I was smarter and had a better memory as a kid. that way, I knew which questions to ask and what things to learn and keep in my head. I would have known to ask my gradparents about their health and be more pushy to meet my dads side of the family. I wish I cared more back then to get to know them while they were still alive. Now that I'm older I ( Read more... )

I've just been thinking lately. How nice it would be to have my own place to come home to. I lived on my own last year for the first time, and I didn't like it one bit. First of all, the place was so huge and scary and it cost alot just to keep the electricty going a month. It really was a scary place to live in. For instance. There's the huge ( Read more... )

I usually hate being late for anything, appointments and school and such. I was late for school today but that was planned for about a week because I had an appointment today. It feels kind of wierd coming in after class starts. Like, different. Because everyone knows something I don't. What was said in the beginning. And I'm walking around, blind ( Read more... )

School is going really well right now. I'm not behind in anything whatsoever. Infact, I went beyond that and did extra because most of the time I'm sitting there with nothing to do. Anyway. Me and this girl in my class were talking about taking extra courses with another school next semester. I'm thinking that it's gonna be a good idea and it'll ( Read more... )

I logged in.

And forgot what I was gonna say.

Oh, shit. Ma. You had no idea how close I was to delivering my letter. I stood in the doorway, tears in my eyes. As you asked me where I was going... I planned on going for a walk after I gave you the letter to give you time to react. But I couldn't. I just looked you in the eyes and knew that now isn't the time. My heart raced. My heart ached. And ( Read more... )

Times with the younger is still a challenge for me. But I'm keeping in mind that she's still legally a child and she isn't my mature equal. Oh, but. It's so easy to forget when you're that frustrated. It's hard work that will always be there until we die.

Anyway.

School is going good, still. We got our attendance reports back on monday and I've ( Read more... )

She's a psycho, I'll admit to that. I don't know, man. She was getting annoying, even though she was in the other room and I'm like, fuck. Okay. Can you turn your music down? Few seconds pass. She says, Can I have my hat back? Uhh, no. Why would she want it any way it does not by any means suit her at all. It's a mans hat. So. I say no. She walks ( Read more... )

I'm turning 23 in a week. I don't feel this old. I feel just like I always did.

I don't know why. But everytime I let my emotions get the best of me (rarely EVER) I always feel really like, ashamed and gross that I cried in front of someone ( Read more... )