The next couple of weeks are probably going to be difficult. Memories are flooding my head, and I still haven't forgiven myself for what I did. I'm most likely going to exhaust myself, and push myself beyond any limit to pay for my past ( Read more... )

I don't think people understand the amount of effort I put into controling myself. I work for my self esteem, it dosen't just come naturaly. The major thing people don't understand is that I actualy have a short temper, but I fight to keep it under control. I put a lot of effort into keeping my temper from flairing, and it isn't something to be ( Read more... )

For the past week, I have had the same dream. I was trying to protect someone, and kept getting beaten down. This morning I woke up after jumping into my desk, I guess I wasn't as assleep as I thougnt. The thing that bothered me most about the dream was that I was struct in the stomach and caughed up blood, and when I woke there was blood on my ( Read more... )

He was there when I actualy tried to kill someone. He was there whenever someone became out of hand towards me. If there ever was something I couldn't take on, he was there. When I worked on things by myself, he gave me company. I was the only one he didn't bite, though many times he should have. To be honest, his dumb presence was comforting ( Read more... )

Quotes of the day "we might've fallen from the horse, but not from the honor ( Read more... )

It seems like every now and then I make a huge leap in understanding myself. I have had the same goal and dream sence I was ten, and I let nothing stand in my way. The sad truth is, I still don't understand exactly what the goal is though I push so hard for it. I beleive everyone has a subconcious goal that they are trying to reach. I have proven ( Read more... )

Quote of the day "I came, I saw, I killed people ( Read more... )

Quote of the day "Is Wane Braidy gonna have to choke a bitch ( Read more... )

Quote of the day "Your fire arms are useless against them"

hehe, good old night of no sleep. Sorry about being down yesterday everybody.

I hate stupid people! Haha, great talks in the early morning.

Well, My thoughts are scattered, peace

It seems as if no matter where I go, and no matter what I do, I am faced with a multitude of conflicts that have not positive outcome ( Read more... )