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[high_rowla]

i really need to remember to take my pills. i think i took 1 of 4 pills between saturady and sunday and i'm a fucking wreck today. the suicidal thoughts are getting worse, turning into urges, so i think i'm going to pawn or sell my gun, shit's getting scary. i need to get back into the doctors office and tell them that this prozac is only doing so

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[jetsam_jane]

if you're interested, i know someone who used to grow medical and he's very skilled in all ways of preparing weed in all kinds of delicious, non-smokable ways. i know you don't have much of a problem with smoking in the first place, just thought i'd throw that out there.

and i thought you were on wellbutrin?? isn't prozac just another ssri? i've heard nothing but bad shit about ssris and suicidal thoughts.

[high_rowla]

yeah i don't have any problem with weed consumption, the problem i have is thc in my blood and applying for federal jobs. kind of an oil and water situation.

the doctor switched me to prozac, the wellbutrin did absolutely nothing for me.

-randy

[queen_pandora]

Randy!

I thought you were selling that things months ago! Pawn that shit, yo!

I hope your doctor can find something that will actually help you (and that you remember to take) instead of something that just lets you tread water. I kind of like having you around, even if I only see you once every few months. : (

< 3 Hang in there, bud.

[thatgoesinthere]

Do you use an alarm on your phone to remind you to take your meds? That usually helps me remember.

I've heard that it's really easy to become dependent on Prozac and you have to be weaned off of it. Are the suicidal thoughts only getting worse since you've been skipping pills or have they been getting worse for awhile?

[high_rowla]

i do have a cell phone alarm set, the bad thing is i just ignore the alarm and forget to take the pill. it's my own goddamned laziness, i know this. as for the thoughts, the random thoughts of suicide throughout the day went away, but when i get in arguments the suicidal urges are the first place my mind goes. i'm sure the pill skipping doesn't help at all, but it happens when i don't skip as well. i'm going to make another doctors appointment soon and talk about it, hopefully the doctor i get this time won't be completely retarded.

-randy

[thatgoesinthere]

One would most certainly hope that their physician isn't a complete retard.