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[hellziggy]

I haven't been posting much for a variety of reasons. Not a lot going on in my everyday life, random thoughts going in short bursts to Facebook or Twitter instead, not having time when I do feel like posting.

But the main reason is that I haven't been doing much of anything lately.

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[dragonsally]

Oh Fods, mine is the worst it has been in a while too. I just started crying at the start of your post... transference much Sal?
(I also just discovered that I forgot to have lunch, and therefore my lunchtime meds, which doesn't help much)

[hellziggy]

Yeah, doesn't take much for me to cry either. *hug*
Why can't things like this be easy to fix?

[genevra]

Ugh... mine's been worse too. I think mine's mainly situational, but it still sucks. Can you go back to the zoloft?

[hellziggy]

Yeah, I can go back to Zoloft if that's what we decide. Either that or try something new. Either way I'm done with Wellbutrin.

[kajicarter]

After Marian was born I fell into a black, sucking pit of depression. I'd always had issues with it, but this was...well, you know. They started me on Prozac, which was okay but it seemed to make me sleepy. Then we tried Wellbutrin. After a week or so (I don't remember how long it took to kick in), I called up the doctor and said "I am going off this NOW", as everything had gotten bad again, with a side of psychotic. Some people like Wellbutrin, but for others it can be really terrible. (Just as a side question, have they ever checked your vitamin D levels? I started getting massive doses of vitamin D, and it seems to help quite a bit.)

Hang in there! {{virtual hugs}}

[hellziggy]

I'm going to have the doctor check my vitamin D when I get in to see her. I don't think it's ever been done and it certainly can't hurt.

[genevra]

Out of curiosity, how much is a "megadose"?

[hellziggy]

I'm not in college any more.
I'm not sure I need an immediate walk in right now, but I will keep it in mind in case things get really bad in the next two weeks before I get in to see my doctor.
Just knowing that I can start getting things taken care of soon is helping.

[hellziggy]

Me & Rick see a therapist, but she's not a medical doctor. The psychiatrist will mainly be to manage my meds.

[scubagrrl]

Oh, honey, I didn't know. That sucks. I'm glad that you (or Rick) did notice it's getting bad again, and you can get help. Thank gods we live now, not 100 years ago.

I hear you about being the "easy" kid and not needing attention. Except we did need it. And now we can fill that space with attention from our friends- who don't take us for granted!

No advice to offer but I'm glad you're getting help. And I think two months is a stupid long time to make someone wait. Can they call you if there's a cancellation?

[hellziggy]

Of course you didn't know, silly. I didn't even know.
If we did live 100 years ago we'd probably be dead by now. We are both 40 after all! LOL
They don't have a cancellation list but I can keep calling to ask if there are any new openings.

[scubagrrl]

It's more that I feel out of touch, or something. I should have known you well enough to notice that something was wrong. Potentially pointless guilt. I know that.

I hope you feel like yourself real soon cuz you're a pretty great person! :)