andy talked to me today...it was awkward. i just want to fix things if i can. no matter how much i want to hate him for hating me, i cant. hes my dear friend no matter what. even though he only spoke to me for like...5 minutes at least we talked. and i want to talk to him tomorrow. even if he is still angry at me. jesse youre stupid. dont do it ( Read more... )

i promised that i wouldnt hold my breath but i did it any way. im just gonna leave you alone from now on. so yesterday i hung out with jesse. then i got mad at him for an hour because he told me that he sent a msg to andy on myspace. =/ i dont need him or anybody else to feel sorry for me. i dont need my best friend being a big weirdo and finding ( Read more... )

yoshi youre dumb. im glad i dont pick up my phone after 10 ( Read more... )

to everybody that commented last night/today-thank you. ♥ ♥ ♥ even though it was a small amount that said something, it made me feel better ( Read more... )

so it turns out that andy is oki. i of course had to find this out on my own. at least now i cant say that hes the only person whos never hurt me on purpose. im getting tired of trying. and im tired of not being acknowledged by him. i hurt too, remember?

dont play me for a fool. dont make me any promises that you cant keep. just be a friend. thats all im asking from you. i dont want to be selfish. all ive ever wanted from you is your support and your guidence. i never wanted anything for you except happiness. whether that included me at the time or not. i miss you. and you hurt me yeah. but i hurt ( Read more... )

IF YOU WANT TO BE NOSY AND READ THE SHOUT OUT THINGY THAT I MADE FOR jey_s0n THEN GO BUT THIS POST IS ABOUT HAIR.....lol ( Read more... )

oki so
jey_s0n made a shout out thing for me because at 3-4 am this morning i went on his page and said "hey i didnt get a shout out!"...of course..i was just being silly and wanted to mess with him =P but im gonna make one for him since he did such a nice job making me feel special for today. yay. oki well im guessing your name is josue from your ( Read more... )

..kyle snores so much and so loud...im glad i agreed not to sleep today. she said "i can stay awake the whole night" THEN WHY DID YOU ASK ME IF YOU COULD SLEEP FOR 20 MINUTES AND FOR ME TO WAKE YOU UP THEN? loser. at 7 we're gonna go to dunkin donuts for coolattas and donuts and then we're gonna walk for a little bit and then im gonna cut my hair. ( Read more... )

i hate it when i turn into a big weirdo because i just get hurt in the end. i try to stay away but i cant which means im holding on to something and i dont want to because he doesnt care. he's made it clear in the past that he doesnt care. and im accepting that. but at the same time i get filled with this anger while im trying to accept that things ( Read more... )