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[high_flyer87]

Only some of you will understand, and even less of you will care, but...

I'll post more on this later (at least in bits and pieces, just to pay respects) when I'm home and can give this the attention it needs, but right now, all I can say is I. Am. Broken.  Never in my life have I been so emotionally affected by a show--and that includes all the

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[freakgeeknation]

Honey you don't need to explain ANYTHING to me. I love SPN we all know this. But there has never been someone on the show who DIED that either affected me or that didn't come back you know?

Even the ending of Queer as Folk, which was my LIFE for a long time (and it ended REALLY SAD. No one DIED but the main ship in the fandom did NOT end up together so it was kinda sad) didn't affect me like the ending of Torchwood.

I'm not sure if you have ever watched the show or want to but all I will tell you is the above crying and sobbing and locking yourself in your room over a death on your show is exactly what I did at the ending of last Season's Torchwood. My whole SOUL and the character that I was IN LOVE WITH MORE THAN CASTIEL, SAM ETC, ANYONE, is gone and now I have no idea how to even HANDLE the show when it returns in July

So yeah. Cry away babe. I'll cry with you because I still get sick to my stomach at the thought.

xoxoxoxoxox

[high_flyer87]

*glomps*

I got emotional when Ellen and Jo died, because it was a beautiful scene, and I loved them, but dear God it wasn't NEAR as bad as this. Normally I don't even get attached to tv shows, or care one way or another whether one character dies or not. I'm usually just painfully indifferent. But SPN, and now Southland, have really made me get sort of crazy-protective over the characters.

The last time I remember feeling this distraught was after seeing "Swan Song," but that's because I was just overwhelmed with everything that had happened, and I was more upset over myself than any of the characters. I didn't care one way or another that Dean was hurting, but when Nate died last night, all I could think about was what's gonna happen to Sammy, how's Sammy gonna deal with this, what's his wife and kids gonna do! I was a mess! XD

*sigh* I'm glad someone understands unhealthy attachment to characters XD Lord knows I don't, and I'm having trouble dealing with it.

[freakgeeknation]

Dude, exactly. When Ianto died (And this is a LEGIT slash pairing. It's canon in the show, kissing, sexing and all) and said THESE WORDS: It was good, yeah? In a 1000 years time you won't remember me. I love you. AND THEN DIED IN JACK'S ARMS I seriously FELL TO MY KNEES on the floor. I didn't GO OUT for DAYS. I would be at work and be like OMG IANTO IS DEAD. HOW IS JACK GOING TO GO THRU THE REST OF HIS LIFE WITHOUT HIM (he cant die which HOW DEPRESSING IS THAT?) HOW CAN THEY MAKE A NEW SEASON WITHOUT IANTO?????

*clings*

So I'm with you.

All the way.

*holds you and cries together*

Oh, btw, *points to icon* Thats my Ianto. *siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiighs*

[high_flyer87]

Oh god. See I can't even imagine what I'd have been like if these two were a legit couple. They loved each other, sure, but as best friends, and partners on the force. If they'd been romantically involved I think I'd have died myself :(

[sakura_no_mi]

*hugs* I'm not sure if you know how much of an unhealthy attachment I had to Nathan on Heroes? I too felt crazy for letting it affect me as much as it did. IDK if it's 'cause I was so heavily involved in the fandom that it sort of fueled my fire, but anyway... you're not alone, ya know? These characters become part of our lives for better or for worse and it can't really be helped the way it affects us. Still gonna name my firstborn son Nathan when the time comes <3

[high_flyer87]

*hugs* Thank hun. I needed to hear I'm not the only one with unhealthy attachment issues. Seriously. I think I'm so attached to these characters because the fans had such a deep involvement with bringing the show back (it was canceled after the first season, but the fans rioted), so I feel sort of protective over them. And then something like this happens and I just don't know how to deal.