[gazefic] it will be a life long thing [aoi/ruki]

[hereticpop]

cleaning my WIP folder?
I lost count of how many times I said I would write them again. but then I did. they turned out pretty hopeless. I think I like them that way.

it will be a life long thing

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[quarrions]

I thought I was going to bed but apparently I am not

brb reading

[hereticpop]

I actually owed you this. they were supposed to be obscene, but angst was speaking too loud in my head.

[quarrions]

angst does that!!!!

it always drowns every other feelings out anyway
but I think I like it that way the best actually - for some reason angst is the most plausible emotion for me (can I even call it emotion? it´s more like a set of them) - I think you can oftentimes even get a hold of it physically :/

[quarrions]

though in the end obscene and angsty doesn´t disqualify each other I think

“Maybe we should go after all,”

and Ruki just spits him the fuck out.

“What is this?” he asked grabbing him and Aoi wasn’t getting the least bit hard.

“It’s a dick,” Aoi said.

“God. You’re coming back, aren’t you?”

this part here is a pretty great example of that actually!!!

[quarrions]

“You know what, you know, let’s not,” he was saying, Aoi was saying, it was really him saying it and it took him by surprise, “let’s not go anywhere,” as he was clawing for something, frantic, impatient, rubbing Ruki’s thighs, Ruki’s thighs in his tight jeans. He was saying more words, because words seemed to be the currency, although he didn’t know what he was buying.

ok so in the end I am quite out of it, but this is what I liked, especially the repetition and then the whole comparison and that whole "You know what, you know, let’s not," and uh just fabulous

I am going to sleep now, I won´t comment more tomorrow because I am leaving, but ....I might do it once I am back...

in any case, I have been craving these two for quite a long time and now I feel sated - your fics can do that to a person

♥

[hereticpop]

a-hah! I am soooo happy you pointed this out, because there are just parts when you hear the melody of your text, but it's never sure if the reader will be able to hear it too or it will end up just sounding strange to them. so I'm really glad that this part appealed to you in particular. <3

I have been craving these two for quite a long time and now I feel sated - your fics can do that to a person
this... is a new thing to me. but omg, thank you.

♥

[quarrions]

are you my soulmate or what?

because there are just parts when you hear the melody of your text, but it's never sure if the reader will be able to hear it too or it will end up just sounding strange to them.

I think this was what made me so excited about your replies in particular. BECAUSE gbhdfjkghdlkfghdf; SERIOUSLY!!!!! this is exactly what I love
I mean this melody of the text - the other kind of voice that a certain text have and just ...yeah, I always question the same when I write something where I especially aim for some kind of "textual music" (I still don´t know if people can hear it in my fics but especially in Without mythologies I realized it is so sound, that I am hoping someone´s heard it there ahah)
I think that is one reason for which I love repetition so much, because it is one of the tools which helps you to compose the text, not only in literary way....

in any case, I thinkI am going to reread this again
damn, so goood

[hereticpop]

the melody is important! sometimes I think that maybe what makes us like someone's style is the fact that our melodies are in tune and we can hear the text's melody and we find it is something in our taste - unconsciously, more often than not, but still.
and maybe when we don't like something, it's because we can't "hear" it.
it's just a very not grounded theory, though. ;)

I am so flattered by your constant re-reading, you don't even know. thank you so much, and for all those comments too, they mean a lot. ♥

[quarrions]

ok, so I ended up reading it once more because the fabulous is seeping through and it pulled me back

and I just want to add that I really love Uruha´s presence in this despite the fact he is not there at all
I think he is a wise man as well

[hereticpop]

lol, you were going to bed, right?

my Uruha is like a holy existence. he's always there wthout being there. <3 now I kinda want to write something Uru-centric. >.>'

[quarrions]

you should write something about Uruha without Uruha being there at all

[hereticpop]

this sounds quite like a challenge, I like it. 8D
/damn, I need some Uru icons :P

[minka_g]

My god. What is this? Aoi/Ruki? Who are they again?

;)

Been soooo long since I read anything in this fandom. So, so, so, so, so long. I still have my icons though. So that is good.

Loved it, hon. It was so... well, grim in a way. It wasn't angsty and it sure as hell wasn't happy, but it sat right there in the middle to the point where I felt I was right there next to Aoi, just another patch of darkness in an already dark spot. I liked that.

And I loved you line about words being the currency though he wasn't sure what he was buying. That was put really well.

Thank you for sharing, and again, while I am not overly in the fandom anymore, post more cause I have missed your writing so much!

[hereticpop]

Ikr, who are these guys? what do they look like? it's a valid question, because I realised writing this that I picture them what they looked like a few years ago and as hilarious as it is, I cannot picture my Aoi silver haired and what the hell does Ruki's hairstyle even look like now? I don't know. but you have icons, that's a good thing. :D

I might be taking too much inspiration from real life, but somehow dark places, roads in the middle of the night and drunkenness are The Themes I Really Like and it's sort of easy to recreate their feeling. and I think you are right and grim might be a better word than angst for this, because there isn't anything sad about it, it's more like... life. I don't know.

ah, I am happy you liked that line because I thought it was a good line too. 8D

uh, I have such a love/hate relationship with writing fic and lately I really don't know what I want to do with it and if I should continue, but it's really hard to quit after all. i still plan to venture into fandom you are overly in, it's just that

[minka_g]

Aoi has silver hair now? WTF? Lol, shows how much I pay them attention these days. I did see the pink hair... horror. Yes, horror is the right word, and then decided to run away. And last I saw of Ruki he was looking like he stole Hazuki's old hair. But yes, it is really quite amazing that I still have icons...

Real Life inspiration is the only way to go hon, so don't worry about that. I mean sure, write what you want, but when you write what you know, well, that is where things get great.

I know what you mean about the love/hate thing. I am there at the moment, though slugging my way through another epic chaptered thing. It is fun and I am enjoying it but fuck. The reason I stopped ADC and THG was so I could focus on getting it changed and publishable. But instead I am again putting all this damn attention and work into more fanfic. Fuck life.

However, yes, you should so come and party in my new fandom. Though I am getting crazy obsessed with Band of Brothers now as well. Hmm, damn fandom.

[hereticpop]

he does, pretty much. the pink hair was at least great to make fun of, and I still believe that he believes he's a reincarnation of hide or something...

I have great respect for your knowing what you write, but I'm more of a writing what I know - or just plain making shit up and selling it as artistic ;) - type of person. so yeah. the fact that I don't know enough is just a different matter.

this is exactly the problem! someone once raised to my attention that when they do RP, they can't write fic, because those two somehow don't want to go together. it's the same for me, when I write fanfic, I can't write original fic [and vice versa]. I have amazing amounts of excitement for your another chaptered fic, actually, I just haven't had an occasion to sit down and read, but omg, war. omg, second world war. omg, second world war fiction. there is nothing better. but, it would be So Much Greater for the world if you could just publish something already, you know. ;D

lol. but Band of Brothers is about war! I might need to check it out!

[gratiela]

I feel exactly like aoi does right now- a black hole in the asphalt. adrunken hole. but it's ok, it all makes sense!<3#

I'll be back!

[hereticpop]

it's not a bad feeling, isn't it? oh you. <3