everything in it's own time

[hetaira9]

I am repeating a pattern and I don't know how to break myself from it. I know what I'm doing now, just like I knew what I was doing then, and I'm just as miserable. Do you know how hard it is to be completely conscious of one's feelings and behavior and yet unable to do anything about it? It's crazy, like a sudden schism in free will

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[jenniferblaufra]

Oh, hon. I relate. This weekend has been intensely hard for me. If you want to get together for coffee sometime (or whatever), I'm game. Sounds like we'd have a lot to talk about -- the good and the bad.

[halogenerate]

Sounds like the quarter life century crisis. I used to beat myself up all the time - comparing, contrasting, convincing myself I was crazy, etc.

It was exhausting.

Then one day I just stopped doing it. Or if I do it now, I catch myself and am able to redirect my emotions.

You know, Pooks, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm just a phone call away.

Love you lots. Hang in there, my dear friend. *hugs*