Life and Death

[hikaizer]

I haven't posted here for a while. I can be pretty passive when it comes to social media on the Internet; I enjoy reading and following others yet in turn I am very bad at actually updating and communicating my own experiences. I'm great at starting things but not so great at finishing them. Part of this is why I love sketching, I can draw the

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[nervous_neuron]

I didn't know Steven very well, as you know I haven't really been in close contact with korner. I have not seen him for years or heard how he was, until last week when the news was broken on livejournal. I thought that itself was pretty messed up. And I didn't decide to read some LJ entries on that day, I might have never known, or would have found out much later

[aeduna]

There are a few situations where it can be very hard to approach someone and try and connect with them - things that they have done, or experiences they've had that makes it feel like there is a big gulf between where you are and them. Suicide attempts are one of those (psychotic breaks, or being a soldier in a war would be two others that come to mind) because without having been in that extreme situation, its hard to empathise with why someone would go that way

[kristalyamaki]

What you have written have made me think of this: what if I were the one who had committed suicide? Would my funeral be attended by many, including of those who I am not close with? When I think about it again, I came to the conclusion that the higher the attendance, the happier I would have felt, regardless of whether I was close to those people when I had been alive.

Therefore I can say that you don't have to feel like a thief or an interloper - I'm sure Steven your friend there would have appreciated it that you have actually attended his funeral when you could have missed it.

[tortoises]

In the end, how well you knew him won't really matter; no matter how much you wonder, how much you wish you had spent more time with him, even if you had spent every moment with him that you could, you'll still end up wishing you had known him better, wishing you could have seen him more, wishing you were a better friend.