3 tablespoons of hope, crushed
1 cup of love and hate, mixed 
1 dozen of promises, broken and beaten
3 packs of lies
Few droplets of sadness

Stir mixture thoroughly, adding in 2 teaspoons of disappointment every few stirs. 
Add desired amount of absence to taste.
Preheat oven, put in small, bite sized molds to bake.
1 serving. Best eaten after 3 years.

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Night falls. There's an alluring, unmistakable beauty in the mystery of the night. There are shadows everywhere; everything is a shadow. The moon glows, unlike the sun that glares, throwing everything into sharp relief. But ironically, in the night, my inadequacies come to light. My frustration, my fear, my sadness, my anger, my thoughts. They all ( Read more... )

When I hear your name, casually dropped into a sentence, in movies, in songs, in questions, out of my own mouth -- I first think of sunshine and the golden promise of everything beautiful. Your name is delectable, tasted on my lips, it sends a tiny smile in the corners of my mouth. It is wonderful to roll your name around on my tongue. It is nice ( Read more... )

How can I let you know, how can I let you see. All I need is for you, to be here for me. 

Just a little bit from behind the clouds, the sun peaks out. It shines a little, warms a little. But it still casts shadows of doubts. Am I putting out myself on the line, pegging myself to good times, allowing myself to be wrung dry, yet again? I've braved through storms and weathered the rain. Healed my hurt and staunched my pain. All with your ( Read more... )

You make me laugh with a single word. You make me miss the smell of your shirts. You make months of unhappiness vanish with a single happy moment. You make me wide-eyed with joy and all the wonderment. To me, this is how much you mean. This has how it has always been. All my life you'd be entwined, forever and ever and ever, with mine. 

There's a never ending well -- a void that cannot be filled even 
With the thousands of jars of tears I have spilled from my eyes
And my heart which was torn apart. These strong winds wreak
Havoc inside of me, tossing me around dangerously, silently.
Where is your safety, where is the shelter I seek? Where are 
The damned promises you said you'd keep? ( Read more... )

Little origami heart, how are you doing today? Maybe my little nickname of Paper Heart holds more meaning than I thought. My heart is folded up into so many complicated folds and creases. It takes people so much effort and skill to open me up. They'd unfold and unfold, to get to the center of it all. Oh my little delicate paper heart, it was quite ( Read more... )

Tonight.. I feel happy. I love Ties, the team, asses, the buffaloes and Ray (haha). I feel connected and comforted and tonight I wish that they feel happiness too! Yay!

Got awoken early on Monday morning by the parcel man, who delivered me happiness in a huge box. Packed my happiness and met Meow for a very spontaneous brunch to deliver her happiness to her. She then delivered happiness to Froggie and had a happiness party in their room. I went to give tuition and had a good session as always, and it was Rod's ( Read more... )