You're a big reason I haven't given up, and not just when it comes to writing and LJ. I've needed exactly what you've given me.

*hugs and hugs forever*

[verangel]

And I'm so glad I could be there for you and all worked out. Oh let the brilliant untamed mind go wild!! Read your stuff out loud and she may hear you! 💞💞

[claudia603]

This is one of the most heartfelt, moving tributes of all. God, I'll miss her. I will. (I miss you, too, and hope to see more of you again when you're ready! *hugs you tightly*)

[honeyandvinegar]

Love you, honey. We'll miss her, but she's never gonna "leave" here. We'll have her writing to go back to, fun posts we'd all spammed with comments, everything. That's why I've never stopped thinking of everyone and everything, here. I may have been thrown off orbit from this world, but the conjunction is coming. :)

[romeny]

What a sendoff! Honey, this made me tear up then smile through the tears. First I'm so glad you had folks get to you with this news; our hearts are broken but we are cheered to have known Julia even those that only met her online. That's how strong her essence showed through. She was such a positive, encouraging individual, encouraging writers with her recs and beta-ing work. This is a huge blow to the fandom but we can still feel her presence here.

Take care of you and yours dear, I do think about you time to time & I'm cheered you remember my Strawberry Daquiris fondly. *hugs you*

[honeyandvinegar]

I've lurked a bit here and there, though going through the f-list has been a daunting task to configure. Not because I don't *want* to, but being so outta touch makes me feel a little insecure. I hope you've been well and wonderful, dahlink! *hugs*

[lijahlover]

Awww lovely tribute to a beautiful lady. You were able to give her a hug from all that wished we could.

I will miss her always I am so happy she was in my life.

I also think of you and hope to see you post more if able.

I am sorry about this year being so bad for you.

You said how we all feel about Julia.

[honeyandvinegar]

Hiya, hunny. :) It's been hard, but I gotta come back. I miss everyone too damned much, all the love, stories and everyday-encouragement from people I've gotten more love and caring from than people two steps away. Seriously. *hugs*

[lijahlover]

*hugs back*