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[hinodesol]

Let's see. there have been nice things happening today. And not so nice things. I'll start with the good ones

Comments

[damagea]

I'm so sorry to hear that. My Grandfather also passed away last summer, I haven't still realized it completely. We never were that close (I'm more close to my Mom's dad who's still alive) but it's hard to describe the feeling when my Father called me. And the funeral is always hard, no matter how many times one has attended. Although, I didn't even cry much there... the first real cry happened when my Mother called and said that Grandfather's house is finally on sale in the internet. It was the very first time I understood that he's actually dead when I saw pictures of the empty house. I know this isn't helping you but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone and you're not going through this alone.

But we must be happy that we have those precious memories of our loved ones. I'm sure they want us continue living happily on.

Hang on there! :'< I'll send you a hug and a big amount of strength for your whole family!

[hinodesol]

Thank you. <3 For everything you said. Sorry, I can't figure out anything else to say but thanks for commenting. It really makes me feel better. To see how peole care about me. It means a lot.

[rin_aokuro]

i feel so sad for you atm. ): *hug*

the summer 2009 felt the same to me - my granny was in the hospital and everytime my phone rang and i saw it was one of my parents who called, i was just so afraid they'd tell she's dead. i, too, had been in the funeral of one kaukaisempi sukulainen, so it was kind of...sad kind of practicing and kind of preparing myself to the sadness that'd touch me, too.

and hey, girl. cry as much as you need to. it probably feels bad but keeping it inside only makes it worse.
i don't know if it means much to you, though, but i'll pray for you and your family tonight. i promise. and i know i'll be heard.

good night - let's hope tomorrow is a better day! remember, you're not alone. ♥

[hinodesol]

*hug* Thank you. D: It was the same for me, the last funeral was of a person I didn't really know. And I still cried there, so I'm gonna cry a lake at the next one...

And that really means so much to me. Thanks. <3 Everything you said does.

[rin_aokuro]

it's okay to cry even a lake. i did so in my granny's funeral. and after the funeral, too. many, many times. i still do sometimes, though now it's already easier when it' been 1,5 since her death.

i just wish i could hug you right now for real.

[hinodesol]

Yeah... I cried so much last night when going to bed. And again in the morning when reading all the comments I got.

I wish that too, really. Next time I see you I want that hug.

[chained_akame]

Aww sweetie,I'm sorry for your grandfather *hugs* My grandma has sth cancer-related to her stomach too,so I totally feel you :(

[hinodesol]

*hugs* Thank you, that means a lot. And I hope your grandma will be better.

:(

[wehwehchen]

Very sorry. Always hurts to lose family