(Hate + Want) x 30

[hilandercs]

Day 13

HateI hate self-censorship. I hate that even when I'm being my most honest and expressive, I always have to stop myself and think "Who's going to read this and what are they going to think? How might my words be used against me at a later date

Comments

[eowyndreams]

Re: hate - this reminds me of something you recently quoted.

"Not only could I make [people] happy or sad, but I was responsible for the way I interacted with them."

Responsibility sucks.

And I second the want.

[shadowcat410]

We, as a society, put too much emphasis on external beauty. Hence, the reason for so many stupid and selfish people. Like I said before, I would trade some pretty for some smart, without a doubt. Here's mine:
Hate - I hate when I can't pick up something or learn quickly because it makes me doubt myself. "I should know this..." That self-doubt turns into an immense fear and I wonder about my abilities, how fast my brain can work, how genetics comes into play...etc. Scary.

Want - I want to be able to read something once and understand it. I want to be able to comprehend, but not only comprehend, to be able to know it so well I can teach someone else. My lack of quick learning really frustrates me because I have the desire to do and be great things. As an attorney, you must be able to think fast and compute complex legal terms, statutes and case law. Sorry... I didn't mean to spill on your LJ. I am gonna hush now. I just miss talking to you.