your life is good ari. you're smart. you're loved. your family is all healthy.

champ.

he's right. sometimes he says really smart things. as my mom would put it "shane knows a lot of stuff"

hmm.i know he does.

two midterms and then i'm free. wish me luck?

sometimes all i need is some cookie dough and a smoke.
it's raining. again.
which means that smoking is impossible.
therefore all i have is some cookie dough, one of those roll ones and enough anthro reading to last we two weeks.
my hands are sticky now.
and i miss my mommy.
another pointless monday evening.

on a day like this
all i want to do is breathe
get in my car
drive the 20 miles
so that i am sitting in the middle of nowhere
light a cigarette
and breathe
suck in as much of the air as i can
remember what my lungs are there for
the final exhale reminding me
each time i spoke too soon
if home were that easy
it wouldnt take this long
to see it all

Tuesday, sun shining ( Read more... )

love. it taught me to lie.

recovering, mind, body, and soul.

everything takes so much time, and i've always been impatient.

take me home soon.

where is your boy tonight, i hope he is a gentlemen. maybe he won't find out what i know. you were the last good thing about this part of town.

i'm sorry.

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there's really no way to sum my saturday night up. i should sleep now though.

if i had to do it all over again, i wouldnt change a thing. i love you always.