I don't know.

[heynostalgicjoy]

Is it my turn already? Okay. Lets hear this.

Everyone is losing this war, this battle. We're all wounded and shot red in the chest. No one gets out of this unscathed. Time is running out to make a decision. I've told you all that I don't know. I've been making small decisions in my head, all of which were horrible ones leading to the big question.

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[xtremevietboy]

hey. yo. let's put this to rest. i got caught up in everything and stuff got lost in my head, stuff got set in my mind cause i was way too happy and expecting too much. but after that, two naps and i thought about all the happiness we had before the crap. absurd jokes and late nights like we've known each other forever, not a stupid care in the world. i miss it. but yeah. i'm taking huge steps back for the sake of all of us, because i really need to. take all the time in the world you need, and space. whatever happens, after everything settles, i'm still just a kid wanting (to keep) friends. Your smile is sunshine. [i didn't delete anything...i didn't think it was very positive so it's on private. its also something i wrote when i felt retarded, bad bad bad]
let's go back to innocent smiles and puffy laughs, if we can ever again. there's no dead end anywhere ahead. but steps back, slow to a snail's pace.
thanks xo

[heynostalgicjoy]

Thanks. It's what I need. I miss being great friends with all you guys and we don't have to hide or sneak around or anything. Emotions get in the way of life. So does chemistry. We should just start from the beginning or something. Whatever's good. As long as it's not where we're at now. Sorry for making you expect too much. What was with us? It was just the cold, I'm guessing. Sorry for devastating you [if any]. Thanks for taking everything I said/wrote to heart. And sorry if this hurts. I really need this, too.